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TheMagesticMoose: Ok I finally decided to update again for those of you who like my story…This is going to be the last chapter…I think…It is pretty much written in Raven's point of view…
A Light In The Dark Chapter 4
The Titans had taken Ren to the hospital. The doctors had no clue what had caused her to faint but they came to the conclusion that Ren had just fainted from being too hyper and excited. Raven had suspected as much though.
Around 3 years had passed since Ren and Raven had first met that day in the mall. They were still friends, which was beyond Ren and Raven both. They had become the closest of friends during those 3 years since they had first met…
Ren had finally gotten Raven to go to church. Turns out Raven liked it so they continued going which brings us to the setting…
Ravens POV
I looked up to see Ren once again looking through my books. "I see you still have the Bible I gave you." She said casually as she pulled the Bible out of my purple shelf. I had finished it about 2 to 3 years ago when Ren first gave it to me and had been reading it many times since then.
Ren sat down beside me and flipped through the still crisp pages until she reached a certain chapter. She studied the page for a while, while I finished putting on my boots for church. "We're going to be late if you don't hurry up." Ren said as she looked at me and put her hands on her hips. "I am hurrying." I replied as I got up from my bed and looked into my purple-rimmed mirror.
My black skirt went about to my knees, and my lavender colored hair was partially pulled back out of my face with a clip. My shirt was what Ren had chosen for me, white with long sleeves. It wasn't very flattering, but when had I cared about that? I had on no make up, as usual, and my black combat boots with white laces pulled together the whole look.
Ren nudged my shoulder with her elbow, and handed me my Bible, while picking up her own. She had on a crimson and black striped skirt, with a black shirt and flip-flops. Her waist length black hair was in Mokuren style (A/N: for those of you who've seen or read Please Save My Earth) "Come on or we'll be late." Ren said as she pushed me through the doorway. I took one last look at my room and close the door.
We walked down the hall. I avoided looking at my feet so I decided to look at the walls; they were a bluish gray, as usual. We soon reached a flight of gray stairs and walked down them. We reached the bottom quickly.
I stopped and then walked towards where the kitchen was and hurriedly made Ren and myself some tea. After that I walked over to Ren and handed her one of the Styrofoam cups I'd been holding.
With that we walked out of the tower and started down the concrete sidewalk. Around us was some grass, and maybe 2 or 3 trees, but mainly buildings, that's about all there was in the Jump City downtown area. We kept walking. Ren and I had a small conversation as we walked down the sidewalk. There was a lot of noise coming from the streets, cars honking, people talking, and a few birds chirping, just a few mind you. Then I noticed that Ren had stopped talking. I looked beside me to see that she was no longer there, I then looked behind me, she was lying on the ground and had been clutching her head.
"Ren? Ren? Ren?" I screamed and shook her constantly asking her to wake up. "God, please make Ren wake up! Please!" I prayed many times over and over in my head before I finally just ran into the nearest shop and asked to use the phone. The plump storekeeper handed me the beige colored phone. I frantically dialed 9-1-1. The phone rang twice before someone picked up. "My friend—something has happened to her! She suddenly blacked out on the sidewalk and she won't wake up!" I yelled frantically into the phone. The operator took a few seconds before asking me the name of the street. I looked out the window to look at the street sign and saw the street name; Death Avenue. I laughed hysterically before realizing that the name of the street was actually Ocean Avenue. I quickly gave the operator the name. She said an ambulance would be there in a few minutes.
I gave the phone back to the shop owner and thanked him before sprinting outside again to Ren. A crowd had formed where Ren was so I pushed through to Ren and sat down beside her on the hard ground and tried not to freak out because I knew things would only get worse if that happened. 10 or more streetlights had exploded already. I heard the whirring noise of the ambulance. I looked up and almost fainted with relief. The ambulance slowed down and stopped.
2 men jumped out and put Ren on a stretcher and motioned for me to follow. I quickly got up and climbed into the back of the ambulance and sat down. The two men went to work on Ren right away. They checked her pulse and such. We reached the hospital about 5 minutes later. They hurriedly pulled Ren out of the ambulance. I ran after them and tried to keep up as they turned corners of the hospital building.
The white walls kept flashing by as I followed the stretcher. One of the doctors said that I would have to wait outside because no one but doctors, patients, and assistants were allowed in the next ward. I slowed down and then watched the stretcher speed further and further away from my sight.
I then went to go find the waiting area. It was filled with people, young and old. I sat down in one of the many dark green chairs, I soon fell asleep…my dream included Ren.
It was the one horrible dream that had occurred before. I found myself once again being chased by Trigon in the deep depths of a dark cave-like area. I soon saw the all too familiar door. It still wouldn't open as I banged on it. I hit and kicked it as hard as I could hoping it would open, Trigon came closer still. I screamed as a flash of light blinded myself and Trigon. I stepped back, only to step on flesh. Only this time it was no longer my mother…it was Ren.
