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A/N: All right so I didn't get a review yet for the last chapter. I'm impatient… he he. So, without further ado, the second to last chapter, chapter 14!

Chapter 14

Walking back to White Hospital proved to be somewhat of a chore.

I was weaker then I thought, and adding on the fact my feet were cut and bleeding, the hard, tarred roads felt like the fires of hell underneath me.

I couldn't tell if it was the material of the pajama's I was wearing, or if the air was really as warm as it seemed. Even though I was so hot, I shivered anyways, but felt glad when White Hospital came into view.

For the first time I knew how truly thankful I was for everything that Sadey and her little sister were doing. I was getting really sick of getting hurt so much at this point.

It seemed no matter what I did I would end up waking up in some bed the next day.

When I finally, limping, arrived inside White Hospital, I found that no one was around the entrance hall, but I heard voices floating from a room by the receptionist desk. One was a highly drunken sounding voice and the other was Sadey.

"I was told she was here!" The drunken voice screamed.

I could have sworn I recognized that voice, but… No it couldn't be!

Slowly I crept to the door way and peered in, hiding in the shadows. Sure enough, Sadey was sitting behind a large mahogany desk, and standing in front of her, gripping onto the desk, was a tall, midnight black haired someone. Lex…

"Well too bad." Sadey replied stiffly. "I have no time for a hunt, so kindly leave and try to find her somewhere else."

"I'll find her." Lex said angrily. "Even if I have to rip this place apart brick by brick!"

"I TOLD you! She is not here! For the last time! She's at the casino. Now get out of my sight." Sadey looked up from the documents she was holding, and she stared into Lex's hard cold eyes.

Lex didn't seem happy about this at all. He started to walk away, and as he did, he slammed his fist into the wall.

As he headed to the doorway, I quickly pressed myself into the corner, trying to make it look like I was part of the wall. I actually blessed Fran silently for giving me such dark clothing.

Lex didn't even glace at me as he walked by, and he swayed a little as he walked toward the doorway and out into the night.

It took me a few minutes to regain the will to breath. I slowly began to walk over to the doorway where Sadey was. She was feverishly looking though her papers for something, but I ignored that and spoke up.

"Sadey…" I said this barely over the sound of a whisper.

The next day an announcement was passed out by the people who ran the city that Fran's body had been found brutally cut and stabbed in her sitting room.

The flyers that were passed out were basically a plea for any information on who could have done such a terrible thing.

On the poster there was an account of many people seeing a dark haired man lurking about the casino drinking many drinks about the time of the death that wasn't from Bane city. Three guesses to who I thought that was.

The thought of Lex being a murderer was fresh in my mind for weeks to come. My nightmares continued, and they seemed to be taking over my waking hours as well.

Sadey tried to put me to work, but I was pretty useless, because I'd end up thinking I saw Lex somewhere, and I'd cause destruction to whatever was around me.

Weeks and months became a blur to me. I became bed ridden again, but this time I wasn't aloud privacy at all, and all sharp objects were removed from my room. It felt like my entire grip on reality was slipping, and it didn't matter how hard I held on.

I was vaguely aware of being fed, and I felt myself do other basic needs like take a bath.

However it felt like I was floating; that all of this was happening to someone else. By the time I was 8 months pregnant nothing seemed to exist anymore.

I was me in my own little world, curled up on my bed thinking about Lex and my soon to be born baby.

The only thing out of everything that I did that felt real was when I put my hands on my large belly and thought about what was inside, and what would soon be here. However I had no feeling toward the matter. It was all I knew, but I didn't know if I was happy or glad… I just knew it was going to happen.

It was now some time in the summer. I wasn't aware of what month. I kept my dark soulless looking eyes locked on the window by my bed, pondering what had turned me so insane.

How could all of this have happened, the hallucinations, the pain, the nightmares, the…everything, just because Lex had raped me?

I remember a long time ago after it happened telling myself that I wouldn't let Lex take over my life, and yet that was exactly what he did. It didn't matter now though, none of it did. I had no desire to do anything but stare out of the window, and pray Lex didn't come for me.

