Chapter VII: If I Hate You, Why Do I Still Love You?

FD: This whole chapter I wrote. Let me clear a few things out for you, if you see VFD under each title, or see the name "Valon" before each chapter begins, the chapter will be lemon. You don't, it's a normal, romance chapter to the romance story. Now, you may enjoy the rest.


"Good morning, Sarah," came a voice. Sunlight streamed through the open balcony window, arousing the young girl from her eternal imagined dreams. Standing over her was Robert.

"Morning, Robert, how are you?" she asked as if nothing had happened to them last night. But even though she wanted to believe nothing did, she could not make it come true. It was permanent, the feeling of him, and his touch. Everything.

"Listen, Sarah, I want you to know that I worry about you. Ever since last night, you've been acting really strange," Robert said. Sarah smiled and placed her hand on his shoulder.

"Robert, you're a sweet guy. Don't worry about me," she said. "What time is it?"

"Eleven European time," Robert said.

"Oh, shit, I've slept in," Sarah said. "I'll be late."

"Late for what?" Robert asked as Sarah got out of bed and dressed.

"Me and the others are supposed to be meeting our manager and some other guys today around noon. I was supposed to meet them in Spain in fifteen minutes from now," Sarah said, placing lip-gloss on her lips, and acquiring the last touches to her dark, gothic make-up. She looked so beautiful, even in the clothes she was wearing. A black sweater over a pair of black jeans, her long black hair flailed and hanging at her waist. She rushed her shoes on and rushed out the door after kissing and saying goodbye to Robert.


"Sarah, where have you been? We've been waiting twenty minutes!" Tiffany yelled.

"Sorry, Tiff, I slept in," Sarah said, raising the collar of her sweater up to cover her neck. It seemed Yuji and Oliver were busy last night also because Yuji was wearing a turtleneck, which she would never wore.

"Valen and Alister here yet?" Sarah asked.

"No, not yet. They should be here soon," Ines said, checking her watch.

"I can't wait. I miss those guys," Sarah said. She reached into her pocket and pulled out a ring. It was a silver band ring with a flower at the top made of black diamonds. She placed it on her right ring finger and the girls smiled.

"Isn't that the ring that Alister gave you?" Yuji asked.

"Yeah. It's been a long time since I've seen both of them. Valon I miss the most," Sarah said.

"You guys grew up together, didn't you? Will this be the first time you'll see them since we became famous?" Tiffany asked. Sarah nodded.

"I see them in my dreams all the time. I miss them so much," Sarah said sadly.

"You tell Robert about them?" Ines asked.

"No, I don't think he needs to know. They shouldn't know about him, either. Will cause trouble," Sarah said.

"Yeah, it might," Tiffany said. A limo came driving up in front of them and they smiled as a man dressed in a suit and brown hair gelled back, his eyes hidden behind a pair of sunglasses, got out of the limo. That was their manager, Steven Brockus. Behind him came two boys. One was a tall boy with wild brown hair and blue eyes, over his bangs he wore a pair of goggles. He wore clothes a biker would. Behind him came another boy, tall, with maroon hair and his eyes hidden behind a pair of sunglasses. He wore a long heavy jacket over a strange outfit that made people think he was gay, even though he wasn't. The boys smiled as they saw the girls, and Sarah let out a scream.

"VALON! ALISTER! OH, MY GOD, YOU MADE IT!" Sarah ran into the boy's arms and they hugged her back. Tears streamed her face as she embraced the boys.

"Sheila, how you been? It's been so long," said the brunette, Valon, in an Australian accent.

"Didn't I say last time I saw you never to call me Sheila?" Sarah asked, her gray eyes glaring evilly at Valon.

"Easy there, kitten," Alister said, patting her head, making her blush. "Purr for your master."

Sarah giggled and began purring like a cat. How she got the nickname kitten was by her appearances. How she always wore black, was quick when she spoke and how she moved. How she was so flexible, so elegant, like a kitten. That, and how most people who knew her found her trustworthy and relliable. Not very many people were like that.

