Running, escaping death
Holding on to life
To my very last breath
Following light
Turning from dark
Avoiding the strife
From death I depart
I woke up sleepily to muffled voices and blurry figures. I guess they took off my glasses I blindly felt around for my glasses only to have them placed on me by my smiling mother. I wondered briefly how I didn't have any dreams but didn't regret not having any.
"How are you feeling dear?" my mom said smiling
"Oh good. How long did I sleep?" I said stretching
"Oh around eight hours, your meeting is in about five hours." she said
"Great." I mumbled sarcastically while getting out of bed. I saw Sirius and my dad in the corner playing chess. My dad seemed to be losing. It must be a Potter trait to not be able to play chess. My dad suddenly got up and looked at me relieved.
"Great you're up we can show you around maybe give you a few marauders tips" he said merrily winking his eye.
"No No, I will not have another prankster on my hands, I already got you two. Don't corrupt my sweet little angel." she said hugging me tightly. I blushed a scarlet shade of red at my mum's words.
"Oh Lils." my dad said with a pleading look.
"No!" she said looking him into the eye.
"Please flower." he said smiling. I could see my mum's resolve faltering.
"No!" she said folding her arms.
"Please my little lily flower." my dad giving her a pleading look "just a few small pranks."
"Fine! But SMALL pranks, and don't go crying to me if he plays them on you and none of them better be played on me!" she said huffily.
Sirius was laughing at this display and I just smiled the whole way through. I never thought I would be able to see this. My dad grabbed me on the shoulder while Sirius was on the other side, they both were smiling proudly on each side. My dad and Sirius joked around while showing me some of the house, it was huge they had 3 kitchens, which I really didn't understand why that was necessary. My dad explained that with Sirius around you need to have three kitchens while Sirius just scoffed and playfully cuffed my dad on the head. They showed me a few pranks, one involving a bucket of water that floated over the person that you wanted to prank, with a small timed bomb that would blow up and the person would be soaked from head to toe. We practiced on house-elves till the floor was covered with water. They muttered a quick spell and went to the kitchen, finding my mum cooking.
"Hello I made lunch early since its only and hour till we have to go to the CoA." she said handing plates to my dad who set the table. Before I knew it was 15 minutes before the assembly of the dead. I got up slowly not really wanting to go anywhere that involved everyone focusing on me. Sirius squeezed my shoulder reassuringly, while my mum held her arms around my shoulders my dad just stood next to me looking at me with a hopeful look.
"I'm sure its going to be fine." My dad said quietly, we went outside quickly. I squinted trying to adjust my eyes to the light. My parents instructed me to hold their hands. I was hesitant at first but they reassured me that it was how they traveled in the afterworld. I held there hands and we went up so quick and down that I had barely time to catch my breath. It felt like my heart had fallen into the pit of my stomach. That was definitely the last thing I would ever want to done here.
While trying to catch my breath I had barely registered where we were until I looked up. Right there before me a colossal castle stood sturdily on the ground. It was bigger than Hogwarts, ten times in fact. It made me wonder if people often got lost in there even if they had a whole lifetime to find their way. I walked with my parents and Sirius inside and there stood a lady. She was beautiful and she seemed to recognize me for her eyes lit up with familiarity.
"Hello Mr. Harry Potter, I'm sure you are here for the CoA's assembly of the dead. Please move into the portal so that it can take you to your destination." she said and smiled as her eyes glittered. I was thankful they had portals because I felt as if I were to take one step I would be immediately lost. I enter the with my parents and Sirius. The pressed a button in a weird language, the same language that was around the door.
"What does that say?" I said clearly confused.
"You don't know the language of the dead? You should've automatically known it when you exited the veil." my dad said bewildered. His eyes furrowed as if he were trying to figure something out.
"Don't worry Harry, I'm sure the CoA will have some answers." my mum said, while Sirius pulled me into a one-armed hug.
"Yep, those guys are pretty smart. But they really need to lighten up, especially that Buddha guy." he said smiling, I snorted, while my mom playfully hit him on the arm.
"Sirius! Its Buhdmir, Buddha is a different person or technically a god." my mum said
"Yeah yeah, whatever." Sirius mumbled smiling mischievously, I had a feeling he was just trying to get her worked up.
The portal gave an abrupt stop and I jumped up evidently startled.
"You'd thing they'd fix these things to give a slow stop, like the one's in the ministry of magic." my dad said irritably.
"Well at least there not as loud" Sirius joked while getting out of the portal. We all got out and hurriedly walk down a hall to massive double doors with the initials CoA in gold wring, in the middle of the double doors.
"C'mon go in, there's not much time left." my mum said pushing me lightly. I opened the door, and I immediately felt like a clown in a muggle circus. Hundreds of people surrounded me, but the people of the CoA were in front lined up in special seats set up high so you had to crane your neck just to see them. That Buhdmir Raman guy sat at the very front. It reminded me of Wizengamot .
