Take Care of Her

Summary: Angel hopes that Buffy escapes alive of the fight against the First Evil.

Distribution: ( After Angel leaves at 'Chosen'.

Disclaimer: Oh, please, like I'd let Buffy dump Angel. Feedback:

Is Angel a perfect match for Buffy? Now, every one, nod and say 'yes!'

I know I'm not the most perfect child of Our Lord. As Liam, I drank, whored, disrespected my parents, played poker, betted, and lied. I never went to church, never settled for a family, never respected Sundays and saint holidays.

As Angelus, I killed, raped, tortured, stalked, drove people to insanity, turned some of them... I even murdered my family. I only stopped when I was given my soul back.

As the Angel everyone knows me now, however, I'm making amends. I fight what the Powers called the good fight. I help people, save souls… I run the most dangerous law firm in Los Angeles. I'm trying to turn it on a HQ for the said good fight.

Hell, I sacrificed my son for the sake of the world. I sacrificed my humanity so Buffy could stay alive and protect the world! I'm supposed to be strong, firm, courageous and smart. However, as I slowly leave the Rest-field cemetery, I ask God if I'm doing the right thing by leaving Buffy all by herself – I know there are Faith, Spike, Giles, Xander, Willow, Anya, Dawn, Andrew and the potential slayers helping her, but in the end Buffy will fight alone – will face the First Evil all by herself.

As the one trying to save souls, I should be there. Buffy-logic is unbeatable, however. She said she needed me to organize a second front-row for her, to lead it if she fails fighting the damn thing. Hell, I usually am beside her as she tries to avert the apocalypses. I was when she faced the master, when she needed to kill me, when she blew up the fucking school.

I even came and beat Finn's hell out of him when she fought Adam. The only time I wasn't here bodily, but was spiritually talking, was when she sacrificed herself to defeat Glory. Like I'd let her do it if I were around. I'd probably spend the rest of my days being tortured in Hell instead of letting her suicide. And Buffy didn't really fight against Evil Willow. But I could have helped nevertheless. Will only needed a shoulder to cry on, to grief Tara's death. Now she sent me away with a poor excuse of not being cookies.

I know Buffy is still dealing with the growing-up process, but I really thought she wouldn't have sent me away after the fervent kiss we shared before Caleb punched me. I really love Buffy. I can't deal with her death again – it was too hard for me when she did it first time. So, even not being your most faithful son, I ask you, my Lord, to let her escape alive and kicking of this fight, because if she falls I'll shortly follow her.