Disclaimer – I don't own hp but I do own my plot
Author's note – Ahh I am back once again. I know that update a lot and that is because I have no life. Sad isn't it?
Oh yea I wrote this beautiful poem that I want you guys to read. It isn't part of the fanfic or anything but I just want you to read it. I wrote it in English and everyone was like OMG Erin your so deep. So here it is:
Associate with the UniqueJust because my hair isn't as shiny as yours
Or my clothes aren't as pink
Or my nails aren't as long
Or I don't shop at your favorite store
Doesn't mean I am invisible
And I don't exist
Just because my teeth aren't as white
Or my smile isn't as pretty
Or my face isn't as photogenic
Doesn't mean I am invisible
And I don't exist
Just because I am not as pretty
Or don't look skinny
Or can't look good in just anything
Doesn't mean I am invisible
And I don't exist
Just because I wear what I want
And think what I wish
And ignore what you say
Doesn't mean I am invisible
And I don't exist
This doesn't make me a freak
I am just unique
I am myself
Not another plastic Barbie doll
You can buy on a shelf
-Erin
So that was my beautiful poem, but now it is time for the next chapter.
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Chapter 13 – James visiting Lily and Lily breaking James' heart
James sat himself down on one of the ugly tan chairs and waited for lily. After a few minutes of sitting and looking out the window, James heard a knock on the door. It was lily her knew.
He walked over to the door and opened it to find lily laughing at what some boy standing next to her said.
"James! I missed you," Lily said when she saw him and threw her arms around James' neck and pulled him into a big hug which was a little more brotherly than James' would have liked.
"Hey lils. How have you been? I have been worried about you," James said and hugged her back.
"I'm good," Lily said and pulled out of the hug. "This is Josh Madison, my boyfriend," Lily said and entwined her fingers with Josh's fingers.
"Hi I am Josh," Josh said holding out his free hand to shake James' hand. "Lily has told me so much about you and everyone else at Hogwarts."
James felt his worst fears coming to life. He no longer wanted to be here; he wanted to be back at Hogwarts, locked away in his room. He wanted to be as far away from here as he could get. For the first time in his life he just wanted lily and everyone else to disappear and leave him alone.
"Funny that you just arrived because I have to go now," James spat out and started to walk off.
"James, what are you talking about? You don't have any classes today why don't you stay longer. You still have 45 minutes," Lily said as she grabbed his arm.
James turned around, "You know what is funny lily? You used to hate it when I touched you, now I am returning you the favor. Take your hands off me," James growled and once lily let go he ran off down the hallway biting his lip so that he wouldn't cry.
Once James had exited the hospital, he walked into an alleyway and then aparated back to his room at Hogwarts. Once he had arrived he curled up in his bed, screamed into his pillow and cried until he could cry no longer. He had never felt more vulnerable in his life. Then again he had never loved anyone like he loved lily. In time all that hurt would heal and all that love would fad, or o James thought.
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(Back at the hospital)
"That did not go over well," Lily muttered. She knew James was going to be hurt and probably angry, but she didn't think it would turn out that bad.
"What was that about?" asked Josh who was still completely confused.
"Nothing, James and I just have a strange past. He will get over it eventually. I'll talk to him when I get back to Hogwarts in a few days. Sorry that you had to see that," Lily said and pulled Josh into a comfortable hug and gave him a small peck on the cheek.
"I should check on him," Lily said.
"How are you going to get out without anyone noticing?" asked Josh. He obviously didn't want Lily going anywhere with James if he wasn't there.
"I will go to the bathroom and then aparate to Hogwarts," Lily started simply.
"I'll come with you," Josh offered.
"No James has quite a temper. I have no idea what he would do if you showed up," Lily said, she didn't want James hurting Josh.
"I will only be gone for a short time, Josh, trust me," Lily said.
"Fine lils, but promise me you will not take more than a hour. You can find me on the porch when you are back," Josh said walked off after giving lily a quick peck.
Lily noticed Bernice glaring at her so she smiled at the ugly lady. Then lily went into the bathroom.
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(James' room)
James lay on his bed with only his boxers on. He had been in there for 30 minutes, since he left lily at the hospital. He lay there looking at the wall and thinking about lily, even though it hurt so much.
James heard a knock on his door.
