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Author's notes – I AM STILL IN LOVE!

Date chapter started: Wednesday, February 2, 2005

Date chapter ended: Monday, February 21, 2005

Date story updated: Monday, February 21, 2005

People are like slinkies, boring to look at, but you just can't help and smile when another one tumbles down the stairs.

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Chapter 25 – Unspoken Mystery in Divination

"Well open it," Michelle demanded, her excitement growing.

Lily unraveled the parchment and stared down at the unfamiliar handwriting.

Dear Lily Evans…

(A/N – I have decided to start putting in just a little bit of ending of the chapter before this one so that you guys remember what is happening.)

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Dear Lily Evans,

Undenied feeling for you

Never ever

Caring what someone else thinks about you because only my feelings for you matter

On a normal day, you

Never leave my mind

Did

I mention

Totally caring, loving forever and doing anything for you even

If you hurt me

Or make me want to die

Now I always feel

A need to hold you

Lovingly

Little flutters in my heart

Or like I am melting to jell-o and

Very commonly I always want to be with you

Every second of life I love you unconditionally

You are my object of affection Lily Evans.

Your secret admirer

(A/N – yes, I did write that poem. It is not the best poem I have ever written and I actually don't like it that much, but it is 100 my material.)

"What does it say?" Michelle squealed.

Lily usually shared everything with her friends, but this time she wanted to keep it separate, to herself. This letter was just the sort of thing she needed after her fight with James. Everyone wanted to be loved, even if they didn't even know the person. It made her feel like she had a purpose and that she belonged, even if she only wanted to be loved by James Potter.

"It is my parents asking me what my plans are for Christmas break," Lily said as she folded up the letter and slipped it into her pocket.

"Oh. You should come visit Christmas with Michelle and me. We are going to visit my aunt," Becka suggested.

"Thanks for the offer, but I think I am going to spend most of break with my cousin," Lily said. If there was anyone who knew how to make everything seem right it was her cousin, Kaden.

"Speaking of Christmas," Sirius began.

"James, Remus, Peter and I are all going to be staying at James' house. Mom and Dad gave us permission to plan the Christmas Ball this year and we were wondering if you guys wanted to come," Sirius said.

(A/N – yes Sirius does call Mr. And Mrs. Potter Mom and Dad.)

"Thanks, but I have other things I have to do," Lily said and then got up and left the great hall.

James quickly got up and ran after Lily. He got out of the great hall and saw her racing down the hallway. He quickly took off after her.

"Lily, wait," James said as he slowly began to catch up.

In only a few minutes James had caught up to Lily and grabbed her around the waist.

"Will you just listen to me, Lily? It has been pure torture not being able to hold you, or kiss you or just have your comforting presence around," James pleaded.

"James, let go. You said all you had to say last Saturday," Lily said, feeling better since she knew there was someone out there who liked her.

"Why won't you just give me a chance?" James asked as Lily struggled in his arms.

"What did you think Saturday was?" Lily asked as she turned around to face him, her eyes full of anger and pain.

James let go in defeat. "Just know that I am always here for you Lily."

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Days passed and things continued as almost normal. Lily continued to receive letters from her mysterious admirer. Lily had finally stopped being angry with James and trying to avoid him. She just treated him like she treated everyone else. You would think this would have made James happy to no longer be hated by his object of affection, but it just made matters worse.

"She treats like I am just another person on this earth," James complained to Sirius, once again that day, as they made their way up the stairway to Divination.

"Well James, you are a person on this earth," Sirius pointed out.

"You aren't making me feel any better," James said.

"Maybe you are just taking the wrong approach to the whole problem," Remus suggested.

"Like what?" James asked.

"I have no idea, just thought I would throw the idea out there," Remus said.

The boys arrived at the door to the divination classroom and entered.

Professor Delia, who was the youngest teacher at the school, motioned for the boys to take their seats.

"Now that Potter, Black and Lupin here have arrived we can start. Today we will start working with Tarot Cards. We are going to do a small section on tarot so be prepared to do this for a few days. I have already devised a list for partners," Professor Delia paused and chuckled as she looked at their faces, with looks of pleading to be paired with someone they liked.

