Chapter 3- MLC

I took a deep breath and slowly walked towards the house. Matt taking long strides beside me was going a bit faster. He realized this and stop in front of me. I looked around and I noticed that the car must have been sitting there for about twenty minutes, it still looked like it was warm. I wasn't paying attention to where I was walking and walked right into Matt. He caught me before I fell to the ground for the third time that day. He chuckled. I looked towards the ground.

"Hey, I don't ever want to see you hang your head again. You hear?" He lifted my head up. "I want you to remember something.." he paused to look towards the house then at me. "I want you to realize that I am here for you and you are welcomed to come back whenever you need to." I was holding back a flood gate of tears. I just couldn't believe this was happening to me. I was just moments away from being torn away from the only real family I have ever known. I decided that I could no longer be able to hide from the inevitable fate. I put up a brave front and walked up the door. I didn't know if I should knock or not. It was ackward to think about it. Matt who had been walking just behind me push pass me and opened the door. I followed him in.

Gilbert, Daisy, Stephanie, Jeff, and Jessica (my sister) were all sitting in the livingroom discussing what was about to happen. I held my head high and all of their heads turned my direction. Jessica looked angry. I had no clue as why. Stephanie was the first to speak.

" After the little stunt you pulled you should be sent to a private school. However, I was planning on asking Gilbert and he agreed, that you and Jessica shall stay here for about six months. I realize you are used to this, but Jessica is not. So you will have to treat her with respect. I want you to show her the ropes. If she gets in trouble it is your problem you will be punished along with her but mainly you. You are responible for her. I am leaving have fun. I better not hear any bad reports." I released the breath that I had been holding. Then thought about what she had just said.

"Why am I always the one to get punished?! She decides things for herself! I DON'T force her to do anything she doesn't already do!" I couldn't believe this. Stephanie glared at me. I marched pass her straight to Matt's room where no one would bug me, except Matt of course. I actually for once didn't hear him on the stairs. I was sitting in his desk's chair. All of a sudden it spun around so I ended up facing Matt.

"What was all that about! Why do you always pull stunts like that?! You are so selfish!" I couldn't believe that he was saying this about ME. I jumped up and got in his face.

"I am selfish, am I? Just wait until you actually meet my Sister! I am not pulling any stunt! SHE DOES MAKE HER OWN DECISION, DOESN'T SHE?" Before he could response I left the room and sat on the couch. 'I just won't speak to him' I thought. I could hear Jeff and Jessica's laughter echoing in the hallway. As I heard that I knew I need someone to love and understand me. I jumped off the couch and ran out of the house. I could no longer hold tears back. Why I am the bad child, the unloved one. I ran towards the dock, knowing no one would miss me. I sat there kicking my feet in the water. I heard footstep behind me and assumed it was Matt. When I looked back I saw Jared, he smiled.

"You never showed up to Shane's party." He stated. I looked down at the water. He grabbed my chin and looked me in the eyes. "Why are you crying?"

"I don't want to talk about it." He tilted his head and gently kissed me. His kiss sent shivers all up and down my back.

"You sure you don't want to talk about it?" I nodded. This time he kissed me as he push me back on the dock. He then position himself in between my legs.

"Wait. We can't do this." I said.

"Sure, we can. Plus you owe me a thank you." He smiled. He has a memorizing smile.

"I can't. I mean I've never done this." I said thinking of excuses.

"Well, I can be your first." He said while unzipping my pants.

"But.." He kissed me interrupting me and wiping away all resistance.

"I will love you like no one else can."

2 am Next Day

I got up and fixed my pants. He got up and kissed me and said farewell. I couldn't believe I did that. I went back to the house. I found Matt up waiting for me. I was very shocked.

"Did you have fun?" He asked.

"With what?" I snapped at him.

"Screwing Jared!" He snapped back. "Why with him?" His voice softened.

"Because I can! What does it matter to you? How much did you see?" I was pissed.

"I didn't see anything but I heard you talking." He responsed. "I guess I am just looking out

for you. Oh we are sharing my room. Night!"

"Why do you always say that you are looking out for me...But yet you are the first to condemn me!?" I raised my voice not caring everyone else is asleep. He just rolled his eyes. "Matt what I did tonight is something you have beening doing for YEARS! Why is it okay for you but not me?! Huh? Matt?"

"I am not dealing with this tonight. You don't know what you got yourself into." He huffed.

"I don't know, what I got myself into! Your the one with Amy, not me! Plus what do you care anyways. He LOVES me, not YOU! I'll stay on the couch if I am such a bother." His face softened.

"You think he loves you..He is just using you. I thought you knew that." I rolled my eyes somewhat feeling worn out and tired. "No come sleep in my room it's more comfortable than the couch anyway." With that he headed upstairs. I decided to follow him. Maybe he was right, just maybe I am too selfish or insecure around my sister. She hasn't done anything yet. Matt turned around when he reached his door. "Do you really hate Amy that much?"

"Does it matter what I think?" I replied softly. He gave me a puzzled look and we went into his room.