I'm racing forward
Not looking back
My heart is heavy
Life gives no slack
I hear the screams
From behind
I just have to leave
I can't rewind
I woke up and glanced at my clock, it was 10:30. Wow I've never slept that long. The events of last night came back sooner than appreciated. Great, something else to add to my problems, I got ready for professor Dumbledore. I was a little anxious, maybe it wasn't an outburst maybe it was something worse, and what about Voldemort. I sighed, what am I going to do? Tomorrow was the day I leave, tomorrow is the day I put this stuff behind me and have Sirius. I know he can't fix all my problems but at least he'll be there. I heard some pecking at the window, I took a quick look at my window. There she was, it was Hedwig.
I opened the window, she was carrying a letter, probably from Ron or Hermione. I quickly gave Hedwig a treat and took the letter. I've been getting a lot of letters from, they always seem to be trying to cheer me up. At least its not as bad as some of the sympathy notes I got. I opened the letter, I smiled at it, it was a little wrinkly and it was taped in the middle like it was ripped in half. it was from both Ron and Hermione.
Dear Harry,
How are you? Are you okay? I've been worrying about you. Both of us! yes! Yes! Both of us. Can you believe Ron is writing in MY letter! You're letter! this was MY letter till you took the paper from MY hands! I did not Ronald! Yes you did and don't call me that! Ron! now look what you've done! the letter's ruined with your sloppy handwriting! Anyways how are you Harry? We are at the headquarters. Professor Lu-, I mean, Remus looked real worried after he apparated from your house, then apparated again. Yeah it's really weird. He wouldn't tell us anything, can you believe that! we're your friends, its our business as much as his!
Now Ron, if Remus didn't tell us he probably had a perfectly good reason for not doing so. Well he told the order because they seemed to be worrying, remember what we heard on the extendable ears before we were caught. You mean you were caught! I had nothing whatsoever to do with that. Anyways Ron heard that you had an encounter with Voldemort. Which I think he heard wrong because you probably would be here. I bet he kicked his slimy arse! RON! Well please write soon, we are very worried. It would be horrible if something happened to you! Yeah! Yeah! Harry tell me about you and you-know-who! Ron you're supposed to say Voldemort. I do say you know who's name its harder to write it down! whatever Ron! Please write back Harry!
Yours truly,
Hermione and Ron
I was laughing so hard from the letter. This was the most they've cheered me up since their last letter. I felt a little guilty that I was going to leave them, but I was coming back no harm done. I wrote a quick note just to appease them while I'm gone.
Dear Hermione and Ron,
I'm fine it wasn't really anything special. I don't know anything about having an encounter with Voldemort. I had a dream but it wasn't that big of a deal. A dream isn't real. Thanks for cheering me up in your letter.
Sincerely yours,
Harry
That seemed good enough. Not the whole truth but enough to satisfy them. I gave my letter to Hedwig and set her off. She didn't seemed too pleased to be taking a letter to somebody when she just got back from a trip. I waited for a while in my room looking at the ceiling, throwing paper in my wastebasket. Professor Dumbledore would be here. I Wished Remus gave an exact time, I was getting a bit impatient and nervous the last time I talked to him I ruined his office. Then I heard a knock out the door I jumped out of my seat to see Dumbledore. When I opened the door he was smiling and walked in. I sighed with relief.
"Erm, sorry about your um- stuff in your office." I said hesitantly.
"Ah. No problem at all. I would not be surprised if you were placed in 'Hogwarts, A History' for being the first student to ever do so." he chuckled with his usual twinkle in his eye. I laughed nervously, great I was the first kid to do that.
"Well lets get to business, it seems that we have quite the dilemma. Your dreams with Voldemort are no doubt the real Voldemort. I fear we will have to train you occlumency once again." he said
"But I can't do that Snape he won't and I won't cooperate!" I said defiantly
"Professor Snape, Harry, I am sure we can arrange a agreement. It is mandatory that you begin occlumency soon. To master it would give a great advantage." he said gravely.
"Fine, whatever. What about these outbursts? How do I control them? Are they really outbursts?" I said eagerly trying to change the subject.
