Love of an Angel

By: Lacus Klein

Disclaimer: The usual. I don't own anything.

Chapter Four

Heart of Glass

It had been several days and Tsukasa still hadn't come back to school. Tomonori had gotten his nerve up to check on him, but everytime he was just asked to leave. Now, sitting at his desk and looking over some papers, he had begun to worry. He hadn't seen Tsukasa since that morning after. His heart still ached from the sad look the little angel had given him. If heart breaks were physical, he had the feeling he'd witnessed one. He'd never meant to hurt him, but he was afraid of what might happen if anyone ever found out.

Loving Tsukasa had been so easy. From the first day he'd met him, he'd felt the attraction between them. Back then, Tsukasa had been alone and afraid. He had no past, no memories. Tomonori had taken pity and took him in. But perhaps even then, it had been something more. And though he'd told himself over and over again that it wasn't, he now knew better.

That night, he hadn't thought of consequences. His only thought had been the love he'd felt for him. And when he woke up the next morning, he just knew that this wouldn't have a good out come. He could love him all he wanted, but he wasn't suppose to touch. What he'd done had to be immoral. And yet, even now, it had felt so right.

Getting up and ready to leave, Tomonori was surprised to hear the sudden knock on the class door. Opening it, he found Mana standing there. "I'm sorry if I'm interrupting." she said.

"No. I was just leaving. But why are you here so late?" Tomonori asked her.

"Well, I wanted to catch you alone. I was worried about Amou-kun. He hasn't been here for a while. Is he sick?" Mana asked.

Tomonori felt his heart tighten, but kept a straight face. "Yes. He just hasn't been feeling well." he lied. He just couldn't see telling his master what had happened. It was just too embarrassing to think of her reaction.

Mana sighed. "Oh, I see. Well, I hope he's okay." she said.

"He'll be find soon. You don't need to worry." Tomonori reassured her. But inside, he wished that he could reassure himself.

"Okay. Do you mind if I drop by and see him sometime? I just want to make sure he'd doing okay." Mana replied.

Tomonori nodded. Watching her leave, he had to sigh. If she dropped by, would Tsukasa snap out of this slump he'd fallen into?


The house was quiet when Tomonori entered. All the lights were out and there was no aroma of food in the kitchen. Sighing, he put his things away and made his way upstairs. When he reached Tsukasa's door, he stopped and hesitated for a moment. What if he still didn't want to see him?

Pushing the fear aside, he forced himself to open the door. Just as the rest of the house, the room was dark. It was raining outside, so there was barely any light reflected through the curtained windows. Walking in, Tomonori looked around. "Tsukasa?" he called softly.

There was no answer. For a moment, Tomonori felt a bit of panic. Had he left? But then, he noticed the shape sitting against a nearby wall. Walking over, he knew it was Tsukasa. "Tsukasa, what are you doing with all the lights off?" he asked him.

But he got no answer. Tomonori said his name again. Still, he received no answer. Now, he felt himself really begin to panic. It wasn't like Tsukasa not to answer, no matter how depressed he was. He quickly went over and turned on the light.

Tsukasa was just sitting there against the wall. He stared blankly, not moving and breathing slowly. Tomonori knelt down in front of him and shook his shoulders. "Tsukasa!" he said.

Still, no answer. Tsukasa didn't even seem to see him. Quickly, Tomonori picked up up and wrapped him in a blanket to take him to the hospital. He didn't know what was causing this, but he had to do something.


The doctor looked over the chart as he and Tomonori stood in the hospital room. "Well, physically, there's nothing wrong with him. I've had him under go an evaluation, and we believe the problem is more then likely mental." he told him.

"What kind of mental problem do you think caused this?" Tomonori asked.

"It's hard to tell. Often, when people enter catatonic states, it's due to what you may call an emotional over load. Say something bad happened and that person just wants to forget everything. That's been the most common reason. Another could be related to physical illness, but there's no sign of that. So I believe it was from the first cause." the doctor explained.

"I see." Tomonori said quietly. He felt almost sick inside. This was his fault. He never should've done those things in the first place. He should never have given Tsukasa false hopes.

The doctor nodded. "Has anything bad happened that you feel may have brought this on?" he asked.

Tomonori shook his head. "Not that I know of." he lied. It was none of this man's business as far as he was concerned.

"Well, we could keep him here under the psychiatric ward. But I don't know if that will do any good. You could also take him home and see if he heals on his own. But it may take a long time." the doctor admitted.

Tomonori looked over at Tsukasa again. He still didn't move. His eyes still staring blankly. "I'd rather take him home and care for him myself." he said quietly.

The doctor nodded. "Very well then. I'll get you the papers and you'll be free to go." he said. Then he walked out.

Sighing, Tomonori went over and knelt in front of the chair Tsukasa was sitting in. "I know you can't hear me." he whispered as he took his hand, "But I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to cause you so much pain. Please, come back to me my angel."

TBC

Notes: Okay, so it's kinda short, but I wanted to stop it there for the time being. The mental state I mentioned is basically like being catatonic. Tsukasa wanted to forget everything, so he willed himself into that. Now, will Tomonori be able to save him from himself? Man, I didn't mean to make it so sad. And on my birthday of all things! Yes, this has been written on my birthday. I promise it'll get better soon!