Author's Blurb: So yeah... this one is set during Kobol's Last Gleaming Part One. Same jazz as the other ones. I don't like this one that much but what ever. Here you go, enjoy.
Too many Lies
You let him touch you. You let him go where few have ever gone. Not because you love him. Not because you even like him. You let him because the one person you want to bring you to ecstasy is the one person you can't touch. So while he isn't with you physically he is in your mind. And that's why his name slips out of your mouth and brings everything crashing down on you. Gias rolls of you and you leave his quarters with your tail between your legs. Not one of your greatest moments.
The little bastard. You should have know he'd be a big baby about the whole situation. You got out of there fast as possible. That game would have gotten real messy. You didn't want Lee to see the aftermath of your little romp. You're ashamed for hooking up with Gias. You don't want Lee to find out but you know he will. You're not sure how he will react. He could get mad or he could just not care. You don't know which is worse.
He picked angry. He came in acting civil enough but you knew he didn't come just to chat. You can tell he's angry by his body language even though you refuse to look at him. You're right when you say you don't owe him anything. He never made a move so you didn't either. But he didn't have to bring up past mistakes. That world is gone. Past mistakes don't apply anymore. So you hit him because he deserves it. What right does he have to get up in your face about what you choose to do with your time. But he's mad so he hits you back. When hitting you doesn't solve anything, he asks you why. It's because you're a screw up and you tell him so before going back to work.
With all your own problems, you've missed something. Boomer's in the hospital. She shot herself. Everyone believed her lame ass story but you know her just a little bit better than that. You know that she is just a little bit anal when it comes to the details. How could you have missed all the signs. When the world ended, they made sure everyone could pick out the changes in behavior that lead to suicide. She hadn't been so talkative lately and that was fine. You weren't exactly in the mood to talk either. You don't understand why she did it.
He's still mad when he enters the hanger deck where you're working. He bitches you out for going over his head and then asks you the details of your 'hair brain plan' all in the span of a minute. He's impressed but worried. It's a risky plan. You are well that it will probably result in your death. So you ask him if he'll miss you. His answer was a disappointment. You did manage to apologize. Not that you really should have to.
The President wants to talk to you. You're not sure if you should be worried. Then she starts asking you about your religious believes. It's not something you like to talk about with others. She wants you to fly a crazy mission that you aren't sure will work or if it would be worth the consequences to your career. And the she drops you are wholly unprepared for. How can the President be so sick? Now you feel obliged to hear her out. You still don't buy into it. The old man knows where earth is. Even as you say so, you realize you sound like a fanatic. But still you believe it and you trust him. You trust him more than a president that asks you to break the oath you live by.
Roslin told you to ask him so you do. Not directly. You know him better than that. You're asking more precise questions. He gives you bullshit answers that could mean anything. She was right. He Lied. You feel totally betrayed by the man you respect most. You don't know how he could lie to the entire fleet.
During the field test Apollo is nothing but professional with you. You return the favor but miss the usual banter that occurs when you fly together. He gives you the go ahead but you have some doubts.
You confront the old man. To make sure he knows that he's let you down. To let him know that you are going to get that arrow and bring it back so the President can lead humanity to earth.
Conversation over, you jump. Completely ignoring Apollo which feels good. You don't know if this is going to work but you don't regret at least giving it a shot.
