By: Lacus Klein
Disclaimer: No characters mine
Notes: I just had to continue this. The storyline keeps whispering in my ear. These next two will be introspective fics, first Tomonori then Tsukasa. Here's the bit of angst...
When I woke up this morning, I had no idea at first where I was. But when I turned and saw you, the memories flooded back and I thought I would be sick. You were sleeping peacefully beside me, and didn't even stir when I got up. I managed to lurch in my room and sit down. The full impact of everything slowly sunk in.
I shouldn't have continued that last night. I don't know what had gotten into you, but it was wrong of me to encourage it. No matter how much I've longed to have you, it isn't right. Yet, I took you. And you willingly gave yourself to me.
I feel sick for what I did. I enjoyed it at the time, but now I'm finding regret. What will you think when you wake up? Will you hate me for taking you? My precious angel, what have I done?
I knew from the beginning that there was something different about you. True, I didn't know you were an Eraser. But that didn't matter to me either. You became my family. And though I've known for quite a while now that I'm in love with you, I've always thought it best just to keep it to myself. A man like me doesn't deserve the love of an angel.
You told me last night that you had no regrets. But sadly, I feel that I do. I've tainted you. And yet, even now I wish to go in there and just watch you sleep. But even as I do, I can't help but feel that I'm a horrible person. Will I be able to face you when you wake?
I don't know...
Slowly, you open your eyes and smile at me. You seem to remember the night before, but don't seem upset at all. How is that? I just can't quite understand. "Tomonori-san.." you whisper, reaching out to touch me.
But I back away. I've already convinced myself that it was wrong of me to take you. You just look at me without understanding. But I can't face you anymore. Instead, I quickly make my exit. I just can't let it happen again. I swear I won't.
And yet, I know in my heart I probably won't be able to keep that promise to myself.
TBC
Notes: Okay, angst has started. Plot? Well, I guess there's one. Next is Tsukasa!
