Disclaimer – Ok I think everyone knows that I don't own hp so we can just move on from there
Author's note – ok I know that I put up two chaps at once but that was because the document manager wasn't working one day so I just wrote another chap and so you guys get to have more than one chapter. Oh and I have a four day weekend so I will be probably writing a whole lot more in these four days so that will be good. Anyway I hope you like this chapter. Oh and I told my sister I would dedicate a chapter to her so this chapter is for her.
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Chapter 8 - Depression
Lily ran down the hallway with tears streaming down her face. She ran down the hallway thinking about how much she wanted a place to hide and cry. She then heard a voice coming towards her and she turned around thinking about the same thing. But then she heard James coming after her from the other direction and decided she would rather face an angry Filch than an angry James so she turned back still thinking how much she wanted to hide and cry. All of the sudden a door appeared that lily hadn't seen there before. She quickly opened the door and skipped into the room.
She looked around and took in her surroundings; there was a small little coffee table with a big box of tissues on it. Next to the table there was a fuzzy looking red couch with a large fluffy blanket folded neatly on it. There were pillows all over the room. It was perfect, too perfect for words.
Lily walked over to the couch, picking up a pillow on her way. She unfolded the blanket and spread it across her as she sat down on the couch. She just lay there and wiped her tears away with the tissues. She knew that she must look like crap. She had no idea how long she had been there.
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(Go back and this happens again, but from James pov.)
James was gaining on lily. Just when he thought he was about to catch up with her, he turned a corner and slammed right into Filch, the caretaker.
"Potter! What do you think you are doing out of class?" Filch growled.
Taken by surprise, James said, "Well I umm...I was going to see the headmaster about the password he needed from me." James said quickly telling a lie.
Filch looked at James disgusted and then, "Well if that is all then I don't think you will mind me coming along to talk with you."
"Oh I wouldn't mind, but I wouldn't want to keep you from your duties. You never know who could be running around these halls," James said trying to get Filch to leave so he could look for lily.
"I can sense a liar when I see one Potter!" Filch growled looking very angry, which was not a very pretty site. (A/N – is Filch ever a pretty site? Lol, I don't think so.)
"I am utterly amazed that you would accuse me of such a things, but I really should be going. I don't want to keep the headmaster waiting," James said and then started walking off.
"Wrong way Potter. The headmaster is that way," Filch said looking even angrier.
"Oh yes of course I just had err...an...um...mind fart," James said and went off the correct way. (A/N – haha! Don't you just love that: mind fart!)
Filch watched off in the opposite direction and once James knew that he was gone he went back to where he was sure lily had been. He recognized this hallway and then it struck him: the room of requirement. Lily must have found it by accident.
James walked past the place where the door was to appear three times thinking about how he needed to find lily and the door appeared.
He knocked on the door. "Lily can I come in?" James whispered just loud enough so that lily could hear him from the other side of the door.
James heard a sniff and lily say, "Fine."
He slowly opened the door and spotted lily across the room lying on a couch with a blanket and a table across from her covered in used tissues. "Lily..." James said as he rushed over to her and wrapped his arms around her. This was his entire fault. If only he could have hid his anger. "I'm so sorry lils. I didn't mean to hurt you," James said rocking her back and forth.
"No James, you didn't do anything wrong. I just...I am getting so caught up in you that I can't be dating you right now and the only way I can get you away from me is to be angry with you. I know it isn't fair to you, but you just are so caught up in trying to be with me and I cannot handle a relationship right now. We can still be friends," Lily told him between sobs.
James felt like someone had just ripped his heart out. "Uh...sure we can be friends," James managed to spit out as he tried not to break down and cry. As much as he hated to see lily like this he couldn't stand to be around her right now.
"Lily I should probably go now," James said blinking to make sure that he didn't cry in front of lily. He didn't want her to see how much she could hurt him. And then he just walked out the door, leaving lily all alone in the room of requirement.
James couldn't go back to class so he decided to go look for Dumbledore instead. James started off down the hall to Dumbledore's office. He arrived there just as the headmaster was leaving his office.
"James, shouldn't you be in class?" Dumbledore asked and then noticed the empty look on the usually cheerful boy.
"Yes, but I thought I should get back to you about the password. Well my password can be...um...marauder," James said.
