Chapter 5

The Mistake

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Ryan crossed his arms as he stared at Marissa. "Okay, what is it you wanted to tell me?" he asked curiously.

Marissa was about to tell him, but she didn't know what was wrong with her…All the words she wanted to say were there but from some reason they wouldn't escape her mouth. "I…" she started, she looked down for a split second then back up at him. "I love you, Ryan. I always will, I always have. I just really wanted you to know that. I just wish everything could go back to the way they were before, because I just really want you to come back to Newport." She finally managed to get her feelings out in the open, she felt better now that Ryan knew how she felt.

Ryan listened to everything Marissa had to say. He felt the same; he wished that none of this happened with Theresa. But it did, and he couldn't change that. "Marissa…I'm sorry. I can't just take off, Theresa needs me right now." he tried to explain to her.

Marissa's eyes began to tear up a little bit. "But what about me?" she said, her tone of voice getting slightly louder. "I need you too!" she admitted to him. Tears now started to stream down her cheeks.

Ryan looked down for a moment, and then turned his attention back to her; he took a step closer to her, razing his hand up to her cheek wiping her tears away. "Your right, I know you need me. And believe me, if I could go back to Newport I would in a heartbeat, just so I could be with you. But Theresa needs me to. I have a responsibility here, I have a child to take care of." He told her, he tried to put in the best way he could. He wanted to be with Marissa…He really did. But, Theresa and he had a kid together. He couldn't change that. No matter how much he wished he could.

Marissa jerked away. "You don't even know if it's your kid! It might be Eddie's! You don't know that!" She protested in defense…She couldn't exactly control what she was saying…The words were just spilling out of her mouth. At this point, she would do anything to get Ryan back.

Ryan sighed. "Look, Marissa. A lot's happened in my life sense I've left Newport. One of the things being…I took a test to see if the child was mine. It came out positive…So; I have a child…With Theresa. That's exactly why I need to stay." He told her.

More and more tears began, streaming down Marissa's cheeks at this point. "Oh…" she said a' lot quieter. She sat down in the chair that was behind her. She sat there, staring at the wall in a daze for a moment.

Ryan looked down at her. "Marissa….I'm sorry. I didn't mean, to hurt you. I just thought you probably had a right to know." He said with a small shrug.

Marissa nodded. "Yeah." She said, still in her daze of the wall. She finally snapped out of it looking up at him, she wiped her eyes and stood up, grabbing her purse. "I should probably get back. It was nice to see you." she said with a fake smile. She walked passed him starting for the exit.

Ryan stood there for a second; he couldn't just let her leave like that. He turned starting after her; he grabbed her arm, indicating for her to stop. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you, in any way. That's the last thing I wanna do right now. I'm glad you came here. I missed you, Marissa." He said…It was the truth. He did miss her, he had wanted to go visit her and The Cohen's in Newport but he'd been so busy with work and all of Theresa's doctors appointments that he never had time to drive down there and see how everyone was. He also knew that if he did go down there to visit…He wasn't exactly sure if he'd be able to leave.

Marissa turned facing him. She nodded, and smiled slightly. "Yeah, I bet you did. That's why…You never called…Visited. Never checked up not once to see how me or…Seth…or Sandy…or Kirsten were doing. Yeah, you really care." It pained her to say this to him. But it was true. He never once made an effort to call and check up on everyone, she knew he must have been busy. But, she also knew that he must have had sometime to at least make a phone call. She pulled her arm out of his firm grip, turning and walking out. She walked toward her car, unlocking the door and getting inside. She pulled the sleeve of her coat up, looking at all of the cuts. She ran her finger across them feeling the bumps. She grabbed her keys, she put the sharp edge of the key to her skin pulling it down her arm, and she dropped the keys when she started to feel the pain. Tears started form in her eyes and she began to sob quietly. She picked her keys up and wiped the blood off with a napkin that she retrieved from her purse. She started the car up and drove out of the parking lot of the construction site. She speeded down the street heading back to Newport. She couldn't be in Chino for another second. She hated it here.

Ryan watched her run off, and this time…He let her. She was right; he didn't make an effort to try to see her or Seth. Or even at least call them to see how everything was going. What the hell was wrong with him? He wondered. He grabbed a vase off of the table and threw it at the wall in anger. He sighed as he walked out of the building, he heard the lady at the front desk calling to him some remark like 'you break it you buy It.' but he chose to ignore it. Right now, he had other things on his mind.

Flashback

(This is a flashback of when Ryan took the test at the hospital to see if the baby was his or not.)