Professor Delia pulled out her list and began to read from the top, "Michelle Brown and Frank Longbottom. Sirius Black and Remus Lupin. Becka Romania and Darlene Olive. (A/N – I love olives.) Peter Pettigrew and Lucy Lawrence. Mark Markowictz and Carly Raymond. James Potter and Lily Evans. Jerald Watson and Fabio Jackson." Professor Delia motioned for everyone to find his or her own seats.

Lily immediately went up to Professor Delia and said, "I am sorry Professor, but I cannot work with Potter."

Professor Delia raised her eyebrow guessing there was more to this situation, "I am sorry Lily, but you will have to put aside your differences with James Potter for just today. After today I will make sure that I no longer set you two together."

Lily gave up and went to go sit by James. She didn't make eye contact, but just sat down across the table from James. Professor Delia passed out brand new decks of tarot cards and a piece of parchment with directions to each group.

"Today we will be working with the Celtic Cross Tarot set up with a partner. Follow the directions on your sheet and then switch roles with your partner if you have time," Professor Delia directed them and then sat down to grade papers at her desk.

Lily finally looked up at James, but found that he was trying to look anywhere but at her at this current moment.

"Would you like to tell my fortune or shall I tell yours?" Lily finally asked after moments of silence between them.

"You can tell mine first," James replied, finally turning to look at her with curiosity.

Lily took the cards out of the package and looking over at the instruction sheet. It said to have the other person shuffle the deck, concentration on a current problem they are having.

Lily handed the deck over to James and informed him of what he was supposed to do. He silently shuffled the cards with his brows crunched up in concentration. He spent the whole time thinking about his situation with Lily. When James was finished he handed the deck back to Lily and she looked back on the parchment for the layout of the cards.

She laid the first card face down making a straight line from her to James. She tilted the second card and lay in on top of the first card. Then she took the third card and placed it directly below the other two cards. The fourth card was placed to the left of the first two cards, the fifth placed above and the sixth placed to the right. Lastly the seventh, eighth, ninth and tenth cards were placed in a straight line, seventh at bottom and tenth at top, to the right of the design formed by the first six cards. (A/N – I hope that wasn't too confusing for you. If it was then you can go to http: that has the layout of the cards.)

"Now what?" James asked as Lily positioned the last card.

"Just wait," Lily replied and pulled back up the instructions.

Lily flipped over the first card and revealed the Five of Wands.

"This represents the heart of the matter, the central issue. The Five of Wands represents that you are feeling torn by an argument," Lily told him just loud enough for him to hear and then moved onto the next card.

She flipped over the second card and revealed the Three of Swords.

"This represents some additional problems. The Three of Swords represents heartbreak, emotional pain, feeling betrayed and lonely," Lily said and then continued on with the next card.

She flipped over the third card and revealed the Five of Cups.

"This represents the larger picture. The Five of Cups represents suffering from a loss such as the end of a relationship or it can mean you feel you made a mistake," Lily said.

Next, she flipped over the fourth card and revealed the Lovers.

"This represents the past. The Lovers represents making a connection with others, having desire or passion, struggling with temptation or even staying true to yourself," Lily said.

Lily flipped over the fifth card and revealed the Hermit.

"This represents how you view what is happening or what you intend to do about things. The Hermit represents thinking things over and looking for a great understanding no matter what the cost is.

Lily turned over the sixth card and revealed the Chariot

"This represents the future. The Chariot represents success such as reaching your goals or it can mean being determined to thrive," Lily said, but didn't notice when a large smiled slid its way onto James' face.

Next the seventh card was flipped and revealed the Queen of Wands.

"This represents who you are. The Queen of Wands represents being attractive, enthusiastic, energetic, cheerful and self-assured," Lily said and almost gave a giggle for how much it described James, but caught herself at the last moment; she was supposed to be angry with him. Why was it again? Oh yeah he was a lying, deceiving, self-absorbed prat.

