Recap: Kikyo stood back looking at her mother, weakly laying in the bed with a soft smile that left Kikyo to feel stranger for a minute. " Mom…I…" Kikyo stopped for a minute, catching her breath. " I'm going to see Kagome now…Bye…" Kikyo skipped off, walking down the hallway with the thoughts dancing in her head.
After she felt her mother grasp her tightly in a embrace with tears rolling down her cheek, talking about her father knowing he was the hole in her heart, she ran off nervously not wanting to care about her mother in any way when to her it seemed like she was never there for her. Her violet eyes burned for a moment with care, and knowing she almost mouth something other than that she was going to see Kagome. Her mother watched her run out from the bedroom, passing through the dust that danced around the sunlit room. Her mother laid back with a smile in thought, that made her sigh sadly but at the same time felt better about Kikyo. "She does care about people.Just she doesn't like to admit that to herself.For the first time, she showed me that.I had forgotten that little girl she was.But maybe,she's still there.After all I saw the smile on her face. That's enough to convince me."
Kikyo stormed off down the hallway, sitting on the steps feeling completely mad with herself while she tightened her combat boots ready to leave from the house again. " I almost fell for that. She's trying to make me care. It's all a fucking set up. That's why she had all her old videos of me and wanted me to come in there. She wanted to prove that I care, and that fact she almost made me mouth the words, " I love her." Well in fact I don't. Why love someone who couldn't do things for me, and never be there when I needed her? Fuck, she's a waste of my time." Kikyo thought to herself, rubbing her temples in anger for once mad with herself she almost believed that she cared for her own mother.
Her teeth bit down her lip to the point where she could almost taste blood. She whipped out her cell phone from her pocket full of change, dialing my number furiously while I had been in the shower, and startled by the ringer of the phone which was unexpected.
" I'm coming!" I screamed even though, it wasn't possible for her to hear me. I quickly wrapped a towel around me, grabbing the phone hoping they hadn't hung up yet. " Hello?" I could hear the heavy breathing, and the strong attitude in the girl's voice and realized it was now other than Kikyo.
" Kagome. Get me the hell out of here." I heard her screaming with anger into the receiver, hearing the stress in her voice and wondering what could of got her in an up roar. It was easy enough for her to get mad, even over the simplest things she always had to flip no matter what.
" Kikyo fine. Let me get some clothes on and I'll met you at the park." Kikyo didn't say nothing after that. All I could hear was the disconnection noise and the continuously beeping knowing she wasn't in the mood to say anything else.
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" You'd think Kikyo would be a happier human being. But that's hard for her to be. She's usually nice to me, but nobody else can see that. I rather her treat me like crap more, than she treats her mother. They are suppose to be close and care for one another, just the problem is she doesn't care. She could care less." I thought to myself throwing on my jean mini skirt with red at the bottom, and a bright green tank top imagining her bitching over something pointless; it always was.It made me sick to know how she was with family, it's almost like feeling happy and nice was an awful feeling and she can't stand it.
I just walked past the crowd of teenagers on the bench laughing really hard, acting like idiots and being happy and seeing one girl holding her stomach screaming that she couldn't hold it in. It brought a chuckle to me, but if Kikyo was to see this scene she'd glare at the in shame in disgust. " I'll get her something to eat. After all she is a bitch, but she deserves something afterall. Plus that guy is coming today, and knowing her she'd dreading another person to know in her house." I whipped out my change grabbing two ice cream cones thinking it would be a good idea to lift her spirits, boy was I wrong.
" You weren't waiting long were you?" I asked nicely trying to place a concerned expression on my face, seeing her in her normal position on the picnic table. Her knees were bent in front of her, and her head faithfully rested on her knees grasping her knees, with the deadly scowl that was hidden in the shadows. It was the first time I saw her in shorts, after all she hated wearing them because she didn't consider herself good looking or pretty, she never did but a lot of people did. " Not really." She replied, staring at her thighs studying herself wondering why she decided to wear these stupid pieces of summer clothing. I just sat beside her barely rubbing against her, while I placed a beaming smile on my face handling her the ice cream cone that was situated in my right hand hoping she'd enjoy it.
" Here Kikyo. It was on my way, I thought it would be nice after all it's summer." She didn't respond or move for a solid fifteen seconds. I could see by looking into her eyes seeing she was off in her thoughts, staring at her surroundings seeing trees fully swaying in the wind, and the haunting laughter of kids jumping around the outer areas of the park. It was almost like she had forgotten about me. She placed her hand out grabbing the cone from my fingertips, and violently throwing it to the ground near my feet. She was in no mood.
My eyes open widely seeing her not giving a damn that I wasted my money on her and she just threw it away. " It's sweet of you, but I don't want a damn ice cream cone. You expected me to place a smile on my face and be happy that you bought me one right? Wrong. I didn't say I wanted in the first place did I?"
I stood a couple of feet back, swinging my foot and making sure I wasn't close enough to feel her fist meeting my flesh. " No but I thought it would be nice Kikyo!" I screamed back, watching the ice cream melt and disappear into the grass. She just chuckled again, studying me for a moment looking at what I was wearing and turned her head back and smiled to herself again. " Kagome I'm sorry." She said sweetly, while she grabbed me closer towards her knowing it was safe enough to be around her again.
" What's bothering you now? Like nothing ever bothers you ever…." I thought rudely, knowing she hated the whole world, and practically everybody in it. She seemed like the only one in the world that hated everything, and she seemed like the outsider. Every thing she hated she was surrounding by, then again she never seems to get a break from it.
