By: Lacus Klein
Disclaimers: None mine, as always ;;
Notes: Lemon at end of chapter! So what happens to wake Tsukasa up? You're about to see.
Chapter Five
An Angel's Love and A Priest's Fall
Tomonori knelt down in the church and prayed silently. It had been two weeks, and Tsukasa wasn't getting any better. He felt like the only thing left for him to do was pray. His angel was slipping away, and he'd never felt so helpless before.
Time seemed to go by slowly since Tsukasa fell into his current state. Tomonori had even taken time off from teaching to take care of him. He was grateful that everyone was so understanding of the situation, and that they didn't really ask many questions. At that point, he wasn't sure how he'd have been able to answer them.
Opening his eyes, Tomonori looked up at the large stained glass window in front of him. "Am I wrong for harboring such feelings as do?" he asked softly. "Is it so wrong that I love Tsukasa so much?"
Slowly getting up, he made his way back to the house. As usual, everything was quiet. Tsukasa was lying in his futon, still sleeping. He'd slept a lot since they had returned from the hospital, but the doctors said it was all part of the condition. Sitting beside him, Tomonori pushed his bangs back. "Tsukasa." he whispered.
As he sat there, the doorbell rang. Slowly, Tomonori made himself get up and answer it. To his suprise, Mana was standing there. Still in uniform, she looked like she'd just gotten out of school. "Sorry to bother you. I just came by to see how Amou-kun is doing." she said softly.
"Not much better. He's sleeping right now." Tomonori said as he stepped out with her and gently closed the door.
Mana sighed, looking down. "Poor Amou-kun. Whatever happened must have been very hard on him." she whispered.
"Yes. I suppose it was." Tomonori said softly.
"But I'm sure he'll get better with you taking care of him. You always have a way to make him feel better." Mana told him.
Tomonori looked away. "Well, not always. In fact, I may have made things worse this time. And I have doubts I'll be able to help him now." he admitted quietly.
Mana just looked at him for a moment, then a gentle smile crossed her face. "No. I think things will work out. Amou-kun cares about you more then anyone. And if he sees you're so sad, I'm sure he'll come back and work things out. Whatever happened, I won't ask. It's really none of my business. But Amou-kun cares about you no matter what. I'm sure he won't want to see you so upset because of him." she told him.
Tomonori looked at her with a bit of surprise. But her genuine smile just drove her words in deeper. Perhaps she was right. He and Tsukasa had always been close. Maybe, somehow, he'd find a way to bring him out of it.
Mana looked over her shoulder as the tower bells began to chime. "Oh, I guess I'd better get going. My aunt's going to kill me if I'm late again. But let me know about Amou-kun, and I'll drop by again sometime." she said.
Tomonori agreed and watched her go. Then he slowly opened the door and walked back inside. Tsukasa was still asleep, so he went over and knelt by him again. "Tsukasa, I'm not leaving your side. I'll be here whenever you wake up." he whispered. Then he got back up to make himself some dinner.
Tsukasa floated aimlessly in his dream world. All around him, the white clouds sat silently. He didn't know where he was, but he didn't really care either. There were no harsh memories here. Nothing to burden him with loss or pain. Just the open sky and clouds. No sounds, no people. It was all so pleasant.
Staring up at the clouds, he watched as bits of sun tried to break through. It cast a kalidascope of colors, surpassing even the most brillant of rainbows. Tsukasa raised his hands to touch them. Is this what heaven feels like? he thought passively.
But as he raised his hands, the colors wrapped around them. It was so warm, so soft. It vaguely reminded him of something. Something he'd somehow managed to forget. As the soft colors gently held his hands, Tsukasa closed his eyes. There was something so soothing about their touch. Almost like someone else's he had once known. But he couldn't place it in his mind.
"Tsukasa."
A soft voice drifted into his hearing. Tsukasa opened his eyes, still grasping at the colors wrapped around his hands. The clouds, to his surprise, her trying to part.
"Tsukasa, please..."
The voice came back again, and the colors slowly drifted back up. Tsukasa whimpered, reaching out more for them. "Please, don't leave." he heard himself say.
"Come back to me Tsukasa." the voice whispered as the clouds parted more.
Tsukasa floated up straight and stared. "Who are you?" he whispered.
"Please don't leave me. I love you Tsukasa." the voice continued to whisper.
Tsukasa stared up as the clouds parted and a familiar face came to his view with arms open wide. "Tomonori-san!" he whispered, flying up quickly and hugging him.
Tsukasa's eyes opened instantly, and he found himself looking at the ceiling. Beside him, Tomonori was asleep. His hands was still tightly holding his. Tsukasa sat up and looked over at him. "Tomonori-san?" he whispered.
Slowly, Tomonori began coming back out of his sleep. His eyes shot open upon seeing Tsukasa sitting up beside him. "Tsukasa?" he whispered, praying that he wasn't just dreaming.
"How long have I been asleep?" Tsukasa whispered.
At that, Tomonori sat up and hugged him tightly. "Oh God Tsukasa, I'm so glad you're all right." he whispered hoarsely.
Tsukasa was a bit surprised. He still didn't understand what was going on. "Yes. But what happened? Why wouldn't I be?" he asked.
"You've been in a catatonic state for two weeks. You didn't respond to anything." Tomonori said as he pulled back to look at him.
"I have?" Tsukasa stared at him. He hadn't even realized how long he'd been in that dream world.
Tomonori looked down, still holding his hands. "I'm so sorry Tsukasa. I shouldn't have hurt you like I did." he whispered sadly.
"It wasn't your fault." Tsukasa whispered. He looked down sadly and squeezed his hands. "I should be the one apologizing. I shouldn't have come on to you like I did. It was selfish to think that you'd be okay with it."
The two sat in silence for a moment. Tomonori looked back up at him, seeing the sadness in his eyes. The room was already dark, but he could see him perfectly. "Then perhaps we've been too hard on ourselves." he finally said.
"Oh?" said Tsukasa.
"I love you Tsukasa. And almost losing you made me realize how much." Tomonori said, leaning over and kissing him softly.
Tsukasa leaned into the kiss, feeling the tears roll down his cheeks. He sighed as the kiss parted and started down his neck. "I love you too. I love you so much." he cried softly.
Tomonori smiled against his neck. "Then let's do this right. This time, let me make love to you and truly mean it." he whispered.
Tsukasa pulled back a little, staring into his eyes. All he could do was nod and kiss him again.
In no time, Tomonori found himself laying on his back with Tsukasa moving over him. He watched him moan and throw his head back. Reaching up his back, he gently rubbed the scars from his wings. Tsukasa cried out, his other wings sprouting in a burst of white. Tomonori gently stroked the white feathers as their hips moved together. "Tomonori-san." Tsukasa whispered, his voice thick with passion.
"I love you Tsukasa." Tomonori whispered back, thrusting a little harder. Tsukasa threw his head back again and cried out as his climax hit. He felt his lover spasm under him, and he knew they'd reached that point together.
Falling back on the bed, the two curled up together and kissed deeply. "I love you so much Tomonori-san." Tsukasa whispered, touching his cheek.
Tomonori smiled back at him. He couldn't remember a time when he'd felt so happy and complete. Kissing his forehead, he watched his angel begin drifting off to sleep. "So you'll be waking up in the morning now?" he asked softly.
"As long as you're here." Tsukasa promised.
Tomonori held him close and felt the sleep coming on with him as well. He smiled down at the boy in his arms. "I'll always love you Tsukasa."
TBC
Notes: Aw, how sweet. See? Happy ending so far. Just a little more to go. Hey, can't end it just yet!