"Hello Mr. Harry Potter, it has come to our attention that you have died. We of the CoA feel that you have had a few mishaps. Would you care to explain your death to the Council of the Afterlife and the assembly of the dead." he said
"Well um I went through the veil, and these green ghost things started to attack me-" I was interrupted.
"The Devours of life attacked you! How is that possible you should've had no life in you once you walked through the veil." he said he paused for a bit and said "Go on."
"Well as I was saying the green ghost thingies were attacking me then I felt something come out of me like some power, and the fled from this light that came out of my hands and then I went through this door with weird writing-" interrupted again
"Yes, the door of the hereafter go on." he said. This guys almost worst the Fudge.
"Well I went in the forest and I met you guys." I finished
"Hmm…strange. Our chart say that your heart and all organs are stopped, they seemed to be frozen in time, but you till seem to have life in you. Our studies have verify that you feel pain and lack in stamina. It seems you have a connection with something to give you life. Can you tell us anything that you would have a connection with?" he said. My eyes widen as a felt my scar, the constant ache, the thing that was keeping me half alive.
"I do sir, I have a connection with the dark lord of our time Voldemort. I have had it since I was born." I said.
"Ah, it seems destiny has still kept working, my sincere apologies but you must go back." he said.
I was so angry, if my scar wasn't here I would be happy. This stupid scar cause me so much pain, I lose everyone because I have this, no one ever sees who I am for me but for who I am with this horrible scar.
"Can't I stay? I'm not hurting anybody!" I implored.
"But you are Mr. potter, the world is in dire need of help, destiny has given you your duty and you must finish it, I am sorry. You must travel to the door of the hereafter at the crack of dawn. A special dagger will be presented to you to rip the veil. You are dismissed." he quietly. A whole band of voices and shuffling happened after that. I fell on my knees. Tears threatened to fall, I have to leave! I have to leave Sirius and my parents. I'm happy here no life threatening dilemmas, horrible magical outburst, no dying friends or dying parents, no grief or pain. I wanted to be here. I came for Sirius, I came to bring him back to my world, but it seems that the thought of Sirius has brought me into this world only to be a outcast. Even in the afterlife Voldemort ruined me, took all my hope!
I felt my dads presence. My mum ran to me and held me while crying, and kissing me. I looked up for a few seconds to see Sirius at the very back his head in his hands and his shoulders shaking.
I got angry with myself, I shouldn't have come back. Sirius was happy and I ruined it! I took his happiness with my selfish wants. I didn't deserve this, I don't know what I was thinking, did it ever occur to me that maybe Sirius wanted to stay, maybe he didn't want me around.
I got up, still hearing my mum crying, I grew angry with myself, my dad looked stressed, I was furious with myself. I went up to Sirius, sympathy for him, why did he have to be my godfather, he didn't need this! Tears started falling.
We slowly walked home, I had to say something. I made a big mess again, trying to play stupid hero. I was an idiot, my mum held on to me the whole way she wasn't crying as hard but she still had tears running down her face. Sirius and my dad stayed quiet the whole trip, we didn't even fly there we just walked, our house was only about a half a mile away. I couldn't stand myself, I was causing my parents and Sirius this grief when they should've been happy. My dad and Sirius should've been playing jokes and messing with my mum. Then I come along and ruin there happiness. I came along and Voldemort killed them, I came along and Sirius was put in Azkaban, I come along and Sirius falls through the veil.
I wished, that I had never came along. We got home and I slowly went to my room. I got to get up early anyways, though I doubt I'm going to sleep. My mum tried to give me food but it politely refused. An hour or so I was restless, my mind was going a mile a minute. I got up to go get some water then I saw Sirius in a room, sitting on a bed, his hand ran through his hair, he looked worn out and I could see a few tears. My heart sunk, it was my fault he was sad, I entered the room and sat next to him. He looked at me.
"I'm sorry Sirius, I shouldn't have come, I've only been a problem for you, I should've listen to you, I shouldn't have ever been born, none of this would've of ever happened! this is all my fau-" I was interrupted by Sirius putting his hand over my mouth. He looked me in the eyes, sympathy and anger flashed through his eyes.
"Don't Say it." he growled as his hand slowly slid from my face "Where do you get these ideas how many times to people have to tell you!. Its not your fault! You have never been a problem, you have always tried to help! You gave me a reason to live, a reason to keep on, and the way I wanted to die. I died saving you and that makes me complete! Don't say it ever again! Never again! You hear me, NEVER!" he said as he pulled me into a hug, and whispered "Never."
A/N: okay, got this one done. Took me longer than I thought. Lol well next chappie the adventure through the forest and of course a little surprise! So get ready and please review, plz, plz, plz
Thank you ickle princes my ever faithful reviewer and reader!