Ryan looked at his reflection in the bathroom mirror. He had just taken the test to see if the baby was his or not, the doctor had told both him and Marissa that the results would be coming back shortly. He just didn't want to be there to find out, so he decided to hide out in the bathroom and let Theresa find out by herself. He sighed as he turned the knob to the fosset on, he watched cold water run, and sink into the drain of the sink. He put his hand to the water and splashed water to his face. He was trying to calm down, he had never been so nervous in his life. He finally gathered up enough nerve to leave the bathroom. He walked out and saw Theresa talking to the doctor, he then saw the doctor turn and walk the opposite way of where he was standing.

Theresa turned and saw Ryan standing there; she smiled and walked toward him. "Ryan! Good news, the baby…The babies yours." She said with a grin on her face…Suddenly she heard the words of the doctor playing over and over again in her mind… I'm very sorry Miss. Sanchez, but we have some bad news for you. The doctor repeated in her mind. Mr. Atwood is not the father of your child. The doctor said, but even though she was sneaking around with Eddie behind Ryan's back for a month now, she still didn't exactly want to believe the baby was his. Ryan was more dependable…He was ready to be a father, Eddie, wasn't. Even though she loved Eddie she just knew he wasn't ready to take care of a child. Ryan was ready, that's why she was still with him. But what Ryan didn't know was that she was secretly seeing Eddie. Just for fun…sex…a drinking buddy. Someone to talk to while Ryan was at work.

Ryan stared at Theresa with shocked eyes. He smiled slightly. Part of him was happy that the baby was his and part of him was upset that it was. Even if it wasn't his child he still would stick around and help out Theresa, he couldn't just leave Theresa by herself…No matter how much he wanted to get back to Newport and pick up his relationship with Marissa. "That's great." He said with a smile. Him and Theresa started for the exit and left the hospital, driving back to there shitty apartment….

End Flashback

(The flashback was just to let you all know what was going on with Ryan/Theresa)

Marissa pulled into her driveway, tear stains on her cheeks. She turned her car off, taking the key out. She looked in her rear view mirror and touched her make up, up a little bit…Trying to hide that she had been crying. She opened the door and walked out of her car. She unlocked the door and walked inside. She was alone. Caleb had work and her mother seemed to have been out judging by the no car in the driveway. She walked up to her, opening the door and running in. She collapsed down on her bed…She just wanted to erase this day completely. She sighed; she grabbed her journal, flipping through it….Almost everything in it was about Ryan. She stared down angrily. She ripped the pages, shredding them as she threw them into the trash; she then began crying again as the anger left her body. She hated Ryan…Yet, she loved him. Her feelings were so mixed up; she didn't know what she was feeling anymore.

Ryan finished up his work and left. He had to get home and see how Theresa was doing. He walked toward his car unlocking the door and getting in. He drove back toward the house; he stared confusingly at the front lawn. He couldn't believe what he saw. He pulled into the driveway and got out of his car. His clothes and belongings were in his backpack on the front lawn and Eddie's car was in the driveway, he grabbed his backpack and walked up toward the door, he opened it walking inside. "What the hell's going on?" he asked as he saw Theresa sitting on the couch, drinking…As usual.

Theresa finished the entire glass of vodka that she had in her hand, she looked over squinting, trying to make out who the person was who had just walked in the house. "Ryan." she stood up, loosing her balance, she grabbed the arm of the couch for support before she hit the ground. She walked toward Ryan, swerving. "You can't stay here anymore." she said simply.

Eddie walked out of the kitchen and into the family room as soon as he heard the sound of a car pulling into the driveway. He saw Ryan and Theresa talking. "Hey man, looks like you're off easy. Get out here, go back to too your rich family and stay the fuck out of our lives." He told him.

Ryan's head turned in the direction of Eddie. "What the hell are you even doing here?" he asked. "Go back to my rich family?" he laughed slightly. "I'd love too. Only I have job here and I'm actually helping Theresa out…You could tell me…What exactly do you do for Theresa? Besides get drunk." He asked him.

Eddie pushed Ryan up against the wall punching him hard across the face. "You better watch your god damn mouth!" he yelled toward him. "I'm helping Theresa and my baby out! Right now, and by helping them I'm getting you out of their lives. They don't need you." he said, he meant every word of it.

Ryan's head flew back into the wall as Eddie hit him; he felt a sharp pain to his cheek. "Your kid? Yeah, Eddie, man…I hate to break it to you. But you can barely take care of yourself what makes you think you can take care of Theresa and a child? A child that by the way is mine." He told him as he threw a punch toward Eddie's nose.

