I'm standing strong

With a determined gleam

I'm not sitting back

To hope and dream

I'll take hold of what I need

I'm not stopping

Till my soul is freed

I feel like I'm going crazy, nightmares go beyond explaining. I wish they would give me some dreamless sleep potion, but noooooo " its to addictive". I really need to start this plan already! I have it all set out. The full moon is drawing near, I figured out how to get out without detection. You see when they apparate the wards are down for those few minutes. I just need to be outside and pretend like I'm going in and then I'll be able to go without detection. The Dursleys will be gone so they won't see me, like they would care but they're still an obstacle. I need to get out quick I don't think I can handle this much longer, its irritating. I've been getting my visions again, my scar gives this dull ache that I've grown accustomed to. I try to Ignore it, I haven't told anyone about it, I really don't need extra care, if they found out that I had visions they would have me do occlumency with the dreaded Snape! Lupin seems to be catching on, who wouldn't I always look uneasy when I'm about to go to sleep and if that isn't enough rubbing my forehead kind of sets off the alarms. Lupin's to observant! but I'm not sure he knows, he hasn't said anything about it, but I can feel that he's going to start asking questions. He shows up more then the other order members, he tries to "talk" with me, I just get quiet. He hasn't shown up in the past few days to my unexplainable relief, though I guess I'm a little worried, maybe he got busy or something. Tonks has shown up more, she really knows how to lighten the mood even though she's broken quite a few of my things, not like any of it mattered. July 1st is the next full moon it was June 30th , I'd be out of here by Monday. I was getting impatient I was looking at the calendar, once again imagining my heroic rescue of Sirius, while laying on my bed, suddenly I felt a wave of drowsiness and my eyes shut.

………dream………….

I woke inside my dream, I wondered how I fell asleep without potion. Maybe the order will back off if they saw me sleeping. I sighed and looked around it was dark and cold. All around there were grimy stone walls and temperature confirmed that it must be a dungeon. I looked around, I felt my scar prickle, a laugh started to ring through the dungeon bouncing of the walls running through my ears. Out of nowhere red eyes flashed in the shadows, the eyes held a peculiar delight that made me apprehensive.

"Well, well, well look what we've got here. It seems I have finally succeeded in entering your dreams." he said coming out of the shadows he was just as I remembered. Tall and skeletal his face pale and rigid. His eyes had a snakelike appearance, red with slits where a round pupil should've been, they glowed red with mirth. His long gangly fingers ran through my hair and his long, cracked nails brushed across my face.

I stood with a defiant look on my face, "Don't touch me!" I said icily. He laughed his high-pitched laugh that made my stomach jolt, he grabbed my chin and forced me to look into his eyes.

"Oh does little Potter not want me to touch him. Well I guess I'll just go to his friends they're so much easier." he said with a revolting smirk that danced across his face. I pushed him as hard as I could, he barely wavered.

"Don't you dare! Don't you dare!" I said trying to kick him, hurt him, impair him at the very least, taking the anger that was pent up inside of me on him. I wish I had my wand to hex him to oblivion to kill him to throw him into a fate worse than hell itself. I screamed at him repeating the same words over and over I was pushed across the room with extreme force.

"SILENCE POTTER!" anger flickered across his eyes as he drew closer he walk quickly and quietly towards me resembling a snake sneaking onto his prey. His fingers caught around my throat as he lifted me against a wall, his eyes held cold fury, his mouth held menacing grin. I tried to wriggle out of his grasp trying to gasp for breath but I couldn't, I felt so weak.

"You think you are so brave, being worshipped for a spot of luck. Who to kill next, hmmm, your idiotic parents are gone, that stupid Cedric boy you dragged along into our trap, gone, oh yes your poor, poor godfather, died by following your stupidity. I wonder who is going to fall next, how about one of your little snot-nosed, bratty friends or maybe a certain dark creature!" with that Voldemort dug his nails into my skin till drops of blood fell, I struggled while glaring at him, I wanted to yell but my voice disappeared over the battle to catch my breath. He threw me to the ground, looking pleased with himself, he looked like he really meant what he said. Fear started creeping into me but was washed away with anger. He laughed, to my ears it felt like nails on a chalkboard, I didn't want to hear it anymore and I screamed wanting so bad for him to disappear from not only my dream but from my life! as the dream started to fade, I felt anger slowly building up inside of me.

………..end dream………..

I woke up drenched in sweat look wildly around my room, I felt unexplainable anger at HIM and me. I felt power pulse through my veins. Indignation crawled through me skin. My heartbeat seemed to speed up as I felt like my anger itself was radiating from me. My eyes glazed over as the room started to shake I felt my body start to levitate. The windows shook the furniture started to lift, I felt helpless, I couldn't help stop him, I didn't want to lose anyone! I couldn't stand it, things started to shatter in my room as my frustration grew. Suddenly the door flew open, Remus rushed in, a horrified look came over him as he saw the room then he saw me. He shouted things but I couldn't hear, I looked him into the eyes and I saw something that calmed me that made me fall to the floor, that made utterly confused, it was love, care, concern. Things that I wanted, but was to embarrassed to say. Things that I didn't experience as often as I would've liked.

