Disclaimer : I don't own anything to do with CSI: Crime Scene Investigation.
Summary : Catherine is leaving, and leaves it on a bad note with Sara.
Losing her. Lost her.
I walk into her room. I see her in all her glory, then I see that she's packing. I remember seeing the ticket. The one-way ticket to New York. The one, one-way ticket to New York. I'm losing her. I knew that this day would come but I didn't think it would be this soon every thing was going so well.
"When were you going to tell me?" I say as my eyes start to fill up, I promised myself that I wouldn't cry but I'm not strong enough.
"Hey. Hon what do you mean?" She looks confused but she knows exactly what I mean.
"I saw the ticket when you asked me to get something out of your bag. A one-way ticket to New York. One One-way ticket to New York. Why? Why are you going? Why are you leaving me?"
"I… um… I got offered a job. Head CSI. It's what I've always wanted." She walks over to me and wipes away my tears.
"What about me? I thought you loved me." I fall into my lovers arms. I feel the security that I want for my whole life from her.
"You'll be fine. It's not like I'm keeping you alive. You were fine before us, without me. You just have to trust me, And I do love you." She whispers the last bit into my ear. I carry on sobbing, I hold onto her tighter so then maybe she won't go, maybe I can keep her here.
"You are. I'm dead without you." She steps back out of the embrace.
"What? What do you mean?"
"I mean that you didn't know mw at my lowest" A tear comes to my eye at the same time one comes to hers. "You didn't know me when I refused to eat, or when I did eat I made myself throw it up. You didn't know me when I thought I was worth nothing. I kept doing everything wrong. You know one time I tried to kill myself." I say the next part with a dry laugh, "I couldn't even do that right." The I whisper so that she can hardly hear it. "You made me want to live again."
I watch her become more and more confused. Then I watch her freak out.
"No Sara. That's not the girl I fell in love with. I fell in love with a strong tough 'If you touch my crime scene I'll brake your fingers' but, no. That's not you. Your more than that." She steps back and is crying as she stares into my eyes.
"it's jut a case of mistaken identity." I say walking up to her and wrapping my arms around her.
"No. No Sara. I can't take this. I'm going. We'll talk." She steps back, then in a 'Don't question me' voice she says " I can't take this. " Catherine picks up her bags that she has packed for New York. She looks at Sara one last time, "I don't know you anymore."
I stand there in a defining silence. I've lost her. I sit on our bed as my head falls into my hands and I cry.
