Chapter 5

Confessions

As the days passed by, the thought of Sirally being her illegitimate brother was on her shoulders. She felt like with that, she now knew that she was alone in the universe. No one could understand. No one…

" Celina?"

She moaned.

" Celina?"

She smiled. ' Ah, Athrun'

She turned over and then someone just started shaking her. She said, " Stop it, Athrun."

" Julia!"

Celina screamed, " That's not my name!" She felt her hand go through the air and slap someone across his or her face; she clearly wasn't sure whom it was. But the face she slapped didn't feel like Athrun's. She forced her eyes to open and Kira rubbing his face. When her eyes are focused, she rubbed her eyes. She mumbled, " You're not Athrun."

" Of course, I'm not."

Celina grabbed her sheet and covered herself. She screamed, " Kira!"

" What?"

She pointed at the door. He said, " What?"

She blushed. " You're my brother's ex- best friend," she said, " Don't think try to make a move on me, in order for him to forgive you."

" What?"

" Out. I have to change."

" Fine."

He walked out. Celina got up and put on a black tank top, her uniform shirt and a pair of shorts. She walked out; she looked around if he was around.

She frowned. ' I should have known that he'd disappear.' she thought and sighed.

" Men," she said to herself.

" What about men?" said someone behind her. She turned and saw Kira. Celina snapped, " It isn't good to sneak up on people."

Kira smiled, " I wasn't trying to kill you, so what's the big deal."

She pointed a finger at him, in her mind, she wanted to say ' you don't have any right to be near me. You traitor, you liar!' But the words didn't come out. All she could see was his kind eyes pleading to be her friend and to accept him. She put her hand down and shook her head. " Nothing," she said.

Kira said, " Come on. Someone wants to talk to you."

They started to walk. Celina said, " Who wants to talk to me?"

" I don't know. But if I knew, I'd probably be telling you how to act by now."

She smiled, " You really do want to take care of me."

He blushed. " It's my duty for our people and to Athrun."

She stopped in her tracks. Kira noticed and turned to her. He asked, " What's wrong?"

Celina said, " You said our people."

" Yes?"

" Plus, you said Athrun."

" Yeah, I guess I did."

She stared at him for answers. Celina said, " Why?"

He laughed weakly, " If you were dead right now, I'd be dead seconds after you."

" That's true. Athrun would kill you no matter what happens to me."

Kira looked away. Celina bit her lip. She thought, ' O.k. I went a little to far.'

Something in her heart was trying to tell her something. She said, to herself, " What's going on?"

The thing said / Comfort him you hurt him. /

/I can't. /

/ Why not? /

/ Because-/

/ Because, what? /

' I don't know anymore.' She thought.

Celina quickly said, " I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that. I-,"

Someone interrupted, " Now, why are you two all being quiet?"

They turned and saw Marillia with her hands on her hips and Fllay close behind her.

" Well?" she said.

Kira said, " Um, I was sent to take her to Admiral Halberton."

Everyone looked shocked. Fllay was the first one to recover. " Admiral?" she said.

Kira nodded.

Marillia said, " Wow."

Celina asked, " Who's the Admiral?"

But she knew who he perfectly was.

Fllay said, sternly to her " He was the one who wanted the Gundams built."

'Oh' was all she could say.

Kira said, " Any who, he wants to meet her."

Fllay said, " Why her?"

Celina stepped back. She thought, ' This girl seems to hate me.'

Kira shrugged, " I don't really know."

Fllay opened her mouth to say something more, but Marillia said, " You guys should be going?"

Kira nodded and grabbed Celina's wrist. He said, " Let's go."

They walked away from them. Celina looked back and saw Fllay pouting. She said, to Kira " Why is Fllay being distant?"

" I don't really know."

She stared at him and saw that he knew something that she didn't. She stopped in her tracks and squirmed her hand out of his grip.

She asked, " Why?"

He turned to her, " Why what?"

She snapped, " Why Fllay hates me?"

He said, " Well, she's kind of protective."

" Of who?"

Kira started to go red.

She jumped back and pointed at him, " You!"

He was speechless. She said, thoughtfully " Kira is she jealous or something?"

He said, " She wouldn't be."

" Whatever."

She walked past him with hands on her hips. She said, " I know very well when a person is envious of another."