A week later, Sadey, or was it Patsy? I didn't really look at them to find out.

One of them came in and said I had a visitor. At first I felt the desire to tell them to tell the person to go away, until I saw who it was.

Amber stood in the doorway of "my" ward. She looked more beautiful then ever. Her Zulu Knots were very small, and dyed a blue green, and she was wearing a very Eco type outfit. She smiled grandly when she spotted me, but her eyes showed much concern, as she looked me over.

"Trudy?" She whispered, her lips trembling.

"Amber…" I said weakly back. This was the first word I had uttered for quite some time.

I almost forgot what my voice sounded like.

Amber's eyes filled with tears, as she looked me over. She walked over to where I sat, and she sat next to me. She seemed to be lost, not knowing what to say or do. "It's been so long…"

"I know." I replied, smiling weakly.

Amber and I spent the next hour catching up with each other.

Life had gone on the same as ever at the Eco camp, and Bray had moved there with Amber so he could be closer to his son.

Brady missed me terribly, but after a while she had just stopped asking for me, thinking she'd never see me again.

The subject of pregnancy came up, and Amber had asked how far along I was.

I told her that today was my ninth month.

Amber went on to tell me that she wanted to come see me months before when Fran's messenger came, but she was delayed because she had to go back to the city to put Lex on trial for Fran's death. Apparently the news traveled fast to the City. Of course Lex had been found innocent, even though there were many witnesses that said he was gone from the mall long enough to come to Bane city and go back.

The topic of Fran brought back all the questions I had for Amber before, and had forgotten.

"Why were you working at the Violet casino Amber?" I asked a moment after Amber mentioned Fran's death.

"Well…" Amber began, sighing. "I guess it all started a year ago. I wanted to run away once from the Eco's because I couldn't take it anymore. Remember that?"

I nodded and she went on.

" Well when I ran away, I accidentally stumbled on this place. Fran found my wandering in the rain and gave me a place to sleep.

She told me that she knew who I was because she knew Bray. She had worked at a Techno camp with him. Fran and I became fast friends.

When she asked me to work at her casino I didn't want to refuse."

She paused and laughed at the shocked look on my face, then kept going. "No don't worry I never stripped for men. I only worked on the bar and walked around as a waitress.

Well after a while I told Fran I had to leave. I came back to visit her a few times, but after a while we just got distant from each other."

I sat for some time later, thinking about all this.

It seemed like way too much information at once. And as the moon light poured into the large bay windows and danced on Amber's face (who was sleeping on the bed next to mine), I wondered what other things Amber had never shared about herself.

When I finally did fall asleep however, yet again I was plagued with nightmares. That was what my life was. A nightmare.

"Lex no, you cannot have him!" Crash! The loud sound of whatever had crashed met my ears, and echoed though my head. When I opened my eyes, I found myself feeling as I once did, and as I looked down I was thin again, and everything seemed as though it was a year ago.

I was in the mall, outside my old room. There were voices erupting from inside, one of course Lex, and strangely, the other one was mine.

I peered into the doorway, not caring if I was seen or not, and I was met with a peculiar scene. I was in the room, clutching a tiny baby boy. I didn't look like me though.

I looked years older, with grays in my hair. I looked cracked, and there were many frown lines around my mouth. I was staring angrily at the person in front of me, Lex.

"Give me that child! HE'S MINE!" Lex bellowed. He looked the same, but he was wearing a black plastic mask over his face. In his left hand he was holding a knife.

He slowly advanced toward me, stabbing the knife in the air. The older version of me backed away from him, and she dropped the baby in her arms. It smashed in a million pieces as though it was made of glass, and this seemed to anger Lex more.

He advanced toward the over version of me in the room, and he thrust his hand forward, the knife entering my stomach.

Even though it was happening to the me in the room, it felt like he had stabbed the real me. My insides screamed with agony as Lex stabbed. I was screaming too, screaming and screaming until I couldn't breath anymore.

Slowly I came back to the land of the living, and realized quickly what was going on as the pain I was in slowly subsided. "Amber Amber!" I screamed out. "I'm going to have my baby!"