AN - Thanks for all the reviews, I'm glad everyone likes it so far :-D Thank you all. In response to mione grint's review, yes, it is a big problem. This whole story is based on an experience I recently had. Although it's going down a different road than my life went :-D
Chapter 2
Dear Diary,
Things are so bloody complicated nowadays. He loves me, but I not anywhere near having a clue about my feelings at all!
Why did I push him.... I could've just accepted it all... Things got worse today though.
Thanks to that invalid Malfoy, we kissed! And the worst part? I KISSED HIM!
*sigh* I don't know what I was thinking. It all started with another stupid tiff with stupid Malfoy. Went like this:
Malfoy: Oh look it's stupid Scarboy and his Weasel and Mudblood.
Harry: Still congregrating with cave trolls Malfoy?
Malfoy: Ooh, I'm so offended. Least I don't hang out with an ugly Mudblood.
Ron: She's not ugly. Least none of us sleep with Pansy Pugface Parkinson!
Malfoy: Least I'm getting some Weasel!
Me: Please, Malfoy, don't kid yourself. The only reason you get any is because Pugsy is a whore who's too stupid for her own good and will shag anything that moves.
Malfoy: I'm sure she's better than you, Mudblood.
Ron: Stop calling her that!
Malfoy: What? Mudblood?
Ron: Stop it! *Then he hits Malfoy and surprisingly knocks him down.*
Malfoy: Stupid bugger!
Ron: Sod off ferret! She's more beautiful than any woman you could ever hope to be with! She's the most beautiful person and you aren't even worthy of her attention, even her insults! Leave her be, you sodding bastard!
Malfoy: I'll get you for this! *Gets up and stalks off*
Ron: Stupid ferret...
Me: Ron, that was so sweet!
Ron: I meant it, Hermione. You are so beautiful. You are the most wonderful, most beautiful person I know, and Malfoy's insults are all stupid lies. He could never see you the way I see you... You are so much better and on a higher level than him... Hermione...I-
Me: *kissing Ron passionately*
Ron: *kisses me back, pulling me in tight*
Harry: ......
Me and Ron: *still kissing..........*
Five Minutes Later
Me and Ron: *still kissing*
*Footsteps*
Harry: I hate to break you two up but I just saw Snape headed and he won't like your PDA too much..
Me and Ron: *still kissing....break apart and catch breath* *dragged away by Harry, both of us dazed*
***
And that was what happened, Diary. It was the best kiss of my life. I saw fireworks, I really did. It was like magic, only not the wizardry and witchcraft type...it was beautiful. I saw fireworks like never before... My brain was exploding with passion, and I felt like I could just snog him forever.
What does this mean? Does this mean I really do have feelings for Ron? I can still feel his touch, his hands on my back, his chest pressed against mine... his soft lips massaging my own, his tongue caressing mine....
*swoon* Diary, I think I'm in love.
But I am so scared! What do I do? I don't want to mess up our friendship, but I can't deny it anymore that I really do care for Ron, beyond friendship...
I want to be with him...
But...what is this sinking feeling inside of me?
xoxo
Hermione