She waved her hand and said, " For example, Dearka and Yzak compete for me, because I'm the most talented and I might add beautiful daughter of Patrick Zala. Plus the soon to be sister-in-law to Lacus Clyne."

She stared at him. " You know her," she said, " You actually know her?"

He stammered, " We've met, once."

She glared, " How?"

" She was in the same situation as you were and then I took her back to Athrun."

" She never talks about you."

" I guess, if she's been held prisoner for awhile."

" She never mentioned that either."

She rubbed her chin. I wonder, she thought.

Kira said, " Neither have spoken about you."

" Same for me. Athrun doesn't talk to me about you. I always have to go to Dad for answers about Athrun's missions."

Kira said, " Wait a sec. How could you and Athrun be siblings?"

It was her turn to blush. She said, " Well, I'm a year younger."

" You don't look like it."

She snapped, " Girls always lie about their ages!"

He said, " All right. All right."

He led the way to Murrue's room. She pointed out, " What the hell are we doing here?"

" This is where he is."

Kira knocked on the door. Mwu was at the door and said, " Welcome, my people."

She said, walking passed him, " Don't push it."

Mwu said, " I see your pep talk didn't get through to her."

Kira said, " I tried. That's the good thing."

She scanned the room and saw that Murrue and the two people that spoke to her earlier. They all sat up when she came in. The man she knew straight away that he was the Admiral. He said, " Welcome to the Archangel, Julia and to the military."

She said, coldly " I had no choice."

" Yes, I understand. Please, Kira and Julia sit down." He gestured to two empty seats."

They sat down.

He continued, " Julia. I'm Admiral Lewis Halberton. My daughter, Natalie."

The woman nodded, " Hello."

" Hi," Celina said.

The Admiral took off his cap and ran his fingers through his hair. He said, " Mwu, Murrue, Kira could I please speak to Julia alone with Natalie."

They got up and walked to the door. Celina piped up, quickly " Kira should stay."

Everyone looked at her with curiosity in his or her eyes. The Admiral said, " Oh."

" Well," she babbled, " He saved my life, plus he's the only one who I could trust. Um, plus, plus, we both been to Copernicus."

She kept quiet for a while, sulked and said, " Am I talking too much?"

Natalie said, " No, not at all."

She turned to face at her father and said, " Probably we should let the boy stay, Daddy."

The Admiral shrugged, " It's fine by me. Do you wish to stay?"

Celina nodded and Kira noticed. She mouthed, please. He said, " All right."

Her eyes started to light with gratitude. Mwu sighed, " We know when we are not wanted. Come Murrue."

They left then Mwu appeared again. He said, " Oh, Natalie are we still on for tonight?"

Natalie blushed. She said, " Sorry, don't forget about why I can't."

Mwu shook his head slowly. " You poor woman," he said, " With such a child. I wonder, why he isn't on the other side, yet."

Admiral yelled, " Mwu la Fllaga! Don't say such things about him."

" So sorry, sir," he said, weakly.

And he left. Celina raised her eyebrows. Hmm, she thought, interesting. She said, ' Umm, Miss. Halberton?"

Natalie smiled. The Admiral said, " Her names Mrs. Winfield."

She said, " No, no, Daddy. It's all right. Actually it's been awhile since any one called me that."

She looked at Celina, " Thanks, for calling me that. It brings good memories."

" Natalie."

" What?"

" It isn't appropriate."

" Why?"

Celina and Kira looked from one to the other. Celina's eyes lit up with such interest, wonder and curiosity. Kira's eyes were filled with worry. He saw a smile form on Celina's lips. He thought, ' She seems pretty amused by a father and daughter fighting."

Finally, Natalie said, " Daddy, can we discuss this later. And please don't bring up what you call my mistakes. For one, my child isn't a mistake. He was born smart all right.'

" Natalie, just drop it."

He cleared his throat. He said, to Celina, " I heard about your joy ride on the Strike."

Celina argued, " It wasn't a joy ride. I was practically doing my new job."

" That isn't your job, is it?"

" No."

" What is it?"

Celina bit her lip, " I have to do research on dead Coordinators."

" Are you comfortable with it?"

She looked at Kira, quickly for any help. She shook her head, " No, I'm not."

" Why, not?"

" Because it's sad to read about their tragic deaths."

The Admiral looked at some documents. He said, " I hear that, you walked out on the first day on a rather very special case. Why?"

