Be careful what you wish for

She offered me some breakfast, but I pushed it away and promised her I'd eat at school. It was so easy to lie through my teeth these days, Buffy was far to busy thinking about Spike to notice my lack of eating. She sighed and put the cereal back in the pantry. I smirked behind her back; it was easy for her to lie between her teeth to. That's how we live.

School was dull; I flunked a math test, skipped lunch, and got detention after school. Janice got detention too, so it wasn't a total waste of my time. The supervisor was getting used to seeing us now a days. I didn't care if I got in trouble anymore, why should I? I mean, I'm not even real. Anyone who will ever "worry" about me has died, or is dead to me already. And it's not like I give a damn anymore anyways. Buffy thinks I'm at Janice's doing homework, but Janice's mom thinks she's at my house. It's amazing how it all works out. I laughed out loud.

After detention I walked home alone after stopping for a soda. I hadn't eaten all day, and I figured a Soda wouldn't hurt. Then I cut through the alley way, and I could almost hear Buffy's annoyed voice in my head "Dawn, you shouldn't walk alone outside. There are to many dangerous things out there." Dawn laughed again. It's not like Buffy cared. It's not like I care either. I began to wish I could run away, away from my boring life. I was giving up on pretending everything was fine. Giving up slowly.

I looked down at my shoes and sighed. Life was too dull. Just once I wish something interesting would happen. I took another sip of soda. I hated Spike for taking up all of Buffy's time. I hated Xander and Anya for being too busy thinking about sex. I couldn't hate Willow, for thinking about Tara. I couldn't hate Tara; I couldn't even bear to think of Tara. The memory of her finding my secret out flashed through my mind. I shut my eyes and threw the bottle of soda against the brick wall. The glass shattered into a million little shards, similar to my aching heart. She was the only one who cared. In a rage, I picked up a shard of glass and pushed my sleeve up. I did it quick and swift, I didn't even hesitate anymore. I had just begun to relax when I heard a deep grumble, like a growl, behind me. My heart sped up as I turned around and stood face to face with an all to familiar vampire.