Affection

Chapter eight: A Night Without Stars

After they had all decided to leave Soul Reviver they all went back to Quatre and Naima's house. Apparently their parents had forgot to mention that they would be taking off till Friday. Thus the house was practically silent as most of the sisters had taken off to stay somewhere for the weekend. Naima had taken this as a sign to pull out the liquor she'd been hiding underneath her bed. Wufei didn't seem too keen on the thought of a bunch of teens drinking without any adults around; he didn't count Naima as an adult. But as he was out voted on the drinking ballad they opened each and every bottle and had fun with it. First they played a round of twenty-one and the one's who didn't win had to take a shot of whatever was open. Then they decided to play a drinking game with a movie and got pretty tipsy. Heero had finally stopped laughing and Quatre just sat there with a blank expression on his face while Naima poured her and Wufei another drink. Wufei definitely knew it was a bad idea to drink when he started to sway more and when Naima kept trying to give Heero more tequila. Heero didn't seem to mind and for some reason that really bothered him a lot. Why would Heero even consider getting this drunk around any of Quatre's sisters, not that he thought any of the others would do anything to Heero in such a state. But Naima was always too forward for his taste to begin with. One time he saw Naima cop a feel and all Heero did was bat her hand away and told her that if she wanted anything from him she'd have to back pay boo-cue money, all she said was how much. There were times when Heero just wouldn't want to deal with any of it and would just somehow make them leave, but not with Naima; she could probably get away with anything short of rapping him and he wouldn't care. Well at least she'd never go THAT far, although from time to time he had his concerns. He turned his head to the side and saw Naima kiss Heero dead on the mouth. Right as he was getting up he fell and the last thing he saw was Quatre get up.


All the lights in the house were off and shadows were casted by the delicate rays peeking threw the rough folds of the curtains. They had both taken off their shoes and there they lay carelessly piled by the door along with their jackets. Trowa was straddling Duo's lap and had him virtually pined against the couch. Duo had decided to start a round of "I know something you don't know" and now had to face the consequences of not sharing. Although to him it seemed that Duo didn't really mind the consequences all that much. Briefly he was reminded of the last Christmas he and Heero had spent together. They had decided to play with all the silk ties they'd been given and had thought of some pretty useful places to tie them other than their necks. Lightly he nipped at Duo's neck and then kissed him. Slowly Trowa ran his fingers down Duo's sides and let his hands curl themselves underneath Duo's shirt. He wondered if Duo was as sadly ticklish as Heero was and then let his fingers quickly dance across Duo's skin. Duo started squirming like there was no tomorrow. He kept trying to push Trowa's hands away from his body, but it just made Trowa try harder.

"That's so not cool man!" said Duo still squirming in Trowa's hold.

"What you gonna do to stop me?" said Trowa with a wicked smile on his face. He loved watching Duo squirm like this, for some reason it really made him want to make out with the violet eyed beauty before him.

"You're an evil human being you know that?" said Duo trying hard now not to laugh.

"So I've been told." he leaned forward and kissed Duo on the lips. God was it nice to be with someone so lively. Duo sometimes reminded of him of a little kid with the way he'd smile or act at times. It was both sweet and endearing really.

"Can I ask you a personal question?" finally he stopped his onslaught of tickling.

"I don't see why not." he moved from his potion on top of Duo and sat down right next to him.

"Well, why would you let Heero get so attached to you like that?" momentarily he was taken back by the question. Trowa was quite for a few minutes and seemed to dwell on the question as if trying to figure it out for the first time, and then quietly he spoke.

"Heero's my only little brother and he's all I've got left. I wanted to make him happy no matter what because that's how much I love him. We've already lost both our parents and all we have now is each other. Aunt Carmon is a great provider and an amazing person to have taken us in the way she did, but there's no way she could have helped either of us the way I think we needed. Heero's an insecure person by heart and he often finds it hard to open up to people even me at times. I'm sure there are things he's never told me things that he's afraid of, what I'll think or say." Trowa leaned up against Duo's right shoulder and sighed.