She looked at Natalie, who looked sympathetic to her. She stood up straight and said, " Well, um. I don't really know. Honestly. I had a feeling to just get up and leave."

" Why?"

" Why? Because it was sad, hearing about a teenage boy, who killed a man and then later executed by a firing squad. I mean that's tragic. There should have been a better reason to kill him."

" What do you think was the reason?"

She kept quiet. She knew her answer really well, but it could give out her secret being a Coordinator.

The Admiral sighed, heavily " I think I know your answer."

She bit her lip harder. He knew she knew that he knew. It was just one of those gut feelings.

He said, " Tell me the truth. You are a Coordinator are you not? I promise if you tell me why you are truly here, then I won't have you executed."

She jumped up from her chair, " Executed? No."

She walked towards the door, but Kira grabbed her arm. He whispered into her ear, " Tell him, Celina. You know that you could trust him."

She glared at him, " How could I? The man made the Gundams."

" Believe me."

Celina saw something in his eyes, so she decided to listen to him. She nodded. She walked to the desk and said, " Yes, I'm a Coordinator. Yes, I've been sent here by ZAFT. But, I'm not here to kill some one. I'm only here to steal some files on the dead Coordinators."

Kira was shocked by her revelations. She looked at Kira and looked back at the Admiral. He said, " Why exactly?"

She shrugged, " I don't really know."

" You may sit down."

Celina hesitated.

The Admiral said, " Don't worry I won't bite."

She sat down. The Admiral said, " Please sit Kira."

Kira shook his head, " No, I couldn't."

" You're the other Coordinator. You should or are you still shocked from what she said."

Celina said, " He was the first one I told, when I arrived."

Natalie said, " You mean, he knew about your mission."

The Admiral raised his eyebrows. " Oh," he simply said.

Celina thought, ' Great, know I got the fool in trouble.'

She said, " He didn't exactly know about my mission. He knew I was from ZAFT, but didn't know about the stealing files part. He thought I was planning to steal the Strike or to assassinate someone, so he's been following me around a lot."

The Admiral said, to Kira, " Is that true?"

All Kira did was nod.

Celina said, quickly " Look Admiral, the last thing I want to do is kill someone."

Now, that caught everyone by surprise. Natalie said, " Are you sure?"

" Excuse me?"

" About you not wanting to kill anyone. Basically the only reason why Coordinators join the military is usually to get revenge on us."

" My revenge has already been paid."

The Admiral said, " And who exactly did you loose?"

She bit her bottom lip. She said, " My m-mother."

The Admiral relaxed. Celina glared at him. Natalie still seemed tensed. She said, " How exactly?"

Celina stared at her. She said, " Why?"

Natalie said, " Nothing really, just curiosity."

" I lost my mother in the Bloody Valentine."

" Pardon?"

The Admiral became tense, again. He said, " Destruction of Junius 7."

" Oh," she said, " I'm terribly sorry."

Celina said, coldly " Everyone says that."

The Admiral said, " Your family is with ZAFT."

She nodded. He said, " Who?"

Celina said, without hesitating " My twin brother is soldier and my father-,"

" Mom, I was looking all over for you," said someone that sounded kind of familiar to Celina and in walked a young boy. The boy had deep black hair, kind of like the night and his eyes were aqua-green. All Celina could do was stare into them and feel like her soul was being ripped out. His skin was pale, possibly paler than her skin.

Memories and thoughts started to jumble in her mind. When they became too much, her head started to throb like mad, but she didn't show them her pain.

The boy walked towards Natalie and said, " Mom, I was worried sick thinking you might be dead or something."

Natalie smiled, " Oh, you were worried of me." She looked at Kira then to Celina, " My little boy was worried. That's new?"

Celina smiled. She thought, " That kid looks oddly familiar. But where have we met?" Then, the face of Sirally popped to her mind. She said, quietly to herself " Troy."

The boy said, " Pardon?"

He looked directly at her. She blushed and said, " I was thinking of someone I knew."

He smiled, softly " I understand. At first, I wondered how you knew my name."

" Your name's Troy?"

He nodded. She said, " Interesting."

" Why do you say that?"

She rubbed her chin. She said, " Just the fact that you have the same name as the person I knew. Interesting."

Yes, she thought, interesting. She smiled to herself, but exactly didn't know why. Out of nowhere she felt something inside of her as if someone else was emerging in her.