"Yes they are. To control them takes time and patience, I'll see to it that you are trained in this, for there are many things that you can learn with so much magical power. Anything else that you would like for me to explain?" he said smiling
"What kind of stuff will I be able to do!" I asked earnestly.
"Ah there are many mysteries in your power, I can only name a few, one of them would of course be wandless magic." he said
"Merlin that would be awesome." I imagined tricking Voldemort, smiling evilly.
"Well yes it would. Anything else?" he said, I thought for a moment I did have a question but I wasn't sure if I should ask, I wondered if it would give away my plan.
"Is there a way, um…to leave the veil. I mean is their away to comeback out" I said tentatively
"I'm afraid there is not, but there maybe, for the veil has many hidden mysteries, I must warn you that it would not be wise to try and find those answers" he said solemnly
I nodded trying not to give away any indications of my little outing tomorrow evening. I felt as if Dumbledore knew, I shifted uneasily under his gaze.
"Well I must be going, goodbye Harry, have a safe summer." he said briskly before apparating away.
I fidgeted, I was deep in thought, what would I do. What would happen to people if I didn't fulfill my destiny. What would happen to Ron and Hermione. How would Remus deal with it. I never thought about these things it made me uncomfortable it didn't seem right. I thought for a while, a long while. I never considered I would be have second thoughts on this matter. I closed my eye and opened them with a resolute look in my eyes.
I need to be unwavering, steadfast in what I'm doing. I need to have hope, I can do this. When Sirius comes back I'll be able to look back and laugh at this. I'm not going to let anyone down, its my job.
I night past with another dose of dreamless sleep potion, It was Tonks. She said Remus was a little weary because of the full moon tomorrow. I acted surprised that there was a full moon tomorrow. I got to try to set them off a little bit. When I woke up today I started on my plan.
I put my pre-written note in the mail slot a few minutes after the mailman past buy. It takes my aunt a while to notice we got mail, she usually has her eyes on something else or someone else that is. I had a bottle of potion in my hand, practicing my slight of hand trick, by switching the bottle back and forth under my sleeve. I practiced all my excuse and lies. It would be in a matter of time before I got there. I got a disguise so no one would recognize me.
My disguise was a hat to cover my scar and hair, I put on subscription sunglasses to cover my eyes. I put on dark colors so I wouldn't catch anyone's eyes. I brought my invisibility cloak for when I got to the Department of Mysteries.
A little while later I heard the Dursleys leaving. They're a dull bunch aren't they. They wouldn't be home till very late because the place I picked was quite a distance. I got set in my position outside, waiting a bit checking my watch every few seconds.
"Wotcher Harry!" said a familiar voice a jumped a little startled. I turned around smiling.
"Hello Tonks, is Remus doing fine?" I asked conversationally.
"Hmm? Oh yes he's fine. He seemed a bit worried about you though. That guy is turning to be almost as overprotective of you as Sirius was." she said smiling I nodded feeling a twinge of guilt that I was going to make him more worried.
"Well here's your potion, I think your starting Occlumency with professor Snape tomorrow." she said handing me the potion. I made a face at the mention of Occlumency, she laughed and gave me a look of mock sympathy.
"Hey! Is that a shooting star!" I said pointing behind her. I'm not that good at my slight of hand so a distraction makes it easier. While she turned around I switched the potion my potion looked slightly different but it would be hard to tell when its this dark out.
"I guess I missed, I didn't see it anyway. Well you better drink that." she said laughing. I drank it and made myself look like I was getting tired,
"Do you want any help upstairs?" she asked looking concerned, I grinned.
"No, no I can make it. I have two legs" I said laughing, I feigned going back to the house while she apparated away.
I quickly put on my hat and sunglasses. I took my invisibility cloak off my rucksack and stuffed it inside. I went to the end of Magnolia Crescent and stuck out my wand hand, BANG. There was the knight bus. I still got startled by this it was so loud! I took out my money and put it and went to the back of the bus. I practically ignored anything that he said.
