Entry 16
"Don't pretend."
"Pretend what?"
"You know exactly what; we've been through this dozens of times."
"But we aren't exactly getting anywhere."
"That is because you refuse to listen to me."
"What do you mean 'refuse to listen to you'?"
"That is exactly what I mean!"
"What?"
"/sigh/ Just listen carefully now, alright?"
"I know, I know already."
"Know what exactly?"
"What you said, since we 'been through it dozens of times.'"
"Than why are you pretending?"
"Pretending what?"
"That I am wrong, when the facts are so blatantly obvious."
"Because you are wrong!"
"No I am not and you know that better than I do."
"What the he – "
"It's not advanced psychology, hikari."
"Too bad you're making it so."
"What?"
"Just listen to yourself, you sound like an air-headed schoolgirl!"
"And you are in denial."
"More like you are; either that or you're trying to get some pity for yourself."
"Don't be foolish."
"Face it, things aren't the way they used to be five thousand years ago."
"That is where you are wrong."
"Come on yami, not everyone is the same."
"You are in denial again."
"Stop saying that! Geese!"
"What is it that you want?"
"I'd tell you if you'd stop cutting me off and listen for once."
"Alright."
"Seriously, I knew you were going to be this way, shouldn't have listened to omaasan."
"Now what?"
"Why did I bother, I knew it, why does everything have to be so difficult?"
"What are you mumbling, hikari? I said I'd listen."
"Fine. You've changed a lot, d'you know that?"
"How so?"
"Well…. I don't know really, maybe it's just a different side of you I've never seen before, but you're really different."
"Really…."
"Yeah, but then again, everyone gets a little…well you know when they like someone else. No wonder you're so irate."
"You know I don't let such trivial things get the best of me."
"Trivial. Yeah, good one there, yami."
"What do you mean by that?"
"Oh come on! That's what this whole thing is about! I keep seeing you mope around, trying to find ways to comfort yourself and failing miserably. So much for calm and collect yami. I felt really bad so I came to talk to you. Thought you'd be rational about it. Guess I was wrong."
"You are the one who's not being rational; you continually disregard everything I say without letting me explain."
"And you're so defensive. You keep turning everything I say against me."
"I was expressing my point of view; you aren't the only one with the privilege to speak especially when it's my problem."
"So you admit you have a problem?"
"I don't think I need to explain myself."
"/sigh/ As hard as it is to believe, yami, you're not the only one who goes through this. The problem is, everyone who does often miss a couple of things, you know?"
"No. I don't."
"Okay well let's see, you have every right to, you know, feel down and – "
"I don't need – "
"AND, you don't need to expect the people around you, even me although I am your hikari, to understand or even offer comfort."
"/sigh/"
"What you can do about it though is hear me out. Hey, no one said it was ever easy. Heck I had a problem simply coming here in the first place. But at least it's better than worrying my head off. I think you can agree with that, right?"
"True, that's common knowledge. But don't forget the phrase 'practice what you preach.'"
"There's more to life than just magic and monsters, huh yami?"
"Are you trying to humour me?"
"No, just lightening things up is all, I'd really rather not argue with you."
"Will anything you say help me feel better?"
"Yami….."
"Just…just go ahead and explain."
"You really care about her, don't you?"
"Hikari…."
"Even if you can hide it, you don't have to, I'm your hikari."
"Well, what do you think?"
"It must be terrible."
"Well, if you don't mind, I'd like to drop this issue."
"If it makes you feel better, I don't like her."
"That's where I doubted you were telling the truth."
"Why? You always know when I'm telling the truth, it should be automatic by now."
"Yes but had you wanted to, you can hide whatever you want from me."
"I'm not hiding anything."
"I'm not surprised."
"What do you mean by that?"
"Just admit it, hikari, I don't mind. Do you not trust me?"
"More like you don't trust me. You wouldn't even believe me."
"I believe you."
"You don't mean that."
"Yes I do."
"No you don't."
"Like I said, you don't trust me."
"Grr. Yami!"
"What?"
"I'm trying to be rational here, why are you making this so painfully difficult?"
"Maybe this is one of those quirks that everyone else goes through."
"Huh?"
"When they…. as you said."
"Maybe it is."
"….And you're humouring me again."
"If that's what it takes to get you to listen, well…"
"I don't need to be babied; I'm your elder after all."
"Hahahahahaha!"
"What is it?"
"For as long as I've known you, you've never said you were my elder, no matter how unusually true it is."
"I look older than you."
"Not by very much, certainly not by five thousand years."
"I take…pride, in preserving my youthful looks."
"…so why doesn't she like you? Is that what you're thinking?"
"Hikari…"
"I'm sorry but the mink-link works both ways."
"I should guard my thoughts more carefully."
"No need, like I said before, you can trust me. You can believe me as well."
"You were certainly flattered when I told you she liked you."
"Flattery doesn't mean I like her, yami."
"Than why did I feel that shift in our mind-link?"
"I was just surprised, that kind of thing doesn't happen very often, you know."
"So surprise plus flattery equals…?"
"It equals you getting angry at me for no reason."
"I'm not angry at you."
"No of course you're not, you're always calm and collected. Nothing pisses you off."
"Don't patronize me."
"No offence, but it seems to be the only way to get your attention."
"We've been speaking this entire time."
"Doesn't mean you were listening."
"Were you listening?"
"Of course. I listened to you go on and on about feeling sorry for yourself."
"And what reason do I have to feel sorry about myself?"
"Seriously, you should tape yourself talking."