"Fear of rejection, when you want something to be so real and when it happens you immediately doubt it. Moments like that probably happen most often to those who least expect it." Duo thought of times he had spent in L.A. with his friends and of all the times he'd done stupid things because he was afraid that if his friends thought badly of him he'd end up by himself.

"Yeah, when all you really want is for someone to hold you and say that the only thing that matters most in life is you." he'd done that many times on many different nights. With Heero curled up in his arms deep within the warm folds that was the sanctity of their blankets. Heero really meant a lot to him and the last thing he ever wanted was for Heero to be sad. His brothers' happiness was all that had ever mattered to him.

"Trowa do want to stay the night at my house for a while?" Duo had wrapped Trowa in his arms and inhaled deeply.

"That'd be nice."


It was really warm. The rhythmic turning of the ceiling fan seemed to carefully lull him out of his sleep. He could feel slim arms wrapped delicately across his torso and hands flexing ever so slight by his stomach. Heero's Hands. Where could they be? His breath came out in a steady flow and when he opened his eyes the first thing he saw was the back of his bedroom door. He knew it was his room because of the sign that hung on the hook screwed into the back of the door that read: Those who dream never sleep. How did he even get home? The last thing he even remembered was Naima and-

"Heero!" quickly he sat up in bed.

"What's wrong?" Heero placed his hand over Wufei's forehead with the other placed it on his own.

"What happed, why're we here?" he pulled Heero's hand down from his forehead.

"You passed out and somehow Naima managed to drive us back to your house." Heero looked at his hand and noticed that Wufei was still holding it.

"You let her drive after that many drinks!" he could just picture her swerving down Applewood Lane with Heero in the back trying to keep himself steady.

"What else could I do?"

"Why didn't we just stay at Quatre's?"

"I didn't think it'd be wise to have you conscious in the same room as Naima after, well, you know." yes he did know. He noticed that Heero's eyes kept flickering back and forth between his eyes and lap. Letting his eyes drift in the same direction he realized that he still had Heero's hand in his own. Blushing he laughed slightly in a nervous way and let go of Heero's hand.

"Sorry." Heero just smiled at him.

"It's ok really it felt nice." Heero blushed slightly himself and felt like a fool for having said that. But really when was the last time he ever tried to let on that he liked someone other than his brother. Did he even know how to flirt?! Oh God what was he doing, what was he getting himself into?! He'd never even hit on someone before!

"Heero are you ok, you've been staring at that wall with a panicked look on your face for about five minutes now."

"Oh I'm sorry it's just that I'm not exactly sure what I'm supposed to do." oh shit that was not what he'd meant to say.

"What?" Wufei looked confused.

"Nothing." Heero smiled and lay back down on the bed.

"Hey Heero do you want to go to the movies later on when my headache dissipates?" slowly Wufei got up and walked into the bathroom and shut the door behind him.

"Yeah sure that sounds fun." he smiled to himself.

Heero placed his arms behind his head and stared at the ceiling and tried not to laugh when he realized that he could hear Wufei going. This was definitely new territory for him. Had it been this way when he'd tried to convince his brother? No, it was easy to convince Trowa because he was already comfortable with being around him like that. A simple kiss here, a delicate touch there, all that lead to an easy task of engaging Trowa in his simple desires. Wufei was different though. Sure they had talked before and maybe even hung out a little when Trowa had to do other things, but other than that they had never been close. He guessed it was going to be a fun new experience for him, maybe it was going to be one of those moments when you felt so excited you wanted to just pee yourself. He shook his head and wondered if this sort of feeling only happed when you really liked someone. The bathroom door opened and Wufei walked back into the room and sat down on the bed. Wufei also lay down on the bed and looked up at the ceiling.

"Hey Heero?" he watched the ceiling fan turn.

"Hm?" he slightly turned his head and stared at Wufei watching the ceiling fan.

"I don't want this make you feel weird or uncomfortable, but do you want to make this a date?" Heero could see a light blush grace Wufei's features.

"Only if it means you're paying."