"Sarah, is something wrong?" Valon asked. Sarah's gase had grown cold, solid, yet silent. Like she was distant from them. They had never seen her like this. So distant, and so quiet.

"Sarah, what's wrong?" Tiffany asked.

"We only have the time we're given. Soon, everyone will die. Even you, even me…"

"Sarah, please, snap out of it!" Ines cried, tears of fear in her eyes. Sarah hadn't spoken a word, yet her eyes were so cold, so distant. Was she even still alive?


"Hello? Oh, hey, Tiffany. What's wrong?" Robert asked, answering the phone as it rang the second time in Sarah's room. "What?! What do you mean she fainted?!"

Tiffany explained to him how Sarah had fainted from starvation and exhaustion. She then asked if Robert knew what Sarah had done all night, but he did not answer. He hung up and sighed sadly. What was going on with Sarah? She seemed to be acting so weird. And now she fainted. Could there have been something she didn't tell him?


"Sarah? Sarah?" came a voice. It was so familiar, so warm, so soft. It came from the darkness, protecting Sarah through all this time. Momma? Sarah opened her eyes and found herself surrounded by the girls, her mananager, Alister, and Valon. They sighed happily.

"Good, you're okay," Alister said.

"What happened?" Sarah asked.

"You fainted, while you were greeting the boys. What's wrong with you?" Tiffany asked.

"N-nothing's wrong. I'm just tired. Been up all night," Sarah said. Valon let out a hand and helped her back up on her feet.

"If whatever you're doing is getting in the way of your health, you need to stop," Valon said.

"Um, yeah, whatever," Sarah said, ignoring what he said. There was something wrong with her, only problem was not even she knew what it was.

"Well, seeing how Sarah's all better, let's record some new songs for the new cd," said Steven. Sarah smiled. Steven was greedy and powerful, he didn't really care a lot for the girls, like how he did for his real daughters, but he still cared for the girls' health.

Steven led them down the hall to a recording studio of the building where the equipment was all set up. Including Sarah's favorite guitar, an electric 84 with black flames painted onto a blue background. She loved this guitar, because it was a gift from her dad on their first tour across America. She played it at every concert. She even gave a name to it that she hardly ever called it. Yuriy, wolf.

"Okay, I'm guessing you girls wrote some new songs while you were here. Let's hear them," Steven said from behind the glass window, looking in. Alister sat at thwe controls, and Valon stood behind him, smiling at Sarah, who smiled back. She played three notes on her guitar to start the song off, then smiled as she began to sing in a low tone. Then the drums came in, then followed by the bass, and then the keyboard. They recorded new songs for about three hours, then they took a break.

"Heads up, Sarah!" Alister said, tossing a can of soda her way. She caugfht it instantly. Soon all six of the teenagers were laughing and talking feverishly. Alister and Valon were talking about how America was without them, and how some of their high school friends were missing them like crazy. Sarah was getting a laugh out of how Valon was imitating Krystal, one of the popular, and snobby girls at their school. It was so funny.

"Jesus, why did you guys even come all the way to Europe, major question for you, Valon, seeing how you were in Australia last I checked?" Sarah said.

"Because we missed you, Sarah. Plus, your birthday is coming up soon," Alister said.

"That's right! And Alex wanted us to give you this," Valon said, getting up from the floor and reaching into his pocket. He pulled out a small box the size of the palm of his hand, wrapped up in crystal blue wrapping paper and a white ribbon holding it closed, causing a cute little bow to form at the top.

"Oh, Dad did this?" Sarah asked, taking the box.

"Yeah. Alex is missing his oldest daughter. He seems more upset that you're gone than he was when he got his second divorce from your mother," Alister said. "Plus, he knew he wasn't going to be able to celebrate your birthday this year, so he wanted to make sure you got this."

