Note: I was doing some research about how they train people for swallow and raven missions. As Kai is our resident veteran I thought that we would have a few training memories in this chapter.

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Chapter Four - Memories That Scream

Kai hated to be abandoned, but when they were there he wanted nothing more than to be alone. Their grubby hands making him feel so horribly dirty.

His head ached from how hard he had concentrated on not screaming, or vomiting. How hard he'd had to concentrate on not going mad.

The rain battered the tin roof and he tried to hold on. He'd been told that it would get easier. He'd been told that soon he would be able to separate his mind and his body. That when they were climaxing he would be plotting his next move or making his shopping list, that while their dicks were in his mouth he would be thinking a film he'd just seen on TV or the best way to access their laptops with out them knowing.

They said that in the end the money and the national pride would make it all worth while. He had wanted so much for them to be right, knowing that even if they weren't he would have no choice but to obey orders anyway.

They had shoved him around a bit first and called him names. He could smell the alcohol on their breath, taste it leaking out of their pours.

There had been six of them surrounding him like prey, circling him and touching themselves. So many hands and mouths and tongues…

He had tried to remember the reasons; they had to remove all shame if he was to use his body as a tool, any hesitation meant death; he had to be trained in the art of pleasure in order to ensure their love; he had to follow orders, or he would be dead; he had to stay with them because he had been born in the Abbey and he had nowhere else to go.

They would send him back to his cell soon enough, allow him to recover before the next stage; if he survived this one. He could hear the video cameras re-focusing and zooming in. He and the rest of his class would watch the video's later, everyone making their comments, everyone evaluating his performance. Only fair considering afterwards he would do the same to them.

There was blood on the sheet beneath him and he stung like he had been raped by a baseball bat. When he could walk he'd leave. But he already felt his eye lids drooping, his senses getting fuzzy.

Maybe he could rest a little…rest before it happened again.

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"What?" asked Kai somewhat rudely. He'd been spacing out again and hadn't really heard Hiro's question.

"I said that I would like it very much if you met my family Kaoru. We have been dating nearly two months now and I know that they would love to meet you."

Kai nodded. This was real progress a target that allowed you anywhere near there family either trusted you, or was setting a trap.

"Then I guess you'll have to meet my room mate Claude, he'd all I have in the way of family…but his Japanese is not too good…" answered Kai happy to finally be able to drag Tala into the situation.

"He's the one that came in from France with you, yes?" asked Hiro pleased that Kaoru had taken to his suggestion so easily, Kaoru had been quite difficult in the past and there were times when he was sure the other boy hated him and never wanted to see him again. He was glad that they were finally on the right track. He himself had been addicted since their first meeting.

"Yes. Claude has been a great friend to me," Kai said solemnly knowing that Tala was listening through a bug and seated at a café just across the street.

"Oh well I have a French friend named Oliver. I could always invite him too when we meet. It may make him feel more at home and it will mean I can have you all to myself without having to act as translator."

"I'm sure that he would like that very much." agreed Kai laughing inwardly. Time to test how convincing 'Claude' really was he supposed, and another test for 'Kaoru'.

"Tuesday then. You two should drop by the Dojo. We can all have a big meal Oliver is an amazing cook he can prepare you some French delicacies."

Kai tried to hide his disgust. God how he hated French food! "it's a date then." he agreed and with that they continued their lunch.

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"Great." Tala mumbled to himself. "A native. I swear Kai just lives to make my life more difficult."

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End of Chapter (Sorry that it is not long the next one will be longer I promise.)