He couldn't believe it himself. How could Naima do that with Wufei only so many few steps away? Naima knew just as well as he did that Wufei liked Heero; she always did have to push sometimes when it came to certain things. She lacked more morals than a bum begging for money on a street corner. It really got on his nerves when she'd do things to Heero and it got on his nerves more when Heero would let her get away with it. It was obvious that Heero could tell just as plain as day what Naima was doing and had just let her kiss him. Hell, he even noticed that they tongued each other for a full two minutes. Maybe he was just upset that he didn't have the balls to pull such things like his older sister Naima did. Granted he was gutsier when it came to doing stupid things like taking on bets that could possibly make him end up in the hospital, but that was just him being young and stupid.

"Quatre are you ok you've been staring blankly out the car window for what seems like hours." his sister tapped his shoulder and then noticed that the lights had turned green. "If you're upset because of what I did I'm sorry."

"It's not that." he sighed and blew hot breath on the cool window and drew a smiley face.

"Then what is it?" she made a left and glanced at her only brother again. "What's wrong little brother?"

"Is there some part of me that's just unlovable? I mean it's not the first time I've ever wondered that, but recently, I don't know……..I feel as if there's some certain aspect, quality, that I have that just appalls people. Am I really repel worthy or something? I mean come on even Heero has Wufei pining over him and Heero was an ass to him a lot." he could feel tears wanting to make themselves present, but he wouldn't let it happen, no not in front of Naima.

"Oh Quatre, look I'm sure that there's some logical reason why you're still single, but that doesn't mean no one likes you. Maybe if you toned down the way you acted-" Quatre cut her off.

"There's nothing wrong with the way I act!" he blushed slightly at his minute outburst. "Fine I'll tone down some, but I highly doubt that it's going to help me."

"Just because everyone else is pairing off doesn't mean you have to go and find someone or that something's wrong with you just because you don't have anyone." she stopped at another stop light.

"I guess you're right. I just wish that I had someone, it gets lonely after a while you know." he sighed. Maybe all he needed was just some alone time for a while, sometime to relax and just somehow find peace with everything. Shit that sounded so gay. He suppressed a laugh; well that is what he was now wasn't it?

"Yeah it does tend to get lonely, but that's part of life and we're young yet so there's nothing to worry about. You live, fall in love………….and maybe it'll last who knows. But I know one thing for sure as long as you do the things you've always wanted then you'll be happy." the light had long past turned green and they were now only a few blocks away from their home.

"Like what?" he turned and looked at his older sister.

"What do you mean?" she quickly glanced at him.

"You said as long as you do the things you've always wanted then you'll be happy. What did you mean?"

"Take risks, jump off the bridge if there's water below, dance naked in the rain, dye you hair, bungee jump, fall in love, get hurt, if it's what your heart desires then do it because you've only got one life to live so live it well." she smiled at him and made another left turn into their drive way.

"I'll be sure to do that from now on." he shut his side of the car and leaned on her shoulder.

"Good, I don't like it when you're sad, it upsets me." she wrapped her right arm around his shoulder and slightly hugged him.

"Thanks Naima." they walked into their house and closed the door behind them.


The movie they chose to see was sweet and romantic. At the moment they were sitting outside Starbucks drinking some wondrous caffeine. Heero could practically feel the caffeine filling his bloodstream. It was a great feeling being out like this with Wufei he wondered briefly if their date entailed a kiss at the end. He watched as the cars passed the front of the store, lights always lit up the city in such a way that it seemed to dance once you reached the highest part of the outskirts. It was an amazing thing to see really. He took another swig from his cup and watched Wufei as he also took a mouthful of his drink. He watched the way his throat worked and found that he desperately wanted to take a nice lap at it. Lock his lips firmly at the junction where shoulder met neck and suck as hard as he possibly could. Oh God! What was he doing thinking such things while he was in public?! Now he had a protruding problem in which he needed to wait to go away or somehow take care of. God this was embarrassing.

"So is there anything you want to do." he tried not to blush when Wufei looked at him. He felt like such a pervert for having those sorts of thoughts.

