Kira woke up the next day to find Rei gone. She sat up slowly aching inside. She wiped tears from her eyes. She had been crying in her sleep. She shook her head and wept. She trembled as realizations came crashing down on her. Her hand went instinctively to her abdomen.
"What if?" she murmured to herself her eyes going wide. She buried her face into her pillow.
"Hey," said Rei stepping inside.
Kira looked at him with a tear streaked face.
"I'm taking you to the doctor today," he said quietly.
"No. NO!" said Kira shaking.
Rei sat down beside her. "Why not?"
"I don't want to relive it. I don't want a doctor touching and prodding me," said Kira grabbing Rei's arm.
"Okay, but tell me if anything is wrong," said Rei.
Kira nodded. "Where did you go last night?"
"Out to clear my head. Kira I hate it when you hurt," said Rei wrapping his arms around her.
"Rei, what if I...." Kira trailed off not wanting to say it. She worried that saying it would somehow make it true.
"Kira, I have a lot of what ifs about this. What if you're pregnant? What will happen if you get a disease? What if you won't have children?"
At that point Kira started to cry.
"Shh, listen, if you don't want a doctor then that's okay. I have a friend that works for my dad and she knows rudimentary procedures if you'd be willing to do that," explained Rei moving his fingers through her hair.
"I don't want anyone to touch me there but you," said Kira. Her tears blurred his face from view.
"I'll see what I can do. I cooked breakfast for you," said Rei. He got up and set a tray on the bed.
"Rei, you make the best oatmeal," said Kira attempting to smile.
"Thanks babe. I'll be back in a while," he whispered in her ear. He put on his leather jacket and left.
Kira sighed. She wasn't really hungry. Her stomach already felt like it was rolling. She set the tray aside and went back to sleep. Unfortunately, it wasn't a dreamless sleep.

"Kira, Kira! Wake up, it's me," said Rei shaking her awake.
She hugged him tightly and tried to keep her crying quietly. Rei rocked her gently and she cried softly into his chest.
"Were you having a nightmare?" asked Rei quietly.
Kira nodded. She hated seeing the professor's face. "I hate reliving this."
"Kira, I talked to Naoka, you know, the friend that works for dad? She told me things to look for and watch out for. Kira, I know this is uncomfortable, just lay down a second."
Kira lay back down and closed her eyes. Rei gently moved her legs apart. She felt him feel carefully around. She had a sharp intake of breath. She was sore to the touch.
"Oh my god," said Rei shocked.
"What is it?" asked Kira opening her eyes and staring at him. His face paled visibly.
"It's got yellow in it. It's infected. Kira, can you please see a doctor," asked Rei worriedly.
"No... No," said Kira.
"Then we'll have to cope. I'll be right back," said Rei.
He came back in with a bottle of hydrogen peroxide.
"You aren't thinking?" asked Kira worriedly.
"Better than alcohol," shrugged Rei. "Do you want to do it or..."
"You do it, I wouldn't be able to," said Kira shaking.
He leaned down with a cotton swab. Kira shut her eyes tightly. She gasped. It stung and burned. She whimpered and cried softly trying not to sound weak. She wanted to scream, it hurt so bad. She wished the pain would go away.
"Done," said Rei backing up.
Kira curled into a ball and cried harder.
"I'll rinse it out," said Rei. He took a water bottle and gently squirted it wiping away the blood. "Are you okay?"
"Yes," Kira lied.
"Please go to the doctor, I don't want you suffering like this," said Rei anxiously.
"I'll think about having your friend over," said Kira.
"That's as good as it's gonna get," said Rei softly as he held her.

Kira woke up screaming in the night. She hated reliving it repeatedly. Rei hugged her and tried to soothe her, but nothing seemed to help.
"I wish I could just take the memory and erase it," said Rei.
"Nothing ever works like that," said Kira wiping the tears away.
"Can I bring Naoka over today?" asked Rei.
"I guess," murmured Kira.
"I'll go get her, you try to rest," said Rei changing. He left and Kira heard his motorcycle zip away.
Kira looked in the mirror and saw a dirty looking girl. She wished she could be as pure as the other girls, and didn't understand why this had to happen to her. She closed her eyes and sighed, wishing she could simply disappear.
"Hey Kira," said Rei
Kira sat up surprised. She didn't remember falling asleep, but she supposed she did.
"This is Naoka," said Rei gesturing to a professional woman.
"Nice to meet you Kira. I'll have to run some tests, but I'm sure they'll be quick and painless. Now spread your legs," said Naoka. Even though she was professional she seemed down to earth. Kira wasn't sure she liked her.
Kira blushed as she moved her legs. She felt very uncomfortable having a complete stranger look at her like that.
"Oh dear... Perhaps it won't be as painless as I thought. Just relax," said Naoka.
Kira shut her eyes trying to think of other things. That, however, became quite difficult when a very cold metallic object slipped inside of her. Kira screamed, half from pain and half from fear.
"There, okay, one more test," said Naoka slipping an equally cold object inside. "That's all; I'll be back in a second."
Kira sighed and shut her legs tightly. Rei placed his hand on her forehead and quietly tried to relax her.
"What if everything turns out bad?" asked Kira quietly.
"We can only hope for the best, and we'll get through it," said Rei.
Naoka stepped back inside. "I have good news, and bad news."
"Bad news first," said Kira quietly.
"You're pregnant. The good news is that you don't have any STDs," said Naoka.
"Will she be able to have children?" asked Rei concerned.
"It's too early to tell," said Naoka. "I'll let you have some time alone.
"What are we going to do with the baby?" asked Kira in tears.
"You'll get an abortion, I don't want you to hurt yourself," said Rei solemnly.
"I couldn't, it's a human life," said Kira.
"Damn it, you're a human life," said Rei. "My wife." He looked into the mirror and glared. He punched it causing shards of the mirror to fly throughout the room.