Hi! I bet you all want a new chapter. Well, I aim to please!
I would have done this earlier, had it not been for several events done in the past week and that Saturday was the start of Mega-May. (Leave me alone to my child-like ways.) But nonetheless, I shall bring more to your enjoyment.
Also, I am doing another story, but I just have one chapter before its finished and I think I might write a story that's original, which means it'll be on FictionPress.com. Also, I am planning to do another story that is part of another category, so this might be slow to update, but I do not plan on leaving it unfinished for like a month or so, don't worry.
Reviewers for the last chapter were Promise, Kingdom*Hearts309, and cassidy dell. Thanks.
Sora, Riku, and anything else related is owned by Disney and SquareSoft.
Also, a very special thanks to Kairi099, who gave me hints on how to beat Ansem/Riku. I beat the first time after I talked to her! ^_^ I was so happy!
And now, to the story.
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Servants, Obey Thy Masters
Chapter Eight: Confession
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It had been three days since Sora decided to scare him by attempting suicide, and he was not all too happy with how Sora was acting at the moment.
When he had first asked Sora why he got the preposterous idea to put a pocket knife into his chest, the heir just laughed and shook it off as if no harm was done. That weak, pale smile bewildered him, yes... but it was that 'What are you talking about' giggle that accompanied it was what made him angry. He couldn't believe Sora thought it was okay to just stab himself whenever he saw fit. It was sort of like the opposite of what Sora kept saying about how wrong it was to hurt someone, physically and mentally. And what had he gone and done!? Almost died by his own hand! And if the heir thought that the action hadn't hurt anyone in any way, shape, or form, then he could just yell furiously into the younger boy's face how wrong he was.
He had hurt him... Hurt his heart. Riku couldn't help but punch the nearby wall with all his might, which left a bruise on his knuckles. His aqua eyes narrowed until they were barely opened slits and he gritted his teeth, baring them as if he were an animal. A small fluster was on his cheeks from the anger he felt towards his prince's actions and he felt solely responsible. Questions he repeated in his mind left him wondering whether or not the reason for Sora's attempt at suicide was based on him or something he had done to hurt the heir. Suddenly, he felt his heart become heavier, and tears welled up in his eyes, feeling guilt and that strange sensation of humiliation. He felt powerless, and weak beyond all else. He probably could have stopped Sora doing what he did if he had just been a little quicker to get to the scene... and now here they both were, Sora napping quietly while Riku fought with his mind and emotions.
Dreams had haunted him even more now of home, and of that sickening sight of crimson on the walls and floor while pooling around Sora's dead body. Each time he dreamt, he saw his home and his mother, calling him home for a storm was coming. He would then look up to see the gray sky of rain clouds through the formidable wind wrapping itself around him and the islands. His hair was toyed with as it waved through the zephyr of oncoming storms. He lowered his head to his mother once more to find her gone, only to be replaced by a dark-hooded figure, the cloak flapping in the wind's fury behind him. The person had his back towards Riku before turning his head to see Riku. The teen would see deep azure eyes stare into his and the small patch of spiked chestnut hair that was not hidden by the hood.
"Sora..."
Then, lightning would strike upon Sora's small figure, causing the heir to bleed and fall to the sand. Then, Riku was surrounded by ebony walls and ceiling while in front of him laid Sora, dying slowly. Blood then dripped down his own body, the point of origin was coming from his hands, as if he had placed his hands into Sora body and by doing so, killed him. This gave Riku the speculation that he was the reason Sora had attempted suicide. And if that were true, Riku wouldn't be able to stand himself again.
'I love you, Sora...'
Then, as if on cue, Sora's eyes would snap open, pupils small and irises big. His mouth would part, and he would whisper those words Riku... the words that filled Riku with false hope;
"I love you, Riku..."
And then the nightmare would end.
It wasn't safe to say that Riku enjoyed the dream. Though, he did life that feeling and thought that maybe Sora felt the same way he did, but the scene where Sora was dying just didn't seem right to say it was 'enjoyable.' So then, after waking up every morning with cold sweat and heavy breathing, Riku decided that maybe Sora had figured things out, no matter how innocent and naïve he acted. Maybe Sora was so... disgusted with Riku that he wanted nothing do with him, yet at the same time he felt sorry that he rejected the elder and then decided suicide was the only way out... but that didn't help at all, now did it?
But if he was the reason for Sora's sudden change... maybe he needed to confront Sora... and say he was sorry.
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"Riku? Why are you so... sad...?"
"What do you mean 'sad'? I'm fine."
Sora was awake now, though still exhausted. He had lost a fair amount of blood from his self-inflicted wound, which meant he would be quite lazy over a period of time, but that also meant more time with Riku. He felt... happy whenever the silver-haired teen was around and each time they locked eyes with one another, Sora felt his breath hitch. He had never noticed before... but there was a glow to Riku's pale skin... a glow that was a soft white and shone brighter than the sun, but then was more seducing in the moonlight. Then his eyes... each shaded color of Riku's eyes held something... celestial, like the purest sapphire known. A gem that was so heavenly, it couldn't be marred by a mortal's love. And though his scars tore at the blanched epidermis, they seemed more like battle scars of a warrior than those given through beatings...