"'ey where ya going?" he asked.
"Oh um.. Ministry of Magic, visitors entrance." I said in a muffled voice.
"'choo going there for at this time of night?" he said scratching his head.
"I have my reasons." I said forcefully.
"fine fine." he said and started driving crazily. There was only one other person on the bus. It was a lanky man who kept on nodding off holding tight on a tattered briefcase. His eyes seemed a bit crazed. I sat as far from him as I could. Over time my arm was sore from banging it against the wall so many times. I wondered how this guy got the job of driving this thing.
"'ere we are," he looked at me expectantly. I just nodded and got off. BANG. I jumped once again and rolled my eyes at myself. My heartbeat was beating loudly. I was here it was making me so nervous. I never thought I would get this far. I went to the phone booth. It looked pretty broken, I couldn't fathom on how this piece of junk could work. I dialed six, two, four, four, and two. The dial whirred and a operator voice came on.
"Welcome to the Ministry of Magic, please state your name and business" she said
"Err. Michael Jordan and playing basketball" I said. What I couldn't say my name, what if they tracked me. I know it would be obvious that it was a lie but I had to think fast.
I got the visitors tag and put it on silently laughing at it. Suddenly I fell right into the atrium of the Ministry of Magic. It was of course empty. I had to act fast, I ran to the elevator and ran in I pressed the down button and waited edgily to reach the bottom.
"Department of Mysteries." said a female voice. I briefly wondered why everything was narrated in a woman's voice but I quickly threw away the thought and ran into the revolving room. The room turned I looked around quickly listening to my loud breaths. I approached the one door opened it and to my relief there was the room I was looking for. I ran in past all the stone benches in the courtroom-like room. There it was the veil the thing I wanted to go through. Flashes of my friends passed by, Remus, Dumbledore, the Weasleys, even the Dursleys. I felt a lot of emotion. That dream of Sirius came back, I hadn't even thought of it until now. I had pushed it back for so long. I wrung my hands and wondered if this would kill me, if all the assumptions of the veil were true. My body shook, tears ran down my face. I didn't know why it was so hard, I never felt this when I was planning it out, I didn't think I would ever be actually standing by this veil once again. I always thought it would fall through. I shook my head and I thought about Sirius, my hope of getting him back, what I wanted what I needed. I furrowed my eyebrows to my hat and sunglasses off. I squared my shoulders and walked right through.
I walked down a very long, dark corridor. I could here voices all calling my name it made me ever more nervous. I saw a light right ahead. I turned around and it seemed the veil had shut. I thought it very peculiar, I could feel my blood running through me, I was still breathing my heart was still beating. But my scar it burned, it hurt so bad. I endured it felt like there was so much opposition by me trying to get there. suddenly I saw these green things with weird daggers approaching me. I had a sharp intake of my breath, I felt magic pulsing through me, hope was at the end, hope for Sirius and I was determined to get there, determined to reach my goal. The transparent, green ghost-like things approached me. They had evil written all over there them, they were about as scary as Voldemort, but that light at the end of the tunnel was what gave me uncontrollable hope.
All I could think of was Sirius and magic burst out of my hands, it was a bright light, incredibly bright. The ghost-like things scattered. Finally I reached the end I was weak from my outburst of magic but relieved those things were gone. I studied the bright light from the weird door, I looked at the door it had words all around it that I couldn't read and weird inscription that I could understand at all. What I would do to know how to read runes now, not that I think it would help, I was a fearful of going through but when I thought about Sirius I knew I had to, I got myself ready for whatever was on the other side. I took a deep breath and walked through.
A/N: I don't know if this is technically a cliff hanger, but whatever, it took me long enough to get this stupid thing on. Lol well there is his plan, I think I rushed the chapter a bit to much but I think it'll be fine. i sincerely hope my italisc and bolding in the letters worked or none will be able todiscern the difference ofron and 'miones text.The next chapter an encounter with his parents and Sirius and strange mysteries revealed. I hope you enjoy and I hope I get more reviewers, its great having a few! Plz review!
Thanks ickle-princess you're a great motivator!
