AN - Okay, so I admit I'm a little lost.  So nothing BIG happening in this chapter.  I think.  No, I know.  This is going to describe how she feels right now, not what's happening.

*~*Chapter Five*~*

Dear Diary,

                Me and Ron Ron and I are very happy.  I can't believe I just wrote "Me and Ron"....  Look what he's doing to me!  I don't have a lot to write about.

                I can't imagine what my life would have been if I hadn't just stopped being stupid and seen Ron how I see him now.

                Harry is very happy too.  He told me, when Ron wasn't around, that he hated seeing us apart because he thinks we're made for each other.

                What would have happened if I hadn't given in to my feelings for Ron?  If I were still single and ignoring the tingle I felt when I saw him?

                Well, for one, I would be spending a lot more time on homework and a lot less time snogging his brains out, that's for sure!

                Thank God for second chances.  I thought I'd ruined things by telling Ron nothing could happen between us.

Sometimes we get
Second chances
Sometimes we never
Make it past the first
It really makes me wonder
Why some things happen
When they do
It really makes me wonder
Why it wasn't me
Instead of you
And when you say
It doesn't matter
Well it does
And all it takes is a mistake
To eat your words
Just one more time I think
I'll drive on home tonight

Sometimes
We never see the warning
And the voice in your head
Tells you not to go
It really makes me wonder
Why some things happen
When they do
It really makes me wonder
Why it wasn't me
Instead of you

And when you say
It doesn't matter
Well it does
And all it takes is a mistake
To eat your words
Just one more time I think
I'll drive on home tonight

And when you look
It's gone
It's too late to turn around
And it's another day
Facing yourself and
The things that you've done
Woh, oh, oh, oh, oh

And when you say
It doesn't matter
Well it does
And all it takes is a mistake
To eat your words
Just one more time I think
I'll drive on home tonight.

~Second Chances, Michelle Branch (a Muggle musician)

I once heard that song and it really relates to now.  From what I can gather it's about second chances.  It's also a nice song and I have nothing else to do.

Well, I could write about Harry.  I think I'm a lot closer to him.  After Sirius died, we were all heartbroken, and many of us cried for weeks.  Including me.  It still hurts to think about it.

But Harry, he was more withdrawn.  When he was in his room we could hear him crying.  If he wasn't crying he was sleeping.  Because he was so tired from crying.  I think the first time he smiled was a year later.  I don't blame him.  Sirius was the thing that made him smile, because he was a link to his parents, a hope of escaping his stupid Muggle relatives.

I think most of Harry's grief came from thinking it was his fault Sirius died.  Even though it wasn't.  "If I hadn't been there..." "If I hadn't let Voldemort get to me..." and all this baloney!  Finally Harry gave up trying to tell us it was his fault.

Now that Harry has accepted Sirius' death, he's a bit easier to talk to.  He seems more laidback now, and I think it's a girl.  He's finally letting himself live.  I'm so happy about that.

I can't figure who's on his mind though.  I've caught him with a goofy grin on his face, coming back to the Common Room after taking walks, and I've seen him with a look in his eyes like he's not even there, off in some dream land.  I know it has to be a girl.  What else is making him so happy?

Something is up.  I need to talk to Ron.  We're going to find out just what's making Harry smile.

Now all I need is some spy music.  haha.

xoxox

Hermione

AN - Tada.  Nothing special.  I have to plan the story now, before I forget.  I've got a great idea where this whole thing is headed. :-D  You probably won't like it, though.  But don't worry.  I'm thinking happy ending.