"What?"
"/sigh/ You think since Serenity likes me and not you that I am soooo flattered that I like her back."
"And?"
"And I'm saying that…You. Are. WRONG. But you of course, since you're feeling so sorry for yourself, you aren't really listening, only to the things that you expect to hear and the things that seem insulting. I heard it enough to figure it out. So logically, I tried to get you to listen by seeming like I'm trying to insult you. Get it?"
"Hmm, future psychologist. And I suppose that confusing little statement is intended for me to feel, for lack of a better word, 'stupid.' No doubt another one of your 'tactics.'"
"Don't blame me, yami. But I guess I shouldn't blame you either, everyone feels – "
" - No more of your theories, hikari."
"Okay then so?"
"So what?"
"So? You finally get it."
"Does that change anything?"
"Well no but…."
"See, hikari, we're back to square one."
"Hey, I came to talk to you so we'd clear things up, that was it."
"You didn't have to bother, I knew you were truthful all along."
"Than why'd you- "
"But I refused to believe it just….just to make sense of what has happened."
"So for once, you're not on top of things, it's no big deal."
"Of course it's a big deal! I've never felt so weak or been so unfocused in my life!"
"I have plenty of times; you just have to deal with these things as they come, no one ever gets a choice."
"The life I used to lead was difficult but never like this."
"Well guess what? No one's led the life you led. Maybe you should have been more careful, by now, you'd still be running around on sand dunes!"
"By now, hikari, I'd be wrapped in rotten bandages and put on display to be gawked at by loud and ignorant tourists."
"Better than dealing with a little puppy love, eh yami? Seriously you know NOTHING!"
"Nothing?! You have no idea what I've been through."
"Of course I don't! Dark and mysterious yami never reveals his secrets. Then again, that's what girls fall for."
"Don't you dare start on that!"
"Dare? Oh no sir, I would never even think of defying you."
"No longer challenging me with your theories, hikari?"
"Why bother? You're much to smart for that, all those years in the darkness must have done something to your brain."
"Do you think I wanted to be in there for five thousand years?"
"Maybe you're lying, maybe you haven't been in there for that long or maybe you wanted a way to live forever so you locked yourself in there on purpose. Maybe, maybe you're just selfish!"
"Maybe? You're disrespecting my suffering with maybes? I'd rather have died ten times over than be locked away! You try living in a world of black with nothing but your own haunting thoughts never leaving you at peace!"
"I have, and guess what? It got much darker. I should have thrown the item away when I had the chance. I should never have listened to anything you said. Meeting you was a mistake and guess what? IT WAS A MISTAKE TO SET YOU FREE!"
"!!!!!!!!!"
"/gasp/ Yami, I'm…….I'm ssorry."
"……………."
"No really, I didn't mean it, I was just mad and - ."
"……………."
"Y-you can hit me if you want, please yami, I'm really sorry."
"……………."
"Say something."
"……………."
"Please, I'm begging you, say something."
"…..the only mistake around here……is you."
End Entry
A/N: Well that…sucked. Wow, it's been a month already? Sorry folks, writer's block has been quite a nuisance lately and I've been trying to figure out how to make the major turning point of this fic work. If you have any relevant questions or concerns, please feel free to ask. I'll try to answer. Thanks for readin'!
Replies:
Fushicho Hime: Aww, so you don't think giving the yami explosives would be fun? Lol, as you can see, the first taste of love didn't go quite so well. I've always wondered how this yami would act if he had a real crush on someone. Might not be the way I made it but it's really something to think about. Thanks for the review!
Amber Eyes23: Thanks for liking it. I tried to make the chapter as emotionally "in tune" as possible but it just turned out kind of…funny, as many of my pieces often do. It was actually fun to make the yami a little fussy. Thanks for the review!
ThePianoFiend: Thanks for the review!
Titansfan545: Yup, I like messing with people's minds and I like it even more when they tell me so. I never thought people would be so interested in this though. Thanks for the review!
KarlaBob: Hmm, good reasoning, I never really thought of that. But Serenity, seems to me, is so close to her brother that she doesn't even notice anyone else, only considers them as friends. I like your idea though. Thanks for the review!
Dark Magician Girl / Hikaru: You don't have to worry about any real romance going on between them, I'm not a big fan of these pairings either and I rarely write romance (the only pairing that I write is Mahaado and Mana, DM DMG). Human pairings always seem to have one thing or another odd about them. Thanks for the review!
Sphincter: "Yami was in character and in love." I hope that was just a guess because although I love Yami Yugi as much as the next person, I'm not telling who the yami is. To answer your question, yes I would go for Yami in a heartbeat, whether he likes it or not, lol. Thanks for the review!
Angel in Disguise8: Haha, you know I always use strange words, but hey they're not as weird as you think they are. Write like me eh? All you need is a tub of ice cream, some Campino candies (any flavour would do) and the nagging feeling inside your head to update. See? I'm not as creative as you think I am. Thanks for the review!
Kagura-kun: Nope, I didn't make up those lyrics, they're actually from the fourth opening theme of Inuyasha called "Grip!" You can find them on w.w.w. a n i m e l y r i c s . c o m (no spaces). Just type in "inuyasha" and you'll get a list of songs. Thanks for the review!
Insane Penguin: I'm surprised you think Yami Yugi would handle rejection this way or any of them for that matter. Well it does make sense since he's never really "lost" at anything in his life and always seems to get what he wants. But hey, when you like someone, you like someone, even Bakura can't escape that. Thanks for the review!
