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Chapter 7

It took me a while to get better. My hallucinations got worse, however. But they came in attacks. One minute I could be talking quietly to Fawn or Amber (Brady was told to only visit me once in a while so I could get better), and the next minute I could be screaming at whoever was in the room, and I would be told hours later, I was screaming about Lex, and had said 'The twins are coming!' Over and over. What that meant I did not know. But it worried me. Amber was with me most of the time, and if I was having a fit, I could always see her blurry outline over me, and feel a cold cloth pressing against my forehead. It was about two weeks until I could sleep a whole night without waking from a nightmare.

It was my nightmares that disturbed me most of all. Many of times they were full of blood, and seemed so real I thought I wasn't dreaming. Lex was a frequent visitor in these dreams. The most common ones were simple. Lex would be holding a blood soaked newborn, blood dripping from his eyes... He would always look at me... In a way that shot pain and hurt though my soul. And when ever I reached out to him and the blood soaked child, he would always drop it, and claw at his arms, making more blood spill.
I told Amber about these blood soaked dreams. And it didn't worry her until the night I woke up coughing blood screaming about Monsters inside of me. And no matter what She said, I would not stop screaming about the two monsters that were ripping at me from the inside.

All this blood really scared me. And also the lack of blood. I was sure I was pregnant now. My period was a week late. And I wanted to eat more.

By the third week, I knew I just had to go before memories of what happened drove me even madder then I was.

The day I was to leave the Eco camp was dark and dreary. Lighting flashed though the sky, and thunder rumbled in the distance, making me jump every time I heard it.
Amber was white faced as I paced though my room, making sure everything I wanted in my pack was there.

She was wearing a black hoodie, very UnAmber like. She kept wringing her hands nervously, looking out the window every time there was a flash, and listening to the rain as it pelted down on the roof of my hut.

Brady was walking about the hut wearing a pink raincoat that made her look so sweet that I hated to leave.

Myself, I was dressed for traveling. I wore black jeans, a dark red sweater, and over that I wore a green jacket with a huge hood that would flop over my eyes if I put it on.

Amber jumped about a foot in the air when a loud boom sounded, and Brady clapped her hands happily.

"Must you go today Trudy?" Amber said shakily, staring at Brady, and then at me.

"Yes I must. I need to get to Bane City soon. Before I'm too pregnant to travel." I looked at Brady. I had no worry to think she was listening. She was too happy chirping away as she told Mr. Teddy things only she understood.

I loved her so. She looked so beautiful with her golden blond hair flowing down her back, and the pretty clothes she loved to wear.

Brady didn't think I was leavening.. Not yet. I didn't know how to tell her I was going somewhere without her for a long time.

After about 10 more minutes, I shouldered my pack, and began to nibble on an apple. Brady looked at me and smiled wide.

"Are we going on a walk, Mommy?" She said sweetly, grabbing her water shoes. "When are we going?"

I nearly cried to hear her say such things. She wasn't going to understand. She was going to try to come as well.

I went over to her and knelt to her level, and put the best smile on my face I could.

"Mommy's going away again Brady. Just like when I went to the mall to see uncle Bray."

"Oh then you won't be long then! I remember you came back fast. I'm good at rememembering!" Brady stared cross eyed at her nose and giggled.

I laughed a little and hugged her. "I'm going to be gone a little longer then last time sweetie." I stroked her hair and looked at Amber. "But Auntie Amber and Fawn are going to look after you. And so is everyone else in the tribe."

"Aww, But Mama, I'll miss you terribly!" Brady wined a little and frowned.

"I'll come back as soon as I can I promise Brady." I wanted to sob out. I wasn't going to be back for almost a year, but I couldn't tell this little angel that.

"Oh.. Alright." Brady yawned and stretched. "Will you sing me to sleep one last time? I want to take a nap."

Brady got up and hobbled over to her little bed and lay down, messing the covers on purpose so I would have to cover her.

After I made sure she was conferrable, I sang a soft song that I had made up for her, to comfort her when she was little and was scared of the loud booms of thunder that we got when there were really big storms.

The cries of the winds


The sound of the storm


Don't fret little one for all is norm.


All of the scariness


All of the darkness


All of the rain


Will be gone again


As quick as it came.

My darling my darling


So quiet and meek


Listen to this and do not fret in your sleep.


I'll love you forever and always


You know I will.


All you have to do is love me too.

I sang these verses over and over until Brady's eyes started to droop, and soon she was fast asleep in her happy little dreams.

I sighed and got up and walked over to Amber who had fat tears in her eyes.

"She'll miss you." She said thickly, hugging me close. "I'll miss you too. Please be careful out there. You're still not well.. All these nightmares your having.. And hallucinations! Must you go now?"

"Yes I must. You know that." I looked out the windows of the quiet hut, and saw lighting streak across the black sky. "I am not well like you say. I can't let Brady suffer the hurt of having a half crazy mother about."

Amber nodded after a while and opened the door to my hut and went outside.

I followed her, and shut the hut for one final time for a long time, and stared out at the camp.

The dead fire smoked; the huts looked gloomy in the rain... And the wind whipped though the trees hitting my face.

"I guess it will be pretty different then here in Bane city." I said barely above a whisper.

"It's a beautiful city though.. Wonderful place to have your child if you keep it..." Amber sighed. She knew in her heart I would have to keep the child. I could never kill it.

I looked at Amber and smiled a real smile. "Amber, I'll never forget you."

"I'll never forget you either. And we'll take very good care of Brady. I might even take her to see her cousin baby Bray in the city so she can see her uncle." Amber half smiled.

"Alright… Well… I guess this is goodbye for now." I hugged Amber again, and raised my hood over my deeply dyed purple hair.

"Goodbye Trudy. And good luck." Amber hugged me back, and took a few steps away, as if trying to help me get started.

I adjusted my straps and looked around the camp one final time, and started walking forward.

I told Amber earlier that I was not to look back when I started walking. And I did just that. I kept my eyes forward, and kept the wind to my back, and started heading north East, to my new life in Bane city.