I screamed only to see more dead bodies lying at my wretched feet. The pain was all to much to bear, I didn't know whether to cry, laugh, or scream, Trigon was on fire, I was on fire. I fell to my knees sobbing. Then it all disappeared as I felt myself being shaken awake. "Are you okay? You were screaming in your sleep!" an old man said as he removed his leathery hands from my shoulders. I noticed that everyone was staring at me… "Just…just a bad dream…" I said. "Are you sure you're okay?" he asked. I nodded. I then heard the intercom, "Will the friend or guardian of Ren Nishikiori please come to the front desk." I jumped up and ran to the front desk while dodging people on my way. "I'm here for Ren Nishikiori." I panted to the woman at the front desk. She looked up from her papers. "Yes, the doctor wishes to see you. Go to the fourth door on the right." She said. "Thank you." I said as I quickly walked down to the hall to the fourth door.
I never could have seen this far
I never could have seen this coming
It seems like my world's falling apart
Why is everything so hard?
I don't think that I can deal
With the things you said
It just won't go away
I opened it as the doctor beckoned me in. "Are you the one who called for Ren?" he asked as I nodded. He had on a blue uniform, he also had brown eyes to go with his dark brown hair. "Where's Ren? Is she okay?" I asked quickly. "She's in the other room, I'm afraid she's not going to be okay." He said. "What's wrong?" I practically screamed. "It seems that Ren has had cancer for about two years now, it has been dormant, but has just now become active and has had drastic effects on Ren's body. She apparently did not know, otherwise she would've had treatment. This could very well be Ren's last week or day for that matter. If you have a religion I suggest you pray. If you want to see her she's in the next door down." He said. Tears started to form in my eyes. I felt one fall slowly down my cheek. I nodded as I quickly ran out of the room and into the next. In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You'd still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you this means nothing
Nothing at all
I saw a girl with long black hair on the bed. I looked frantically around the room to finally realize that the girl was Ren. I quickly pulled up a chair to her bed and stroked her hair. Another tear fell down my cheek. It was only one of the many yet to come. She opened her eyes and looked at me. "Raven?" she said softly, almost a whisper. "Yes I'm here." I said back. "I'm scared. They told me, that, that this could very well be my last day, or even hour…I don't want to die…I don't…" Ren whispered as her green, tear filled eyes searched my face. Fear was apparent on her fragile face. I picked up her hand and held it. I tried to avoid the IV needles in her wrist. "Raven, I had the dream…" Ren started, but I cut her off, trying to get off of the subject. "I know." I said. "I stepped on my own dead lifeless body! Raven I died! Oh good lord Raven, I died! I don't want to die!" Ren screamed and curled up into a ball in the bed all the while clutching my hand in a death grip. Tears streamed down her face. My heart ached, I hated seeing her like this, she was normally the one I'd go to if I had trouble, I was not very good at comforting people. I was clueless, I didn't know what to say to her to make her feel better. It was hard to stop myself from crying.
I used to think that I was strong
Until the day it all went wrong
I think I need a miracle to make it through
I wish that I could bring you back
I wish that I could turn back time
Cuz I can't let go
I just can't find my way
Without you I just can't find my way
"Raven, I'm a horrible wretch of a person, I have almost no doubts that I'd go to heck…" Ren said while her lip trembled. I tried to comfort her, "God would never let you go there…" I said as I stroked her hand. She burst out once again into tears. She cried herself to sleep as I stroked her black hair. Her face was so pale and lifeless, it seemed strange to still see her breathing. About an hour or two later she woke up. "Raven, the end…it's near. Would you please pray…for me?" Ren asked. It was startling to hear her speak, I didn't know she had woken. "Of course I'll pray for you…" I gripped Ren's hand tighter, "Dear God in heaven, we worship you in all your might and glory, but we need you now as we often do, only now more than ever. Please be with Ren, I want you to be with her when she goes…Please, please be with her always, and please let her know that you will be taking her with you to heaven where she can live peacefully away from all the evil here on Earth…amen." I finished. I looked at Ren, she was no longer breathing.
In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You'd still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you this means nothing
Nothing at all
My head fell onto her stomach as I released silent tears, of anger, I was angry that Ren had left me, that God had taken her from me, though I knew it was coming, sad that she was now gone, and horrified that I was holding onto and touching a dead person, my friend. I cried on her lifeless body for so long, I lost count of the time, while praying endlessly. After that long period of time, I got up and found the doctor and told him what had happened. He said a few words of apology and said the hospital would take care of her body and send it to the funeral home of my choice.
I don't know what I should do now
I don't know where I should go
I'm still here waiting for you
I'm lost when you're not around
I need to hold on to you
I just can't let you go
I nodded my head. I wanted to scream, to cry, to laugh, to die, just to get away. I hated myself for not noticing her state of health in the first place. I should have known, but I didn't pay attention.
In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You'd still be here
And it makes no sense
I can just pick up the pieces
But to you this means nothing
Nothing at all
You feel nothing
Nothing at all
Later…
I'm back at the tower now, the Titans are all crowding around me trying to comfort me. Robin gave me a big hug, as did Cyborg and Beastboy, and Starfire. "If you need to talk to anyone, I'm here." Robin said as all the other Titans nodded in agreement.
