Jesse, I love you. I'm so sorry. But Paul will kill you. Please forgive me. Can you? Can you forget about me? I wish I could forget about you… I wish we could be together. I wish you could just hold me, and make it all go away. I wish I could make everything go away. He'll kill you. Please, don't try to get back at him. Just elave. Go off to college. Forget about me. Don't write back, Paul will find out. I already lost my Dad, I can't loose you.Will you ever be able to understand? I'm so sorry. Just let me deal with it.
Querida.
P.S. I love you. If you love me, you won't try to contact me.
I slipped the note under Jesse's door. Well, I started to. But I stopped. I looked down at my trembling hands. Quickly I glanced around, looking for Paul. I was so busy looking for Paul I didn't see the sleepy Jesse open the door.
"Susannah." He had to say something before I noticed him. Then, I tried to run down the hall, but he grabbed my arm. " Your not leaving until you explain some things."
"I...I can't." I whispered. I was crying now, like the coward I am. Why couldn't I tell him?
"Susannah, you could do anything." He pulled me into his room. " What happened today. Or, why did it happen."
"I cant Jesse. I have to go. You're just making this harder for yourself." As I was walking down the hall, I noticed I dropped the note! I ran back into the room, only to find Jesse holding the note in his hand.
"I'm sorry." I whispered. He didn't say anything. He just walked up to me, and wrapped his arms gently around my body.
"Querida, you never have to be scared for me." He said into my hair. " I will never let anything happen between us." I can't believe it took me so long to understand it. Understand that Jesse wasn't afraid of Slater.
"Well, Well, Well. What do we have here?" Oh god, it was Slater.