He rushed to me, "Harry! Harry!" He lifted me into his arms I smiled softly, I felt so weak like I lost all my energy. He looked me over as if searching for something, my scar burned, I felt my neck there was nothing there, even though it felt like Voldemort was still holding on to my throat, but I knew Voldemort was really in my dream it made me shudder, I didn't want to dream. The though of him even being in my mind made me want to rip my mind out of my head or even worse do occlumency with Snape. I sat up as I slowly gained my energy I tried to get up but I was pushed down. I looked up to see a worried Remus.

"Wh- what happened?" I said so confused, how did I levitate? why was my room practically destroyed? Glass was everywhere, my desk turned over, everything in disarray.

"It seems you showed the first signs of being a powerful wizard Harry. This thing you had done here was a magical outburst, you need to control you're feelings or this could happen again. I think Dumbledore will have to come and see you, are you alright?." he said, he looked pretty grave and concerned. I don't know how he was so knowledgeable on this stuff he sounded like Dumbledore for a second. Then I started to remember the dream again, I grew panicked I had to go to sleep again, I looked around for a way out, a mixture of emotion flashed through my face.

"I can't go to sleep, I can't, don't make me please don't! V-Voldemort he can, he can…" I couldn't let the words out I don't know if it was a matter of trust or just me being on how he would reacted, or maybe it was just something completely different. I mean maybe it was fear of Snape or not wanting sympathy.

"Harry, calm down. Tell me what is this that you so worried about?" he looked concerned but I could tell he was very anxious to hear what I had to say. I contemplated if I should tell him. Hey if it got me out of sleep I might as well tell it. Once I get Sirius back I could go to sleep in peace I knew I could if I had Sirius with me. Maybe not but it still would help

"Voldemort, he entered my dreams, he started threatening to kill me or other people. I couldn't stop him, I wanted to but I couldn't. I can't go back to sleep, I just can't!" I pleaded.

He looked like he trying to think of something then he said, "Well we could give you dreamless sleep potion" I smiled widely " just for tonight" my smile faltered "Then we can think up something to do, I guess we'll have to clean this place up." He looked around muttered a few spells things were repaired and my desk was put back in its rightful place. I was glad Hedwig wasn't here or she would peck my fingers off if I had twirled her around during my outburst. It looked cleaner than before. A little bit too clean. I knocked over a few quills. Remus gave me a strange look but just ignored it.

"I'll be back in a few" Remus said and with a Crack he disappeared. I rubbed my temples still feeling pretty weak from my magical outburst, I groaned, great yet another thing to put on the "abnormal" list. I closed my eyes tightly trying to forget the dream or vision or whatever you call it. Seeing Voldemort is the last thing on my list of things to do. I could still feel the slimy creep's hand on my throat, I was feeling my throat constantly for some blood or at least a mark. I felt as if a death eater would show up out of nowhere and try and take me, I looked around anxiously. I heard a noise in the house my throat tightened, I looked around anxiously. My breathing started to quicken, I could feel my palms sweating, I was shaking wishing I could find my wand. I was searching through my trunk Then suddenly, CRACK. I jumped up startled.

"AHH!" I screamed and fell down, I didn't want to see who it was, I closed my eyes, all I heard was someone scream right after me and then a couple minutes later I heard a relieved sigh.

"What are you screaming about, you nearly frightened me to death!" said a voice that sounded very familiar, my mind was working very slowly from my fright, I kept my eyes closed, I know it's a stupid idea to have my eyes closed but like I said before I wasn't thinking correctly. "Oh for Merlin's sake Harry I'm not going to kill you its just a bit of potion! And no Snape didn't poison it" said that voice again. I knew who this was, who is it…. Wait for it…..click Oh duh! It's Remus. I opened my eyes to see an exasperated Lupin who looked a little pale.

"Huh? Oh hi Remus, I thought you were someone else. After the dream I got a little paranoid about death eaters and stuff" I said stumbling over my words, man I'm worse than Moody at least he didn't cower in fear by the thought of a death eater.

"Well I really hope you don't act like that if a death eater were to aparate into your bedroom" he said smiling slightly, I force a small laugh and uneasy smile. "Well lets give you this potion, by the looks of you, you really need it." he said smiling and handed me the potion. "We'll talk about your dream later, I think Dumbledore will you pay you a visit tomorrow afternoon, I'm sure he'll have a lot to explain.. Now get some rest Harry." he patted me on the back. I stalled for a second not liking the idea of sleeping, especially if there's a creepy, ugly, psycho-maniac lurking in my dreams. But I downed the potion because I knew Remus wouldn't leave until I did.

"Goodnight Harry, see you tomorrow!" he apparated away while I fell in a deep dreamless sleep.

A/N: I wanted to add a little humor in here but I didn't succeed, well. Whatever. Next chapter he, the plan but is he getting second thoughts. Maybe I'll do a cliff hanger…lol I'm not that evil…lol. I had too look at this old lunar cycle to find when the moon was out in 1996...I don't know if it was necessary, but hey better safe than sorry. Lol. Well please review!

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