Fuchui

careless; to be careless; carelessness

Massao-na-Mizu

"I'm pregnant, aren't I?" there was no denying the fact. Kagome didn't have to look her gynecologist in the eyes to know the answer. She had been barfing her guts out fro a while now and she felt consistently dizzy.

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Rin had cried when she woke up from fainting and found herself on her bed, lying there while Inu Yasha shouted at the cordless phone at Sango while another hand put down a glass of water and a pill.

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She graciously gulped down the pill and water, wiping her mouth with her handkerchief as Rin cradled her head.

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"Mama, what's wrong?" she said with worry. She was pouting and Kagome couldn't help but kiss her cheeks. There was a warm feeling in her heart—love—for Rin's care for her health.

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She didn't know it would affect Rin so much to her faint in their living room. Then again, she didn't stop to think if leaving Sesshoumaru and that cold manor would hurt her.

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In fact, she thought rather guiltily, causing it to mercilessly stab her heart, she didn't think about Rin at all, it seems. She felt selfish and Kagome was thoroughly ashamed for what she had been doing.

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Imagine, making her daughter leave the house she had forever know, where she was safe, where she ate expensive and wonderfully cooked meals.

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Where she had a full-time maid to follow her and take care of her whenever she went, all of the things her parents could provide.

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Except time, she thought sardonically of her going-to-be-former-husband, Sesshoumaru who in her mind never even made an effort to get to know their daughter.

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It seemed to her that his concept of being a father is giving what Rin wanted. Of course he also gave her what she needed.

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Rin studied in a private school and ate a lot of times a day, provided that all she ate were healthy food.

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But then, she also needed a father. Not in the materialistic way that we need our father to give us money to spend shopping with friends, to buy us what we need and want, no. She needed a father who was there.

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Who would show her love, someone that would soothe her whenever she would be afraid at night and would have nightmares and tell her that he was stronger than any monster under her bed.

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But no, he couldn't do that. Can you honestly picture Sesshoumaru doing such a thing? Or can you much clearly picture him telling her in a monotonous voice, "Rin, it was just a dream, go to sleep." He wouldn't soothe her. Couldn't.

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Because he barely knows his own daughter. Aside from the fact that Rin was really his daughter and her age—he might even forget that—he knew absolutely nothing about her.

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She should have expected this. But, he had promised that his job would not be a hindrance in their family.

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That he would not be like his father who married again and he never saw again until he announced that he was engaged to Kagome due to the fact that he was always working.

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In fact, he didn't even mind the girl running around with another man until Inu Yasha sent him the pictures and divorced with the woman!

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Kagome tapped her fingers on her doctor's table, willing the pounding headache to go away.

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"How many months?" she asked.

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"Five months. You'll be due on April 28," the doctor smiled kindly at her and she wished that Sango were not busily text-messaging Miroku so that she could hear this. Kagome didn't want to have to talk to her about it.

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She would force her to tell Sesshoumaru and that might mean going back to that manor. It was really not such a big problem, if only Sesshoumaru would take care of her.

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Maybe he would take into consideration that she married him for his love and not his money. That no, she didn't need his financial support on BOTH his children but she needed him to be emotionally here.

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But then, isn't that WHY they were going to get divorced? Because he never complied with her wishes. In fact, she doesn't even expect him to call her just to greet her a happy birthday.

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Even not-so-close friends remember her birthday oh, but not Sesshoumaru. She gritted her teeth, small fists clenched tightly. He was too important, too busy.

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So, she never called him when it was his birthday. In fact, she was just waiting for the right time to spring it on him that she wanted a divorce.

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And now, she was going to get it. She's on the verge of it and this happened. She loves the baby, of course she does! But she's not exactly fond of its father right now.

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Oh, but Rin! Kagome smiled at she thought of her first-born, fondly stroking the bulge forming on her stomach. Rin would be happy to know that she will have a younger sibling. Rin would be a wonderful onee-chan.

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Right at that moment, Sango opened the door to the doctor's office and offered her an apologetic smile.

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"I'm sorry Kagome, Miroku was pestering me again an I told him that I was here." Kagome smiled, nodding her understanding at her best friend.

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"It's okay, Sango, I understand," she did. Sango was set to be married in a few weeks' time now. Miroku made it a point not to be lecherous towards other women.

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In fact, he rarely flirted with anyone. Less it was pun intended.

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"So what's the result?" Sango asked quietly, holding her hand as she seated herself across her. Kagome smiled, looking at her doctor, pleading for her to tell Sango instead of Kagome.

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Her friendly doctor smiled and nodded. "Mrs. Chimiesno here is five months pregnant."

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It was an understatement to say that Sango's jaw dropped comically and looked as if she was going to faint.

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"You are?" She said, completely baffled. She didn't know exactly what to say. Flabbergasted, she congratulated her best friend. "Co…congratulations," she offered a sympathetic smile. Knowing well that she had to convinced her friend that she would need Sesshoumaru and it would be hard for the child—and Rin—to grow without a father.

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But then again, Kagome would argue that he hasn't been acting like a father for a long time now.

