A/N: I changed this chapter. I didnt like the idea of Luke and Lorelai sneaking around behind Rachel's back. So I changed a few things in this chapter and the one before this one. I thought about how Lorelai reacted to Rory sleeping with Dean when he was married. I know Luke's not married but it's kind of the same thing. Anyway let me know what you think.


Luke's Apartment

That night after fighting with Taylor about giving the town proper notice before closing early. Luke closed up the diner and went up to his apartment. Looking around he realized Rachel wasn't there. Wondering around the small apartment he noticed that all of her stuff was gone. And there it was a small envelope on the table with his name on it. Luke grabbed the envelope before wondering over to the fridge to grab a beer the day's events still playing through his mind. He made his way back over to the couch eyeing the small envelope in his hand. He still couldn't keep from thinking about the kiss. The way Lorelai had kissed him back the feeling of her in his arms he didn't want things to go back to the way they were but he knew he couldn't live without her. He needed her in his life no matter what. What about Rachel did she see them? Is that why she left? Was she really gone? He wouldn't know until he opened the envelope. He unfolded the small piece of paper. Rachel was gone. He didn't know what to think. What to feel. She just left the same way as before. She didn't say why she just said she was sorry and she wished him well. What the hell did that mean? He had to get out of here he felt like the walls were closing in. So after finishing the last of his beer he made his way out the door. He didn't know where he was going. He just knew he needed to get out of the apartment.

Lorelai's Porch

Luke had made it to her house in record time. He didn't know how he ended up at her house. Or why he was there. His mind was filled with doubts. He raised his hand to knock, but he couldn't do it he let his hand drop to his side. His mind was swarming with questions. What was he going to say? What if Rory was there? Oh God Rory he couldn't talk to Lorelai if she was there. Damn it suck it up and be a man! Ok here goes nothing. Luke lifted his hand and knocked lightly. Luke rocked back on his heels slightly. Trying to gather his thoughts after a few minutes he knocked again this time a lot harder.

Lorelai's house

Lorelai was curled up on the couch the same place she had been for most of the day. Rory had called to remind her that she was staying in Hartford with her grandparents. So Lorelai didn't have any reason to get up. She was flipping through the channels when she thought she heard a slight knock at the door. She just ignored it and went back to the TV. And then she heard it again this time she knew there was someone at the door.

Lorelai got up slowly from the couch and made her way to the door. She was ready to tell whoever it was to get lost. When she saw who it was Oh God!

"Luke uh what are you doing here?" she stood in the doorway blocking him from entering the house.

Luke looked down at his hands. Just tell her the truth man. Be honest.

"I uh I don't know I went for a walk and I ended up here" he shifted his eyes up to look at her for the first time. He took in her red eyes and smeared make up. She looked like she had been crying. I made her cry. Damn it! I have to fix this.

"Luke I uh" she tried to say something but he cut her off before she could finish.

"Lorelai look I need to talk to you, Can I come in? Or do you want me to freeze" he was trying to make things less awkward. She just stepped aside letting him walk into the house. She followed him into the living room. Luke walked over to stand by the couch. Lorelai took a seat on the couch and looked at him waiting for what he had to say.

"Is Rory here?" Luke glanced over at Rory's room

"No she's staying the night at in Hartford with my parent's. She has to meet Paris before school." Lorelai looked up at Luke waiting for him to say something.

"Oh uh ok I don't really know how to start I just" and then he trailed off as he started pacing in the small area.

"You just what?" she asked quietly

"I just wanted to say I'm sorry" he continued pacing. It was starting to make her sick.

"Why? " She asked staring at her hands

"Because I kissed you I shouldn't have, and I'm sorry" Luke had stopped pacing at this point. He was looking down at her waiting for her reaction.

"You shouldn't be" she said in a small voice looking at her hands.

"What?"

"I said you shouldn't be. I'm not sorry you kissed me." still in the same small voice. He didn't say anything so she went on.

"I was shocked earlier I mean you're with Rachel right?" she didn't wait for his reply. "Of course you are I mean anyone can see that she lives with you so I was scared I didn't know what to do so I ran" she shakes her head slightly trying to clear her thoughts. She looked up at him meeting his eyes as she continued.

"You are one of the few people in my life that I can count on. I don't want to lose you, I can't lose you. And you know how much I need my coffee fix" She smiled up at him her eyes full of unshed tears.