Eddie stared at Ryan, pissed, at the words that he had just received, he was about to respond with some smart ass comment until he was punched in the nose, his head snapped back slightly and he suddenly had the taste of medal in his mouth, he knew it was blood. "The kid isn't yours. It's mine. Theresa lied to you, did you ever think of that?" he protested as he put his hand to his nose, seeing the blood on his fingers.

Ryan just stared at Eddie as if he were in a daze he couldn't believe what he just heard. The child wasn't his? It was Eddie's? He wondered how long Eddie and Theresa had known about this. His eyes quickly turned to Theresa. "So…You lied to me?" He yelled toward, he was mad and frustrated.

Theresa was barely even concentrating on the conversation that had been going on between Ryan and Eddie. She was to drunk to. When she heard Ryan scream her name she looked toward him. "Yeah! I did lie." She said laughing. "I've been lying for so long Ryan…I can't believe you haven't figured it out by now…I've been sneaking around with Eddie everyday you've been at work. So, basically I used you for money." She said as she giggled, her eyes half opened and half shut.

Ryan stared at Theresa…He just didn't understand why Theresa would do something like that. But right now…He didn't care. He just wanted to get out of there…But first, he had one thing to take care of. He raised his fist and punched Theresa in the jaw. He knew the rule about punching girls…But for Theresa he figured he'd have to make an exception because she deserved it. He gave Eddie an evil glance then turned walking out the door, he slammed it shut behind him. He walked toward his car getting in and starting it, driving off. He knew exactly where he was headed. Back to Newport…To make things right again.

Marissa sat in her room; she ended up falling asleep on her bed with Evanescence playing quietly on her stereo.

DJ walked inside the house after finishing up cleaning the pool. He walked toward the family room looking outside and seeing that there was no one parked out in the driveway but Marissa's car. He smirked and started up the stairs, he walked down the hall toward Marissa's room opening the door slowly, he saw Marissa fast asleep on her bed, and he smiled and walked inside. He walked toward her, sitting down on her bed; he placed a hand gently on her cheek.

Marissa slowly woke up, she looked up seeing DJ, she smiled as she sat up slowly, and she thought of Ryan for a moment…That's all she could ever think about. She leaned in and kissed DJ, she knew that would help with erasing Ryan from her thoughts.

Ryan finally reached Newport, he drove down the street, and he thought about going back to the Cohen's first but decided to go to Marissa's. He had to see her, apologize about everything in Chino. She had to know he was back, and that he loved her. He drove toward the Cooper's house, pulling in the driveway; he stepped out of his car and walked up to the door, he knocked…But got no answer, he saw Marissa's car in the driveway…So, she must have been inside. He figured she probably didn't hear the door, so he knocked again…A little louder this time. Still no answer. He turned the door knob, the door pushed open, so he walked in, shutting the door behind him. "Marissa…? Are you…Here?" He called out, still getting no answer. He started up the stairs looking in a few rooms, but no Marissa. He opened another door and froze…He found her…And she wasn't alone.

DJ pushed Marissa's back on the bed kissing down her neck, he pulled his shirt off as he moved back up kissing her on the lips he then heard a door open behind him, he quickly pulled away thinking it was Julie, he turned around and saw a boy he had never seen before. He looked toward Marissa, then back toward the kid in the doorway.

Marissa fell back on the bed, and kissed DJ, the kiss getting deeper. She heard the sound of the door open and saw DJ jump up, she thought it was her mother or Caleb and jumped up as well, she had a lot of explaining to do. Her eyes widened when she saw that the person who had opened the door was Ryan. Her mouth dropped open slightly. Oh my god! What was he doing here? What was she going to tell him? She thought.

Ryan stared at the two of them for a moment longer and then just turned, he started down the hallway and back down the stairs…His next stop was the Cohen's maybe Seth could even help him out…Now, with the situation with Marissa. The thing that shocked him was…Marissa came to Chino and told him that she loved him…Yet she's here making out with another guy…And if he hadn't walked in Marissa probably would have had sex with this guy…

Marissa jumped up off the bed, she ran toward the exit of her room. She completely forgot about DJ, right now…Ryan was more important. She hated herself right now for doing this…Why was she doing this? She didn't even have any feelings for DJ? So…She was just, using him? Wow…That was low. She couldn't believe it…She shook the thought of DJ out of her head. Right now she had to focus on finding Ryan and talking to him. The hard part would be…Trying to get him to listen to her.