"Um… not at the moment no." he needed to calm himself somehow. Think pure thoughts, think pure thoughts!

"I think I've got an idea. After we finish our drinks lets head out to the Heights, how does that sound Heero?" he polished off what was left in his cup.

"Nice I guess." man he was sucker for romantic shit like that.

"Heero did I do something wrong between buying our drinks and sitting here?" Wufei was staring directly at him. He had the most gorgeous eyes he'd ever seen in his life. It would be nice to wake up staring into those beautiful eyes after a night of blissful lovemaking. No! Damnit that was not helping!!

"No." God this was not how he'd planned on getting close to Wufei.

"Then what is it?" his tone wasn't demanding and held a certain undertone of worry. Maybe he was afraid of what might be going on in his head at that moment. Man if he only knew.

"I'm a bit embarrassed having to say this but……..I sort of have a hard-on that won't go away." he would have laughed at the face Wufei had made if it wasn't for how he felt at the moment.

"Oh……..uh….but you do want to go to the Heights right?" how could he ask a question like that?

"Yes but there is no way in Hell I'm getting up while sporting a boner!" hissed Heero.

"I have an idea if you're not too uncomfortable with it."

They had left Starbucks with Heero firmly latched onto Wufei. Heero had his arms wrapped around Wufei's torso and Wufei had his right arm around Heero. It had been a sight if anyone ever saw one. To most people who knew either of them they would have found the sight most disconcerting; not people who personally knew them, but knew them to the extent that they knew those two constantly fought during Kick Boxing. When they had gotten to the car Heero thanked Wufei for saving him from further embarrassment. Once they arrived at the Heights both of them had grown quite. Heero still felt like an imbecile for letting himself get hard like that in public. What in God's name did Wufei think of him now? Did Wufei think of him as some sort of sick slut for doing all the things he'd done? Did Wufei secretly call him a whore in the private sanctity of his mind? Or did he now just want to leave him out here deserted in the cold lush green fields of the Heights?

"I'm sorry for being such a skank." whispered Heero with his hands clenched in his lap.

"Heero I don't know what's going threw your mind right now but you're not a skank or any other form near to it." Wufei opened his door and stepped out the car. Heero thought that Wufei wanted to get as far away from him as possible now. God who the Hell did he think he was fooling. There was no way he would be able to fall in love with anyone other than his bother. He was going to end up being celibate for the rest of his life with only his damn hand to comfort him. Suddenly he door was swung open.

"………." he stared down at his feet not daring to look up into Wufei's eyes.

"Come on get out." he wanted to, but his feet were planted firmly to the ground and seemed as if some other worldly force kept him there. The next thing he knew Wufei had picked him up out of his seat and was carrying him. God this was humiliating!

"I'm sorry so sorry." he placed his hands on his face and started crying. When they had stopped moving he'd thought Wufei would just drop him right there on the ground and leave him. What he didn't expect was to be placed gently down on a blanket with pillows or even to be covered with a soft cotton comforter. At least Wufei was nice enough to leave him here with blankets.

"Don't worry Heero I'm not going to leave you here. I said we'd go to the Heights and now we're here Heero." Wufei lifted Heero's chin with his forefinger and thumb and stared directly into his eyes perhaps even his very soul. "Look at the stars with me Heero, they're shining so brightly from up here."

"Wufei-" he'd been about to protest to Wufei even sticking around, but he'd been cut off by the other teen.

"Sometimes I like to sit up here on warm summer nights and wonder what I'm going to be doing twenty years down the line. Will I still be sitting up here wondering what I'll be doing? Who I'll be with? And what will that person think of me? But you want to know something Heero?" he turned and looked back at him.

"………" he shook his head up and down very slowly.

"The only person I can picture me ever being up here with…….is you." the last part was whispered.


A/N: Well there we have it another chapter. I hope you all liked this one I put a lot of effort into this one and spent the whole day coming up with it. ::smiles:: because that was just how much I care for my readers. And as always we love reviews it's how we thrive. ::laughs:: ok I'll stop.

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