Sarah smiled, tears forming in her eyes. She held the box close to her chest and a tear fell from her face.

"You miss him, huh?" Yuji asked.

"A lot. Him, and Uncle Danny," Sarah said. Everyone had smiles on their faces now, and Sarah couldn't help but think of Robert. Who was she to have this amazing father to go out of his way and send her a gift all the way from America to Europe, and he didn't have a father like that? How dare she even go out during the day, acting like he was nothing? Sarah placed the gift in her bag and went outside, her cellphone in her hand. She flipped it open and dialed a number. It began ringing on the other end, and when a stern voice answered, Sarah stomache did a cartwheel.

"Hello?"

"Robert, thank god," Sarah said.

"Sarah? I was just aboyut to call you," Robert said, laughing slightly.

"Listen, Robert, you know I love you, right?" Sarah asked. Stupid question, dammit!

"Yeah, and I love you, too. What's wrong?" Robert asked.

"I'm coming back. I don't want to be here. I want to be with you," Sarah said.

"Sure, yeah. I'll send a limo to come to pick you up," Robert said.

"No, don't, I'll find my own way back. I love you, Robert," Sarah said, hanging up. Then she ran back inside and insisted that they would stop. Steve nodded. He knew what was going on. The limo outside was waiting for them, and they were soon back in Germany. They dropped her off a mile away from the castle, and the rest of the way Sarah walked back.


"Tiffany, hey, what's wrong?" Enrique asked.

"N-nothing. Just, Sarah fainted today," Tiffany said, setting her stuff back down on her bed.

"Who were those two guys that came out of the limo?" Enrique asked.

"Our friends, Alister and Valon. They're real sweet guys," Tiffany said. "Why?"

"Because someone called earlier asking for you. Some guy named David," Enrique said.

"David called? Whoo-hoo!" Tiffany yelled, running to the phone.

"Tiffany, who is David?" Enrique asked.

"A friend of mine," Tiffany said, dialing a number. She stood up straight and was quiet for a moment then spoke again.

"Hello, is David there?" Tiffany asked. "Oh, hey, David, what's up?"

Enrique walked out of the room, highly bothered if she was cheating on him. It was never official they were boyfriend and girlfriend, but he still couldn't help feel out of place. It was like how Robert felt when his family disappeared when he was young, and never knowing why.


"Sarah…Sarah, you're hurting me," Robert said, slightly out of breath as Sarah's arms were tightly around his waist. Once she stepped over the threshold of the castle, she immediately ran herself into Robert that it knocked the air out of him. He coughed and then Sarah released him. She stepped back and looked at him.

"I missed you, too," Robert said, kissing her deeply and passionately. She returned the kiss and placed her hands on his waist. His face was red slightly, as she had never done this before. But it was like she was in controll now. But it couldn't be here. Upstairs, in a warm bed, beneath several blankets and conforters. Robert pulled from the kiss and grabbed her wrist. But something snapped inside her and she pulled away. She didn't want to be touched like how he wanted to. All she wanted was to show him she loved him. Her weakness caused him pain. What was she to do?


"Welcome to Europe, sir. May I take your bag?" asked the flight attendant.

"No, no thanks."

A red head stood amongst the crowd, his ice blue eyes scanning for a brunnette with the grayest of all eyes. He walked among them, searching for her. Could she have not been here? No, no, his sources told him she would be. He had to find her and apologize after all these years. It had been so long since that fateful day when it happened, and he had not apologized at all for it. He just hoped it wasn't too late to see her.

"Tala, come play with me!"

"Tala, what do you think I look like?"

"Tala…your name means wolf, like Yuriy."

"Tala, you're my best friend ever!"

"Wanna play with me, Tala?"

"Tala, help me!"

"Please, help me! Don't leave me!"

"NO! TALA, COME BACK!"


FD: Well, that's it for this chapter. If you like it, review and e-mail me at , or . Either one will work. So long for now!blows kiss