Seras felt her entire face go red the minute she looked at Pip. i What should I say to him/i He was sitting at her table reading the London Times. From the looks of things he had been there for hours. She smiled nervously at him and shut her door.
"Good morning, Captain." Seras said in a quiet voice.
Pip grinned at her. He could see the outline of her breasts from the opening in the coat she was wearing – in Alucard's coat. Now that is interesting. He wasn't sure how he felt about it. Pip knew he that he should feel jealous but somehow he didn't. The Captain knew that Alucard wasn't a threat to whatever it was he and Seras had. It was pretty obvious that the woman Alucard really wanted was the boss. And Pip knew that Seras didn't particularly like her Master all that much. He couldn't help but laugh at the sight of Seras Victoria in Alucard's coat – it was way too big on her. She looked rather like a little girl playing dress-up in her mum's clothes. "I'm sorry, Seras. I shouldn't laugh. It is just that you look rather funny in Alucard's coat." Pip said while he tried to stop cracking up.
Seras was furious. How dare he laugh at me? She expected some type of reaction out of him but not THIS! Shouldn't he be jealous of Alucard? She was too tired and so not in the mood to deal with her emotions. Seras wondered why she hadn't told Alucard no. Maybe it wasn't even possible to say no to him. He was Dracula wasn't he? Seras just could not deal with this right now. "Pip, I'm really tired and I want to go to sleep. Was there something you wanted or can it wait till tonight?"
Pip got up and walk towards Seras. He put his arms around the small of her back and pulled her into him. He grinned at her and kissed her softly on the lips. "Well, there is something I want but I suppose it could wait until tonight." He purred into her ear.
Seras pushed him away. She was not some kind of a toy. Not for him, not for Alucard, not for anyone. "What?" She screamed at him.
Pip backed away. "Wha-what is the matter, Seras?" He asked. Pip honestly had no idea what he had done wrong. Most girls liked when he talked to them like that and she had kissed him back!
"I am not your whore, Captain. I am not anyone's whore. Why do you assume I will shag you tonight? I don't care if I had come into my room totally nude. That gives you no right to expect anything from me."
Pip was genuinely confused. He had never met anyone like her. "I'm sorry, Seras if I offended you. It's just"
"It is just NOTHING! Just get out – before I physically throw you out. Get out now!" Seras yelled at him as she walked towards him.
"Okay, okay, I'll leave." Pip walked quickly towards the door as he tried to maintain his dignity. Seras Victoria was scary when she got angry.
Seras locked her door after he left. She put on some comfortable clothes to sleep in before she collapsed in her coffin. It felt so good on her weary bones. Seras pushed the button to lower the top of the coffin. The descending darkness comforted both her body and soul. As she gave in to the demands of sleep, crimson tears fell from her eyes. The vampire didn't know why but her heart was aching. There was something about what just happened with Pip that hurt her.
Seras tossed and turned all day trying to get to sleep. She kept on thinking what working again with Pip would be like. The police girl was finding out just why there were rules about becoming involved with your coworkers on the police force. It was just so damn awkward. She wouldn't have felt so bad if he didn't know about Alucard. Seras just didn't know what was happening to her anymore. The girl she was before Alucard had turned her, never would have shagged two guys in one week. And yet...both times had felt right in their own way.
The time with Pip had been special. When they were together it was so much more then just sex. She really cared for the captain. In her heart, Seras knew he cared for her too. Nothing in her entire existence had ever felt so right. She was sure that it was.
Then there was Alucard. Although Seras did not care for him the way she did Pip, shagging him had felt so damn good. Amazing actually. At first it had felt a little weird – up until now he had acted more like her father then anything. But the weirdness only lasted a few minutes and then it was as if, shagging him were the most natural thing to do. Yet, her conscience was telling her that shagging two men in less then 48 hours just wasn't right! Seras was so confused she didn't know what to do. Finally she decided to get a second opinion. There was only one other female that she knew and trust – Integral Hellsing.
"Sir Hellsing?" Seras stood outside the office of her commander. The police girl could not believe she was actually going to do it.
"Yes, Seras?" Integral responded, the distraction evident in her voice.
"I was wondering if I could talk to you for a few minutes. It is kind of personal." Seras explained.
"Certainly, come in." Integral ordered.
Integral Hellsing was sitting at her desk, hunched over the computer. She turned to Seras and smiled. "I can use a break from this work. Who would think that being the leader of Hellsing could be so bloody boring?"
"Sir, could you come sit over here." Seras motioned to a sofa. "It wouldn't feel so...formal."
Integral nodded. "Umm – I guess so, Seras. Is everything all right?"
Seras smiled. "Well yes but then no. It is nothing serious – I just feel like I don't know who I am any longer."
"Oh," commented Integral Hellsing. "You mean you are still having problems adjusting to being a vampire?"
"Goodness no, Sir Integral." Seras said. "This is more like , more like, man troubles."
Integral couldn't help but chuckle at the police girl's comment. "Well Seras, you do know I don't have much experience in that department myself."
"Umm yes, but I respect your opinion Sir. If you could just tell me what you think maybe I could get it straight in my own head."
"Go ahead, Seras." Integral said as she shut off her computer and gave Seras her unddivided attention.
"Okay. This is kind of embarrassing. The Captain and I, well we kind of, umm well spent the night together. I like him – a lot." Seras looked at Integral trying to read her emotion.
"I don't see anything wrong with that, Seras. Is that all?" Integral asked.
"No, I wish it were that simple. It's Alucard. Well I don't really like him all that much, not like I do Captain Pip but we kind of well, um" Seras looked down, afraid of what she would see on Sir Integral's face.
"Oh. You and he – spent the night together too?" She asked.
"Um, yes. I hope you're not mad. I'm don't really want Alucard in a serious way. But, it didn't feel all that wrong." Seras explained, her face getting redder every second.
Integral smirked. This is an interesting development. "So what's the problems, Seras?" She asked.
"It's just that...I'm not that kind of girl. My mother didn't raise me to, well, you know..."
"Yes, I know but you aren't a girl anymore. You are a vampire, Seras. Alucard has told me many times, too many actually, that man's morality doesn't apply to vampires. If you don't feel like it is wrong, then it isn't. Don't judge yourself based on man's society. As long as you don't go shagging the entire Hellsing force..." Integral chuckled at the thought.
Seras could have died. The whole Hellsing force? "Sir Integral, I would never do anything like that!"
Integral nodded. "Yes Seras, I know. So is there anything else or..."
Seras grinned. "No Sir. But you made me feel better. Thank you."
The vampire practically skipped to her room she was so happy. Tomorrow she would attend practice with the troops and everything would be back to normal – well normal for Hellsing.
Alucard watched his fledgling leave Integral's office. Well now, that is interesting. He walked to window in the corridor and looked down at the troops training. Alucard spotted Pip Bernadette and grinned. He wasn't a bad looking young man. His attitude in battle reminded Alucard of another young man that he had gotten to know quite well – Angel. The Nosferatu thought about what it would be like if he, the Captain, and the police girl spent some quality time together. It surprised the vampire that the idea greatly appealed to him. Of course it was not nearly as appealing as the idea of him, Integral, and Seras Victoria having fun. But, it was not like that could happen anytime soon, or could it?