" My mother. That fucking bitch. Just called me in, for a hug and that's it. She's trying to make me care for her! But I hate her!" She screamed out into the air, while people miles away could hear her hate for her own mother. Her hands slid into her hair in frustration, while I placed my hand on her back lightly for support wondering what I was getting myself into. " Kikyo, she's not trying to make you care. She loves you a lot. And nobody can make you care for someone else, only you can. So don't blame it on her." Kikyo stuck her nose high in the air, and looking around the park for a moment and back to my face chuckling harder grasping the edge of the picnic table when she heard what I had to say.
" Ha, that's so sweet Kagome. I guess being the perfect daughter is hard enough. It's funny how were friends and yet were so different. You make me laugh Kagome. You almost make me want to believe what you have to say." Her hands pulled me in towards her for a moment when those words rolled off her lips, while I stared at the expression that was most confusing. I don't know if she was happy that I cared, or the fact that we were friends. Sometimes she wasn't that easy to figure out, and nobody could really except me. " Kikyo, when is that guy coming?" I gulped for a moment, eager to hear what she had to say even if it was swear words or anger jolting through her veins. She stared at the clouds moving over head, blinding looking directly into the sun that was slowly setting.
" That loser? Probably soon. He should be coming today. How I love having another person to look forward to. I have to be there and be nice to him, and cook for him as well. He's probably an asshole for all I know, and no stranger is going to be a friend of mine. You should come with." She muttered, looking at me with a sweet smile while I licked the taste of ice cream that was left over on my lips. " You really want me to come?" I was surprised, usually she likes to think she's tough and handle stuff like that on her own. Sometimes I felt like she hated me, but yet I always seemed to be her support, and her own support. " Come on. I'm not doing that shit by myself. For abit anyways. Just until we met this fucker. Than you can leave after that." She spat on the ground, fixing her long black hair moving it away from her face.
Before I could even respond back, we saw two older guys walking by in the park sipping on things of pop, laughing and walking towards our direction towards the table. " Hey ladies." I heard the opening line while they placed a smile on their face, the one with the wavy blonde hair and the hazel eyes spoke while the dark haired one stood pretty content and quiet. I just swung my feet back and forth and smiled at the thought, but not really caring what they were up to. " Hey beautiful. You shouldn't look so down. How about we do something to cheer you up…" The one guy bent down on one knee underneath Kikyo's hanging head, being as sweet as ever and me the one blushing and happy for her.
" Me beautiful. They got to be kidding…" Kikyo thought to herself while she glanced at the two older guys who weren't bad looking, and me overjoyed and begging her inside to do something with them. After all it had been awhile since she had been around guys, even since her high school years.
" So what do you two say? Sound good to you…?" The guys looked pretty eager, but Kikyo threw his hand away shoving them back and letting them know she wasn't in the mood to be bothered. " If you really want to cheer me up, than get the hell out of here." She muttered hatefully glaring at them, while the guys noticed her reaction and just placed a smaller smile on their faces while I was able to give them a number, while I mouthed back with ' sorry' on her behalf. They just walked away, until we couldn't see them anymore and seeing Kikyo even feeling worse than they called her ' beautiful' when she never saw herself as that.
" Stupid boys. Let's get the hell out of here and go see that loser." She said springing to life for a moment, with her hands jammed into her pockets kicking the dirt up from the ground while I tagged along beside her, and shaking my head about the guys. " She is beautiful. But she's never happy with herself or anyone else." We walked awhile down the street, until we came to her small house like apartment and opened the door roughly.
She just sat in the corner of the elevator dreading the moment, imagining the guy being a big fat pig, with stains all over him something she created in her head. " Thanks for coming with me." She said with a happy tone, until the elevator had stopped and opened the door.
" I don't mind." I smiled back, while we walked in silence down the long hallways until we reached her door as she stuck the rusty key in the door.
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Her mother smiled at the guy while she laid in bed, while he placed all his belongings near the door and looked at her while she had explained about her daughter, and her incident. " That's pretty bad how you threw yourself out. Is that picture of your daughter?" He asked sweetly grasping it and seeing a beautiful young girl, with long midnight colored hair and a smile placed on her face. " Ya that's Kikyo.
"She's actually smiling in that picture." Her mother commented adjusting the blankets as he stood near the blinds feeling the sunlight beating upon him, while he glanced at in amazement and wonder how a beautiful girl, could be so anger and miserable. He felt the exactly way when he was younger. Rebellious , full of attitude and he still kind of was at times.
" Surprises me a girl like her would be so mad at the world." He commented, placing the frame back down on the small table and remembering his childhood for a moment when she explained how her daughter was. Her mother nodded in agreement sipping the water beside her he got for her. " Well she is. She should be coming home shortly."
He nodded and smiled while he slowly drifted off in the other room. " If you need anything just tell me." She nodded with thanks and happiness how much of a gentleman he was, and her hoping she'd be nice about him being here. " To think a girl like her hates the world. Feh, I remember when I did. I hated everybody's guts for being happy when I was miserable. No surprise I didn't get along with people, when I shoved them away. I'm guessing she's exactly the same in many ways.
"How can a girl like her be so miserable when she has mostly everything in life?…I just don't understand… I guess I'm going have to see when she comes….."
Author's Notes:
Well there you go another chapter.
I wanted to add in another part, but I just had to leave it as a cliffhanger for now. So please read and review!