Lily quickly flipped over the eighth card and revealed the Seven of Pentacles.

"This represents how other people see what is going on or what is happening outside the conflict. The Seven of Pentacles represents considering new strategies or reflecting what is happening," Lily said.

'That would definitely be Sirius,' James thought.

Now the ninth card was flipped and the Three of Pentacles was revealed.

"This represents what some of your possibilities are. The Three of Pentacles represents working as a team and getting others to help. It can also represent planning and being prepared for what is going to happen next," Lily said.

'This one is all going to be up to me. I think I will go with the second choice,' James decided to himself.

Lily gently flipped over the last remaining card and revealed the Fool.

"This represents what is most likely going to happen. The fool can represent trusting in yourself, starting over at the beginning and letting go of everything to live in the moment," Lily said and thus finished the reading.

James hummed to himself, feeling a newfound joy appear; something was going to start over at the beginning and that would be his relationship with Lily.

Lily sat there wondering what James had been thinking about when he shuffled the cards and if she really believed in Tarot.

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The days continued on and Lily continued to receive letters from her mysterious admirer. The tarot reading had long since left Lily's mind. It was now the day before Christmas break was going to start, which meant a Hogsmeade weekend. Everyone filed into the great hall, excited about Hogsmeade and their coming Christmas break of two weeks.

Lily had finally been dragged out of bed and brought to the great hall by her friends. Lily had not wanted to leave the comfort of her bed because the last time she had gone to Hogsmeade had been with James and she had flirted with him the whole time. Needless to say, her friends had other thoughts.

Lily slumped down onto the bench and took a sip of her pumpkin juice just as the morning post appeared. Another letter from the mysterious someone landed on her plate and Lily looked up just as the snowy owl flew away. Lily picked up the letter that had her name scribbled across it in the same script as usual. She broke the stag seal and opened the letter.

Dear Lily Evans,

Meet me today by the Three Broomsticks in Hogsmeade at 10:00. I will be waiting for you.

Your secret admirer

"Well, what does it say?" Michelle demanded as Lily sat there in silent.

"Let me see," Becka said and took the letter from Lily, reading it silently to herself.

When she was finished she handed it over to Michelle and then turned to Lily, "Are you going to meet him?"

Lily paused and then opened her mouth and out came one word: yes.

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Author's notes – So how was it? Oh yeah, I am no longer in love with that person I was in love with earlier; he turned out to be a real jerk and because of him I had an anxiety attack, which really sucked, but now I like this new guy named Steve. Hey Steve, if you are reading this I have a crush on you! Review thanks:

BRaTsKi – Sorry about the cliffy, I just couldn't resist.

Sic-itur-ad-astra – Thanks for reviewing my story. I am glad that you like it :D. Yes, I will continue to read because I like your story. The thing about your username is cool.

g.c. Smores – It is ok. I am positive that you will like the next chapter though…and you never know, it could be dedicated to you.

Bugbug – It's all-good. Lol. I will try to refrain from being evil in the future and leaving cliffhangers.

April-baby – Lol, yeah I guess it was nice being in love even though the guy turned out to be a jerk. I am glad that you like the story and that rating part did make somewhat sense…I think.

Haters r gonna rock dis world – Sorry, I just couldn't resist from being evil.

Greengrl – yeah, it would have been nice and rather sexy, just like the moments I had this weekend. Lol.

CattyCat – What can I say? I am just devious child.

SirusLivesOn – Lol, I am glad that you liked it. Yes maybe I shall set my hormones free. This weekend I got a nicknamed horny girl because I have so many raging hormones.

Blink182Rox – You have to admit that the reaction people have to cliffies is hilarious.

Beastgurl7492 – Well of course everyone thinks it is James. Why wouldn't they? I think I might make it Sirius just for the heck of it because that would be hilariously funny, but then again I probably wont. I hope the suspense wasn't too hard to bear.

Hpjsr – Scheming is just so great. Yes, sadly I am a pervert.

-Heh, heh me