I felt tears start to roll down my face. I dashed to my room. I ran in and closed my door, all the while crying. I threw myself on my bed and wept for hours. The other Titans often knocked on my door, but I used my powers to muffle the sound of my constant weeping.
I kept telling myself I was too old to cry, but it did no good, I was constantly crying, I never once stopped for those hours, until about 3 hours later when I finally managed to stop. I had heard so many explosions that came from about the tower, and outside. I was sure the rest of the tower was in ashes all. Without Ren I could no longer show emotion. I was back to being the old dull Raven. The one whom no one understood. I hated this, I hated my life. I wanted to die…I should have died not Ren, I deserve it. But no one ever said life was fair…
I walked down the many stairs and at the bottom found all the Titans quiet as I entered the room. I hated that, it only made me feel worse. I quickly ran and made myself some tea then ran back up to my room.
I sipped slowly, as I sat on my purple bed, quietly. I reached into my bedside table for a knife. I pulled it out of it's sheath. I pulled it across my thigh. I flinched. Blood slowly dripped down my leg and onto the floor. I was about to pull it across my neck…Someone knocked on my door, it was Robin, I could tell by the way he walked. For some reason lately I had been having weird feelings about him…I only told Ren, of course, and if I told Starfire, she'd have a heart attack on the spot. I just hope he didn't notice the blood. I was too sad and felt to weak and tired to use my powers to block the door. I quickly threw the knife into the bedside table. I covered my wound with my cloak. Blood started to seep through.
The door opened. Robin slipped through, and quietly sat down beside me on my bed.
"Look, Raven, I'm really sorry about what happened…I just wanted to let you know, that I really mean what I said earlier. You can talk to me about anything, I'll be here for you." Robin said. He put his arm around my shoulder. I looked at my feet, while fingering the teacup. A tear fell down my cheek and into my tea. Robin pulled me closer. Another fell. Then I couldn't control it anymore. I started bawling as Robin pulled me to his chest. I bawled like a baby. I hated to be like this in front of him…my powers started to go out of control. Wind rushed about me and Robin, but he never let go. Papers and books flew everywhere. Blood flew about as well. Everything was a blur of color. I cried harder and as I cried the wind picked up and blew even harder than before. I clutched his shoulders and bawled till I could no more. He ran his fingers through my hair, and held me tight. I couldn't believe that after my best friend had died, I found love just afterwards. The thought made me hate myself even more. I cried harder, if that was conceivably possible. The wind blew harder and harder till it just stopped. Everything fell from the air; I was surprised that nothing fell on us. But I didn't care, I stopped my crying. Robin held my head in his hands and brought it close to his own. "I love you Raven, I always have." Robin said. "I love you too." I said as Robin closed in for a kiss. I pushed him away. "Not now, I couldn't, my best friend just died and…Just…not now…" I whispered. "I understand…" Robin said. He pulled me in for another embrace. I hugged him as well.
"We need to choose a burial spot for Ren, and a place to give a service." Robin said, "How about we go do that now?" he finished as I nodded slowly as unshed tears glimmered in my eyes.
He looked at my thigh. "Crap Raven! Did the wind do that?" Robin asked. That would explain it! I wouldn't have to tell him I did it myself…I quickly nodded. "Well, you're going to need a bandage at least. Come on, I'll help you." He said.
Robin stood up and grabbed my hand to help me to my feet.
Later that week during the burial…
I cried as the preacher spoke about Ren. I had told him a lot about her. Ren's mom was there too; apparently Ren's dad had died earlier that year. I don't know how she could take it, losing her only child and her husband all in one year. We comforted each other as the preacher spoke more. Robin sat at my right hand side, Ren's mother on the left. The other Titans sat behind us. Thunder was heard and lightning flashed above us. About 30 minutes later the preacher said a final prayer, and said that the service was over. They would lower the coffin later that day, after we left. I stood up and smoothed my black silk dress. Robin wrapped his arm around my shoulders. We stopped in front of the coffin before leaving the cemetery. I kneeled on the muddy ground in front of the coffin and said a quick prayer for Ren before leaving.
I wept as I walked away from the coffin. I did not want to go, but the service was over, and if I stayed, they'd never get Ren buried properly, with my bawling.
Robin squeezed my shoulder as we walked towards the T car. Robin opened the door for me, and I climbed in and was followed by Robin, the Star, BB sat in front with Cyborg.
Starfire, had surprisingly taken it well, when she found out about me and Robin. I half expected her to kill me, though, that would have been a relief.
Robin held me tight and let me cry my eyes out on his perfect shoulders. I didn't want to leave the cemetery, I wanted to stay with Ren, her body anyways, her soul was in heaven with God, where I wished to be. I was filled with envy, I wished to be away from this wretched place, and in heaven where I could be with my heavenly father. But I also did not wish to leave Robin, I had a reason to stay here on earth…
THE END
A/N: Well, I hope you liked it. Please review…