Sora swore that Riku was a fallen angel that Heaven was missing dearly after he saw those features up close... After all, was it not Riku who saved him that night? Isn't that the angels' purpose... to protect and watch over? After that comparison, Sora couldn't help but feel giddy because he had fallen in love with an angel.
"Hey, Sora...?'
Sora turned his attention back to the servant's voice rather than his hypnotic features. "Yes?" he answered quietly, sensing concern in the elder's voice. He tilted his head to the right, showing his curiosity. Riku glanced into those deep oceanic eyes that he cherished so deeply and saw nothing more than worry. He felt a small amount of his burden be taken from him. He could always count on the heir to be understanding of any situation... and that brought a glimpse of hope into his life. Sadly, however, the question he was about to ask had already changed their lives enough to be said once more, and yet it didn't have an answer. So now, it was now or never...
"Why did you try to kill yourself?"
Sora didn't seem too taken aback by the question, but there was a bit of shock embedded into those warm eyes. Sora cocked an eyebrow a few moments later. He then laid back down on the pillows that were behind him and huffed. He knew he couldn't get out of this one, no matter how many lies he used to evade the inquiry of Riku. He sighed, knowing the truth had to be told.
"I did it because you were hurting... and I wanted to hurt with you..."
Sora gazed towards Riku, and saw shock in his eyes. Riku was too stunned to reply. All he could
do was gawk at Sora with his widened eyes. After all that worry and fear, it only turned out to be
Riku's beatings. Although... it was still his fault... All because that night, he had stayed out with Sora too long. Obvious...
Riku just shook his head after the shock had passed and then hung his head with his eyes closed. Unfortunately, that hadn't been a good answer at all. It had just made Riku feel worst.
He had hoped that it wasn't his fault in anyway... but still, he had a major part in Sora's attempt to destroy his own life. Riku once more blamed himself for Sora's attempt, and it made his stomach churn horribly. But for some reason, Riku found an advantage to this.
Sora didn't know that Riku loved him. And then, if he told Sora that he cared for him, maybe Sora would never consider the resort of suicide again. But, then again, Sora might not feel the same way and reject him. And then... everything between them would change...
And then it would definitely be his fault.
Riku just groaned in defeat, repeating all the flirtation that had gone between them in his mind. He remembered all of Sora's blushes and sweet giggles and his own attitude with Sora. He knew that deep inside, telling Sora of his feelings was the best thing to do. And yet... there was still that lingering fear of rejection crawling beneath his skin, waiting to sneer at him for being such a love-struck fool. 'Oh, well... it was now or never,' he thought, hoping the consequences of his confession would be... fair.
"Sora?"
"Yes, Riku?"
Riku shuddered at how... sweet and loving that had sounded. He gulped in embarrassment, feeling heat in his cheeks, the sign of blushing. He gazed at Sora, and their eyes met as Sora gave him a comforting smile. "What is it?" he asked softly, placing a hand on Riku's shoulder after leaning forward to close the distance between them. The connection made Riku stutter and hesitate for a minute or so. He clenched his fist in frustration and then blurted out everything that needed to be said.
"Sora... ever since the day I met you... you charmed me in a way nobody ever has. You were so understanding and you gave me the courage I needed to fend for myself. Though I still get whipped.... I don't care, because I know that you worry about me and in a way... I'm glad to know that I'm loved..."
Riku couldn't help but smile as he saw Sora's warm expression. He knew Sora. Sora had probably seen this before he even spoke a word. The heir was just mysterious like that. Riku opened his mouth to speak once more. "You're like my other half... the half I'm missing. You're sweet, generous, and... so many other wonderful things. And everytime I'm around you... I feel... able to do anything..." Riku took a hold of Sora's other hand and brought up to his lips, kissing the soft skin gently, tickling the heir. Sora giggled at how gentlemen-like Riku had started acting during his speech. "Go on..." Sora insisted, smiling at how this was all turning out. Riku returned the gesture with a grin and moved so he could whisper into the heir's ear. He wrapped his arms around the lithe waist of the prince and pulled the body closer to his. He looked into those eyes filled with love once more and fell into a trance of warmth and sweetness he never wanted to leave.
"In other words... I love you..."
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Ha-ha! I bet you ALL saw that one coming. And we ALL know what Sora's answer to all this will be. Personally, I could have done a better job... but then again...I liked Riku's words at the end.
Ain't it sad though that suicide brings two people closer...? Oh, well. Hope ya'll enjoyed.
Oh, and how do you think of this title for the next chapter:
Suteki Da Ne/ Isn't it Beautiful?
Can anyone guess where I got the title from?
