Rhade woke up for the second time that day and stared at the woman lying in his arms. He couldn't believe that he and Beka Valentine had 'got it on'. He leaned down and kissed her forehead before unwrapping their bodies from each other. Getting out of bed and wrapping a sheet around his waist and pulling a blanket over Beka, Rhade went into the kitchen of his room to make some coffee.
From working with Beka he knew that she practically lived off the stuff. And needed it to be alive and cheery in the morning. Without it she was a zombie who you do not want to cross. And he wanted this morning to be perfect.
Rhade knew about Beka's past relationships, and because of them she was afraid- no terrified- of commitment. And he wanted this to work. To him, they already belonged to each other. In neitzschean culture when a male and a female sleep together they are bound for life. Or until something serious happens that may make them want to separate. Or one kills the other. And Rhade did not like either of those choices. Especially since he knew that he would probably be the one in the morgue. He'd seen Beka angry, wasn't pretty.
He would just have to take this slowly. As if he were a human male. He did not want to scare her off. Rhade was just going to treat it as if they were dating. Take her out to restaurants, clubs, and bars. And buy her things. And then hopefully go back to a room with her. His, hers, the Maru, all good.
Rhade would just have to go it slowly. No matter how much it killed him. Even if she pushed, he would still be there, no matter what. Beka needed stability, and he would happily be the one to give it to her. He would go as slow in the relationship as she needed. Even if he couldn't call it a relationship, sleep with her, kiss her, touch, feel her, and hold her. He would wait it out. Not very neitzschean of him, but she was worth it.
The coffee finished and Rhade grabbed two mugs and filled them both with coffee. He added two creams to his and left hers black, he knew that was how she took her coffee. He put the mugs on a tray and grabbed two almond croissants from a container. He quickly put them in a mini oven to heat them as he grabbed a few napkins. Taking the food out and putting it on the tray, he picked it up and started to make his way back to the bed. He knew that Beka was awake since he heard movement a little while ago. He smiled as he entered.
"Good morning"
Rhade frowned. He was talking to an empty room.
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Beka woke up for the second time feeling colder then she had been earlier. She sat up, looked around, and realized that she was alone. It was at this that she felt a pang of loneliness. And it was at that pang that she freaked, and doubt crept into her mind.
Beka Valentine was not used to missing her lovers once they were gone. Nor was she used to them leaving her after they shared a bed. And if they did leave, it was certainly not while she was still asleep. But Rhade had.
He left her alone, she thought that he was different, but he wasn't. She was just probably a little fun after the party. But she really thought that he liked her. Guess she was wrong. Not like she hadn't made bad judgment calls with guys in the past. God, look at Bobby.
She quickly got up and as quietly as she could got dressed and left the room. She would just go to the mess hall and get some breakfast and coffee. Or maybe just coffee. It always made her feel better.
She wasn't going to be there when he got back. He would probably throw her out. Or even worse, use her again and then make her leave. And Beka Valentine was nobody's toy. She would just get over it. Move on. So what, he didn't want her? And had left her alone in bed? Snuck out when she couldn't catch him? It didn't matter. It was just one night, and they would never discuss it again. They were drunk, it was mistake, and she could live without him.
"No big deal. Don't need him, he certainly doesn't need or want me. He's nothing. I can do better. He's nothing." She said in a confident tone. But then insecurity crept back. And in a hurt whispered tone she said.
"So then why do I feel like a thousand shattered pieces?"
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Review and I'll have Beka and Rhade patch things up a little quicker then I was planning on. See? Aren't you motivated to click the little button now? Aren't a B/R fan? Reading this for another pairing? Well, don't review and I will give the other characters a lot of angst as well. And how will I know that you didn't review you ask? Well, isn't it obvious? I'm physic. A caterpillar told me I am, so it must be true.