"Ok now get back to class I don't want you getting a detention, James," Dumbledore said and then went off down a hallway leaving James all alone in his own misery.
James thought, 'There is no way I am going back to class. I guess I will just go back to my dormitory and stay there all day. There is nothing better to do.'
James made his way back to the Gryffindor tower and got to the fat lady's portrait.
"Password?" the fat lady asked.
"Pig's snout," James said and the fat lady swung open.
James went over to the couch where he had been laying with lily last night and laid down on it. He just lay there and thought about lily until his eyelids closed and he drifted off to sleep.
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(Later in the day back in the Gryffindor common room)
"Prongs, mate, wake up?" Sirius said.
James woke up to see Padfoot about two inches from his face, "God Padfoot your breath smells. Get a tic tac or something. That is one awful smell." (A/N – ok I know that they don't have tic tacs in the wizarding world, but hey tic tacs are some good stuff.)
"Mate where have you been? You missed all the classes and then at lunch you didn't show up and I knew something had to be wrong if you didn't show up for lunch," Sirius said completely ignoring James' comment.
"Moping around..." James muttered rubbing sleep from his eyes.
Sirius laughed, "What does poor Prongs have to mope about? He has everything he has every wanted."
"No Prongs had everything he even wanted," James said.
"Huh?" Sirius asked completely, confused about what James was talking about.
"Lily wants to be friends..." James said and went back to feeling sorry for himself.
"I can see why. You are pathetic! If you really love lily then stop moping around and feeling sorry for yourself and go out there and get her back you idiot. God James you are so dumb," said a voice from behind James. He turned to se Michelle standing there.
"What do you know?" James muttered and kept on moping.
"She knows a hell of a lot more than you do mate. She is lily best friend you know," Sirius said.
"I know that she still has feelings for you, but she has been acting strangely lately. I think she might just be having a down period. Everyone has times when they get really emotional, but she will get over it. The best you can do is go steal her away from Amos right now," Michelle said and laughed when she saw how angry James got.
James stormed out of the Gryffindor and was obviously going to the dining hall.
"That was a good lie. It definitely got him away from moping," Sirius said as he pulled Michelle in for a kiss.
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(In the dining hall)
James stormed into the dining and was amazed to see Lily sitting with Becka and Remus at the Gryffindor table.
He walked over and sat down.
"James can I talk to you, alone?" Lily asked the second she noticed him.
"Sure lils..." James said and his heart did a little flip; maybe lils wanted him back already.
Lily took James' hand and pulled him out of the dining hall, "James I am really sorry about earlier, but lately I have been really emotional and I have no idea why. I just can't seem to be happy all the time and I don't want to pull you down with me. I really like you a lot James, but I cannot deal with a relationship right now. I talked to Dumbledore a little while ago and he said that what I was going through sounded like this muggle thing that muggles called depression. Because of this Dumbledore is going to have me leave Hogwarts for a month and go to a muggle hospital and deal with my depression. There is an opening and I am leaving tomorrow. I just didn't want to pull you into this and I can't deal with a relationship right now, but maybe when I get back we can work something out. I still want to be friends with you right now."
"Oh lily," James said and pulled her into a hug. He had no idea what depression was, but he didn't want to loose lily and he didn't think that depression sounded like a good things.
"It's ok James you can come visit me on weekends and it is only for 2 weeks to a month," Lily said as she felt a tear roll down her cheek.
"Don't cry lils it is ok," James said pulling her closer as a tear rolled down his cheek also. He didn't want to loose lils.
"Well we should probably go, classes are going to start in about ten minutes." Lily said as she pulled away from James.
"Let go finish lunch first," James said as he wiped away lily's tears and then wiped away his own.
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Author's note – ok I know that was a sad chap but It will get happier I promise and there will be lots of jealousy coming up soon and I will try to get my next chapter up soon.
Review thanks:
g.c. smores – Yay, I got two reviews from me. You're the only person who gave me reviews but at least you have me reviews so it made me very happy. Lol yea I got the password from you because I really like your idea. I am glad you liked the chap. Yes James is perfect! Lol! I know chapter 7 was sad but it will get happier even though chapter 8 was sad also. I thought your review for chap 7 was really funny. I like the part where your like 'Padfoot being Padfoot.' It made me laugh so much. Anyway thanks for the reviews they really made my day. ï?S
-Heh heh me
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