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Then a fight would ensue and Sango just hated arguing with the younger girl because it pained her to see her pure-hearted best friend getting hurt like this.

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But she had the best of intentions. It would be better if she stayed with him. Maybe… just maybe… she could persuade him to spend more time with Kagome. She could easily reprimand him. His job didn't matter that much if he was going to loose the only woman that had truly fallen in love with him… and probably now has fallen out of love with him.

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It was not that she was particularly fond of him, no, she wasn't. In fact, she had warned Kagome of him. He was not the best of men, she knew that. That he could be dangerous sometimes when he chose to be.

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He was a walking refrigerator—although incredibly beautiful at that—but still so incredibly cold that even if you tried to reach out, he would just give you a frostbite.

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And a frostbite directed to your heart is not pretty. Which is what, she thought has happened here to her friend.

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She remembered what Kagome had told her when she questioned her why she would want to divorce him.

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"But I thought you love him!" Sango had demanded from her.

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Kagome nodded, nodded her head and looking at her pleadingly. "I did! I really did, Sango. And I'm not quite sure if I'm over him… after all, we have a child that I love very much, but then… He causes me too much pain. I feel betrayed because I feel unimportant to him.

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"He promised me that he would always be there if I needed him… but where is he now? Somewhere else! And he has yet to call!"

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Kagome shook her head, eyes showing the anguish, the bitterness she has been carrying for so long.

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"Sango I have to do this. If not to free myself from a loveless marriage, then to make him realize his mistakes. To make him know what he has done. Pain dulls love, Sango… " Kagome offered her a bitter smile. A smile that gave a pang in her heart and resentment for her husband who has hurt her deeply, tears running down her beautiful face.

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"Pain dulls love…"

After they left the doctor's office, Sango brought Kagome shopping. "For baby stuff," she had said. But it was only an excuse to talk to her and Kagome was fully aware of that.

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Still, she didn't really mind. It would do good for her to listen to her best friend's advice.

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After all, Sango has always been there, supporting her and the least she could do was to listen to what she has to say.

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"You can't possibly think of divorcing him right now, at such a delicate time?" Sango asked, trying to sound as if she wasn't all that affected and continued to reach out for baby stuff she thought cute and handing it to Kagome.

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Kagome sighed. "I don't know. As much as possible, I don't even WANT to think of him right now…"

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Sango stopped, grasping Kagome's shoulders so that she would look straight into Sango's eyes and make her comprehend what she was trying to say.

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"Sometimes we have to do things that we don't want to. And for you, what you have to do is to stop this fucking divorce and just settle it when the child is out of your womb. It would be unfair of you not to let it live without its father and to be going through this… this… stress with it inside of you. What will happen to it? What will happen to YOU?"

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Kagome lowered her head, biting her lip until she drew blood and had to wince at the sudden pain, the metallic taste tangy on her tongue.

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Sango closed her eyes and massage the part of her face where her eyes and nose met sinus???.

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"Moping won't do anything," she reprimanded her sternly. "I'm sorry to say this Kagome, but I'm losing my patience and being a lawyer, I would want to settle this as quickly as possible. As in now."

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Kagome gave Sango her cell phone, looking away and pretending to busy herself with the grocery and going towards the aisles of nutritious food.

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"I don't want to be the one to tell him. I don't want to hear his voice," her voice was hard, portraying the anger she still felt toward Sesshoumaru for 'abandoning' them.

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There was no other way. Closing her eyes for a few seconds to pray for assistance, she dialed Sesshoumaru's number.

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Kagome's number appeared on his cell phone; momentarily surprising him that she would even bother talk to him.

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"This is Sesshoumaru," he said automatically in his monotone voice.

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"And this is Sango," the female voice said coolly. He raised his eyebrows. So Kagome wouldn't bother call him, but perhaps her best friend she would force to. How nice.

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"What is it?" he asked, straight to the point as usual.

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"Kagome's pregnant," she readily challenged him.

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He almost dropped his phone in shock, but his impassive face did not break. He felt elated! This would be a good reason to stop Kagome from divorcing him. He frowned. But how did this happen? It had been months since he was last with Kagome.

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"How many months?" he asked.

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"Five, she's due on April," she said. "Talk to her," her voice softening a bit then she hang up on him—something only few people dared do—Inu Yasha because he was stupid and Kagome because of her utter disappointment. And now, Sango because of her obvious loathing of him

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Ah, yes. It is his. But of course, he never expected Kagome to cheat on him. Kagome was too pure-hearted to do anything like that.

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That was one of the reasons why he loved her. Because it was hard to find people like her in this very corrupted world.

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Calling Jakken swiftly to tell him he would be gone for a few days, he directed his driver to the airport and started calling his sources.

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It was time to talk.

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Massao's Notes: I'm really sorry it took me a very long time to make this. I had soooo many ideas to write, but then, it didn't seem write so I had to talk to my muse. And then several things have happened in my life so, sighs. I hope this chapter didn't suck too much. I'm not going to promises anything so that I won't have a chance to break them. Happy Holidays to everyone! Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!