Disclaimer – you know that I don't own hp I know that I don't own hp so its all good in the neighborhood.
Author's note – ok yeah I know there is a lot of love and you all are probably like how is this a love/hate fanfic but wait and see there will be some hating going on so don't get to thinking that it all romance because romance is even better when there is also anger ï?S
On with the story
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Chapter 5 – A flood of thoughts
(A/N – ok I'm just going to pretend that all these people have diaries. I mean I know I never said that they wrote in their diaries before they went to bed but I thought it would be interesting if I had a whole chapter full of diary entries from all the different people so you could know what they were thinking about the things that happened.)
Lily's dairy
(A/N – the diary writing is in italic and what the person is thinking while they write is straight and in bold. I hope it isn't too confusing.)
Dear Diary,
Today, well, it was interesting. You remember James Potter, don't you? I think I told you about him. 'Yeah about how much you hated him.' Well as you know, we aren't the fondest of each other, but today he started making out with me on a couch in the Gryffindor common room. I don't think anyone saw us except Michelle and Sirius. I have no idea what I was doing. 'Yeah you do because your in lurvvvvvvveeeeeee. I am not in love! Yes you are. No am not and definitely not in love with James Potter. Then why were you snogging him a few minutes ago? I don't know. Ha told you that you couldn't beat that.'
Anyway, today was pretty good. I am so glad that I am finally back here at Hogwarts. It is so nice to be here again. Oh my god! I almost forgot. Guess what happened. Amos Diggory smiled at me. Then I went and sat with him for dinner but James came and ruined it. 'Ha ruined it? You mean saved you because you love him. I do not. I will have none of this you stupid mind. You only fight because you know I am right. Remember I am your own thoughts so how could I be wrong?'
Anyway, boys are so confusing. James Potter is truly one of the most confusing. He is either making fun of me or trying to get in my pants. I wonder if he really does love me like he says.
Oh my, look at the time. I should be going to sleep but for some reason I cannot go to sleep. I have no idea why. 'No idea? Oh really? You know that you cannot sleep because you are in lurvvvvvvveeeeeee and you cannot stop thinking about your love, James Potter. Am not...'
Well, until next time,
Lily Evans 'I mean Potter. Whoa! I did not just think that. I must be going insane. Someone take me, Lily Potter to the mental home. I mean Lily Evans. Oh god...'
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Michelle's Diary
(A/N – Oh my god. I just realized I never told you what Michelle and Becka look like. Well I will tell you about Michelle first and then tell you about Becka when I get to her diary. Oh Michelle has jet-black hair. It is shorter than shoulder lengths and is full of layers. She is about 5 foot 6 inches. She has amazing blue eyes that sparkle. She had an athletic built. Umm yeah that is about it.)
Dear Diary,
I always fall for the complicated guys. This time it is Sirius Black. I am talking THE SIRIUS BLACK. Oh god he is so dreamy, but oh course we could never have a real relationship. There are so many reasons why. First of all he is such a lady's man I would never know if he really liked me or if we were just having a fling. Secondly, Lily hates the marauders although I think she is starting to grow quite fond of them, quite fond indeed. Thirdly why would Sirius Black ever want to go out with me? 'What are you talking about? You and him were just sucking each other's faces off for like an hour. Umm...exactly all we would do is make out and I need more than physical ness.'
Now some juicy gossip about Lily; When me and Sirius went of to go make out, we walked up on Lily making out with James Potter, arrogant prat according her and marauder extraordinaire. I am not joking at all. They were definitely going at it and from where I stood Lily didn't seem to be putting up a fight. Actually, she seemed to be quite enjoying herself. People hate each other one year and can't get enough of each other the next year. Life is so strange sometimes. I will just blame it all on the Hormones.
Well anyway my Sirius Black problem is still not solved. I will get back to you on it if I think of anything knew. Oh my god I almost forgot to tell you about Becka and Remus. I think they are like totally dating now. Well I don't know if they are dating but I know that Remus asked her if she wanted to have breakfast with her tomorrow morning. I am so happy for Becka. She has fancied him forever and when I say forever I mean forever.
Well until next time,
Michelle Brown 'Hey colors belong with each other that is why Sirius black and Me, Michelle Brown should be in love and going out. If only love were that simple.'