"Go away," he screamed.
"It's me James," Lily said.
"Lily what are you doing here? You're supposed to be in the hospital," James answered. 'Seriously why is she here? She had Josh' James thought.
"Can I come in, James?" asked lily innocently.
"Fine," James said and continued to star at the wall. He was still completely confused; he thought lily liked him. Then she ended up to be dating Josh and now she was here in his room. It made no sense.
James heard the door close and lily tiptoe across the floor.
"Lily seriously what are you doing here?" James asked.
"I wanted to see if you were ok James. You didn't take the news very good," Lily said with love and caring in her eyes.
James felt the mattress to the bed sink as lily sat down on the end.
"I am fine. You can go back to your lover," James answered coldly still staring at the wall.
"You don't sound fine," Lily whispered gently.
"Well I am Evans. You are dismissed," James spat out. He didn't want to be anywhere near lily right now.
"James, you don't have to be so angry," Lily said.
'Oh don't be so angry?' James thought. He turned around and stared at lily with his tear-stained face and shouted, "I don't have to be so angry? Well of course I don't have to be angry! I mean it isn't like we were dating! It isn't like we were snogging a week ago! It isn't like I love you Lily Evans, but I do! I fucking love you, Lily Evans and you have just slapped me in the face!"
And with that James aparated into his old room, onto his old bed, which was still empty.
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"What have I done?" Lily said and lay down on the bed and started crying.
She aparated back to the hospital bathroom ran out the door and onto the porch and flung herself into Josh's arms. "He hates me," Lily muttered between sniffles.
Josh pulled her close.
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(Boys' dormitory, James just arrived)
Sirius heard someone land onto James' old bed that still had the curtains closed around it. Sirius was the only in the room. He got up and walked over to James' old bed and opened the curtains, "Bloody Hell, James! You are crying like a little girl! What the hell happened to you? Did lily do this?" Sirius asked as he stared at his shirtless friend lying on the wooden bed crying.
"Don't you ever and I mean EVER say the name lily Evans in my presence again," James threaten.
"I am going to kill that bitch," Sirius yelled and ran out of the room and crashed into Michelle.
"Whoa Sirius where are you going so fast?" Michelle asked raising a suggestive eyebrow.
"To kill Lily Marie Evans!" Sirius answered and tried to get around Michelle.
"Oh no your not. I deserve and explanation first," Michelle said forcefully wondering why the hell Sirius would want to kill Lily.
"Go into my room and look at James if you want and you will get the idea," Sirius said so filled with rage that his face was red and he looked like he was going to explode.
"Come with me, Sirius," Michelle said and grabbed his hand and went to the boys' dormitory.
What she found was a shirtless, tear-stained faced James Potter lying on an empty wood bed, staring at the wall and looking completely empty.
"Oh my god...what happened to him?" Michelle gasped. She had never seen anyone this sad and she definitely didn't expect the always-happy James Potter to even look this way.
"Sirius! What the hell is she doing in her? She likes lily I want her out!" James screamed. He was shaking his emotions were so strong. "I don't want anyone to see me like this especially anyone who is friends with Lily!" James screamed even louder.
Just then Becka and Remus showed up in the doorway, "We heard James screaming –"Remus started and then caught sight of James.
"Michelle, Becka, out right now," Remus said and ushered them out of the room and then closed the door.
Remus looked at James and then asked, "Lily, right?"
"Don't say that name," Sirius warned.
"I will take that as a yes. What exactly happened?" Remus asked Sirius.
"I don't know he hasn't said anything about it yet," Sirius said. He had never been more worried about James than he was now.
Silence.
"She is dating Josh Madison," said James and then he screamed. Sirius and Remus swore that the whole school must have heard that scream. They wished they could help their mate, but they had no idea how. They had never had the girl they loved date someone else.
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Author's note – I know that was a sad chapter but I promise it will get happier. Plus this chapter was so sad it could only get better from here, right? I hope I didn't make you guys cry because I almost started crying because I know exactly how James feels.
Review thanks:
Maith – I know I was laughing myself when I wrote that. I am sorry that this chapter was so sad, but I will the story better and Josh will get what he deserves for messing up Lily and James' relationship don't worry. I hope you update soon because I want to know what happens next in your story. Anyway thanks for the review.
-Heh heh me
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