Chapter two: Fate and faith.
T: Despite fan trying its best to stop me posting this fic I give you chapter two! Warnings remain the same with the addition of spoilers for volume 17 of X onwards.
If X were mine then it would be in colour permanently and things would have gone the way they are going in this fic, as this is not the case it's clearly not mine!
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He could feel the burn of the kiss still on his lips.
Could hear the words still in his mind.
"Subaru?"
That was Kamui, the boy lurking in the shadows of the doorway as though he were fearful to tread into Subaru's space without prompting.
"Come in Kamui."
The boy steps hesitantly into the light and there is a new reserve to his manner that makes Subaru wonder if he had seen.
"What happened?" The boy enquires as he settles his head against Subaru's knees.
"He told me that his wish was to be free of his destiny, to be free to tell me that he loved me.
"I could not believe him, not when he had told me the opposite was true all those years ago.
"He saw that doubt and…"
His eyes slide closed and the scene play out to its conclusion.
He can feel still the warmth of the other close to him, can smell the gentle scent of his skin and can taste still his lips, can feel still the pressure of them upon his own.
"Do you believe him now, Subaru?"
"Yes." It is barely a breath and yet Subaru knows that Kamui sees the sincerity of the word for the other enquires,
"Do you wish to be with him, Subaru? To try again to live a normal life?"
"Though he loves me, though I in turn love him, that can never be our fate. We are destined always to be at opposite sides of this battle, destined always to be opponents."
"Are you still so desperate to die, Subaru? Even now when you have been granted the secret wish of you heart?"
"Kamui, I am no longer sure of what I wish. Before I wished to annoy him just enough so that he would kill me, because at least that way I might be with him as I passed on.
"Now…"
"Subaru I do not want you to die and though I want nothing more than to keep you at my side…it is better that I allow you to go if that is what you wish."
"Kamui…"
The other smiles and then gaining his feet he informs Subaru,
"Only you can know what is right for you, Subaru." Before he leaves Subaru alone again.
He stairs a while at the middle distance before he comes at last to a decision.
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He had not bothered to return to the Government Building.
'Kamui' would see his changed wish, after all, and then the other would want to harm him.
Not that Seishrio was avoiding that particular confrontation; he and 'Kamui' had the matter of Subaru's eye to discuss, after all.
No, he was simply putting it off until a more appropriate moment.
For now he had decided to have a talk with the tree.
'You are still alive then'
'So it would seem'
'You wish an explanation, I presume?'
'Yes.'
'Seishrio, it has never mattered to me whether you care for that boy or no, nor do I care to which side of this war you fight on.
'All that I care is that I survive and one emotion, one moral stand point, shall make no difference to that.'
'So this is for selfish reasoning, after all?'
'Seishrio, you of all people in the world should not find that shocking. You know me and what I am, after all.'
'True.' He takes a moment to light a cigarette and curious he enquires,
'What was my fate then? And what have I turned it into?'
'You died and your toy became Sakurazukamori in your stead. Took that office to become you completely.'
'Did I tell him?'
'Of course, but he never gained a validity to that truth. Never knew if you were sincere and in the end never knowing drove him insane.
'As to your fate now, to both your fates… he is the only one who can take your place as Sakurazukamori and even if you find a way to remain free of the war, it is his fate to one day gain that power.'
'Then this choice has truly achieved nothing?'
'No. You have chosen to love him, to allow him to know that love and the truth of it.
'This choice will give you both freedom and perhaps my divination will prove wrong. It is only his fate to gain your power, after all and though, at this time, he can do that only by killing you, perhaps you shall find another way.'
'Who replaced Subaru in that other future, indeed in this future also? For I know that I alone own his heart.'
'In that other future Subaru was the last Sakurazukamori, for though he died at the hands of another he did not love them and thus the chain was broken.
'Thus, at last, was I broken also.
'In the future of this choice I do not know what will occur one he too fades.'
He stands there but a little longer, watching the wind play in the branches of the tree, before he goes in search of Subaru.
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T: The idea that Subaru will be the last in the line of the Sakurazukamori is my own, I believe the whole thing is carried through the heart and thus as Subaru will only ever love Seishrio he is fated to be an ending to the chain. Clamp most likely have other ideas, but as I am not physic I cannot say what they are! Next chapter up on Tues at the latest
R+R and I'll carry on being nice!
