I try to be perfect
It just wasn't worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
They try to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew it all along
If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own
Pieces – by Sum 41
Chapter three Friday
Emma sat at a picnic table ignoring almost anyone who tried talking to her. She had vigorously avoided Manny, who was practically stalking her, by the way. Her week had been horrible and to make it worse she had detention tomorrow with none other than Jay, whom she strongly despised. Spike hadn't been too pleased because she needed all the help she could get around the house. Caitlin was doing her best to help out also while Craig volunteered to baby-sit Jack some of the time.
Emma fiddled with the lettuce from her salad unaware oh her actions. She only looked up when a couple of trays plunked down on the other side of her table.
Sean, Ellie, Alex, and Jay had decided to seat themselves at her table. Sean was seated in front of her with Ellie and Jay on either side of him, Alex sitting by Jay.
"You mind?" Sean asked, while he unwrapped his cheeseburger.
Since when does Sean eat meat? - Emma asked herself.
"Uh…no, go ahead."
With that said she threw her lunch in the trashcan and left the table.
"I have to admit I feel sorry for her." Ellie said turning to Sean. Sean just took a bite out of his burger.
That's probably exactly what she doesn't want to hear. – He thought. No matter how much he hated admitting it he still cared for Emma. With a past like theirs who wouldn't? He was sorry Mr. Simpson was sick. After all, he was the best father figure he had. Bad things always happen to good people. – He thought.
"She has been acting a little out of whack, but that's not my problem. It's not my business and I don't care. Sure, everyone feels bad about Simpson, but who wouldn't? The guy can't rub anyone the wrong way. He knew about mine and Nature-Girl's past but he still led me on in becoming VP. It's like he thinks we are all equals." Alex said. "He knows who you are and what you've done but does he ever look at anyone the wrong way?"
"She's got a point." Ellie replied.
"Well, unless they have something to do with Emma." Sean cut in.
"No, you mean, unless her boyfriend, who Simpson knew, shrewdly broke her heart and then picked up another chick without a second thought." Alex concluded.
"Right on the dot!" Jay laughed. "It's funny, but he knows Greenpeace hates my guts and he still treats me like all the others."
"Well, he is a teacher." Ellie brought out.
"But what teacher doesn't have their favorites or bad apples?" Jay put in.
"Simpson." Alex stated.
"Exactly," Jay said, tossing his empty bag into the trashcan.
"Just to let you know, I resent that last comment, Alex. I didn't just pick up another chick without a second thought." Sean said.
"Yeah, I know." Alex replied with a serious expression. Then she contorted into laughter. "You drug out Amy, the slut!" Jay joined in on her laughter, while Ellie ignored their comments and Sean just let them enjoy themselves.
Meanwhile, as the gang where laughing their heads off, Emma was seen sitting against her locker door. She seemed very interested in examining her shoe's when someone sat down beside her.
"Hey, Em, how've been?" Craig asked bringing her eyes up to his.
"Truthfully?"
"You know you can tell me anything, I'm Craig remember?" He joked and was rewarded with a small smile on her part.
"Bad. Nothing is the same. Everything's different, Craig. I just want my life to be the way it seemed before, any of this ever happened. Perfect…."
"Was it ever perfect to begin with?"
"No. But, I wish it was."
"Don't we all." he said with a sigh.
"I finally have a dad, something I've missed out on for a long time, and now, when our lives have just started, he's getting taken away from me."
"Emma…"
"No! Don't try to tell me that everything will get better because he won't. I see him every day and it seems as if every day he dies a little more. I have a brother now, but what if he never knows his dad, just like me?"
Silence from Craig. Pools of tears form in Emma's eyes, but she doesn't bother to wipe them away.
"Everybody thinks that I'm perfect." She say's quietly, looking down now.
"I know the truth though. They think that everything is so easy for me. That I'm so strong, I can handle anything, but I can't. No one knows what it's like; having to wake up to the horrible noise of constant retching and the baby crying all night long." Emma's tears were poring now, and Craig pulled her against his chest, but she continued.
"I can't sleep at all and I can't think about anything else! It's so frustrating!"
"I'm here, Emma. Its okay." he said, hugging her tighter to him.
"No, it's not." She mumbled against his chest.
And they sat there. Craig comforting her, wishing he could take away all her pain, but only time could tell you, that he wouldn't be the one to do it.
A/N- Detention in the next chapter! Review!
ScaryChick- Thanx! Hopefully it will be longer but I haven't got loads of free time. Detention is on the way!
BlueAngel07- This is basically a jemma, but this is sorta a throw off. You know theres Jay, then Sean still cares, and now Craig. Will there be more? Idk, really, I write whatever pops into my head at the moment! Thank you for reviewing and read on!
-DCMMFAN