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Becka's Diary
(A/N – ok I promised you that I would tell you what Becka looked like so here it is. She had long brown hair that is dead straight. I goes about down to her butt. She had soft brown eyes that match her hair perfectly. She is about 5 feet 1 inch. And yeah that is all)
Dear Diary,
I have so much to tell you and so little time to do it, since I am dead tired. Well I guess first you should know that a guy actually invited me somewhere. Yeah I mean sure he only invited me to have breakfast with him but hey take what you can get. And it is also good because the guy who asked me was Remus. You know they guy I was telling you about earlier. Well anyway he is the one who asked me to breakfast and I told him that yes I would love to have breakfast with him. I am glad too because Remus Lupin isn't one of those crazy guys who only thinks about sex. He is special and I really like him a lot. And one more thing about Remus, I kissed him, one the lips! I mean me Becka Ruby kissed Remus Lupin on the lips. I was totally not myself there it was like one second I was standing across the room from him and the next second our lips met. Aww I don't know what came over me.
Anyway Lily has grown quite fond of James. She used to hate well actually it was more than hate but James seems to have grown on her. Michelle said that she caught Lily snogging James in the common room. I find this quite hard to believe. He must have had her under a spell or something.
Oh and Michelle seems to have snagged Sirius. I wonder how long it will last. Probably a week at the most. Sirius doesn't really know what a relationship is. Everything is a fling to him. I feel sorry for Michelle if she ends up heartbroken but I know I won't be surprised if it happens.
Anyways I have classes tomorrow so I better go.
Sincerely, Becka
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Remus' Diary
Dear Diary, 'Ha I must be going insane writing in a diary they are for girls.'
Well I guess I have some female parts to me since I have found myself writing in a diary. Anyway I just wanted to write down the things that have happened because I have nothing else to do at the moment.
Well there is this girl named Becka. She is quite special to me. I fancy her in other words. I asked her if she wanted to have breakfast with me tomorrow. How corny is that? I sounded like a right git asking if she wanted to have breakfast. Even though I sounded so stupid she said that she would love to have breakfast with me, which is really amazing. Then she snogged me. That took my breath away. It completely and totally surprised me.
Well I am feeling like a right fit writing in a diary. I swear I will never do this again in my life.
Sincerely, Remus 'God I just wrote a letter to an inanimate object'
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Sirius' Diary
Dear Diary,
Insane time today. I caught Prongs snogging the love of his life, Lily Evans. I am happy for Prongs because he has wanted her since he laid eyes on her. I am worried about him though. I think Lily might pretend like it never happened and I would not be able to handle Prongs if that happened to him. Anyway on to less depressing things.
I got rejected for the first time today. 'Ha ha you sucker. REJECTED! Oh yeah thanks just rub it in. I know that is what I am here for.' The girl's name is Michelle. She is quite a pretty thing with short black hair and really amazing blue eyes. Anyway she told me to get off her when I was snogging her. A girl has never told me that before. 'I am so going to make her want me. Good luck with that loser.'
Well I really should go to bed. 'In other words I feel like a fool for writing in a diary.'
Sincerely, Sirius Black, marauder extraordinaire.
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James' Diary
Dear Diary,
Today is the happiest day of my life. I just finished snogging lily Evan. God she is the most beautiful thing I have ever laid eyes upon. I love her so much. She is just perfect and she actually let me snog her. I feel like I am floating on air. I cannot get this stupid smile off my face. 'That is what love does to you. I know I love being in love. Hey you know you want more from her. Why don't you go get her from her common room? I should not be thinking this. Lily would not like this. I would never do that to lily. If she wants that then she will come to me. Just keep telling yourself and it is never going to happen. Shut up!'
I cannot get lily out of my head. She is so important to me. I guess this just what happens when you are in love. I cannot wait until tomorrow when I can see her again.
Well I need to go think about lily and dream about her so bye I guess.
Sincerely, James Potter
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Author's note - Well that is the end of this chapter I know it wasn't that good but I am really tired and I just felt like getting up a chapter because everyone keeps telling me to update as soon as I can so I really wanted to update. Anyway, now for reviewer thanks.
The all mighty and powerfulM – lol I know that it was a big change but I am a sucker for romance. It won't be quite so intense for a while I think but I am not sure yet though. Thank you for the review.
Pixy-Misa-Misao-Amano – I am glad that you think I doing a good job. Your review really made my day because I am always wondering if people will like my story because I don't think I am that good of a writing but praise always makes me feel really good so thank you a lot.
Clara Clog – Yay! I got two reviews from you. Ok first of all I didn't base Becka and Michelle on my best friends because I don't really have best friends but if I did I would probably want them to be kind of like Michelle and Becka. Second of all I definitely agree that Peter should just always be on a holiday he is just so boring. Ha, ha devious. Thirdly I am glad that you were cheered up when you found out that I had updated. And lastly it was quite mean when I got beat up. These kids just thought it would be funny if they beat up me, my sister and her friends, which I thought was quite immature and stupid. Oh yeah and I hope your friend was ok and that it doesn't happen again I would be really freaked out if I got punched in the face. I think she did the right thing calling the police. Anyway I think this thank you is getting a bit long so it shall end now.
-Heh heh me
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