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AN: this was up here before except i must of... well i dont know what i did but for some reason i came on here and it was no longer up... anyway its backup now!.

The Price of My Mistakes
By Darks Light

…Kai's POV

I sigh…Tala,

I sit on the boundary wall under the shelter of the trees, the sky is blue and clear yet still the ice-cold wind blows through the trees. The sun maybe shinning but I know that I will always be cold; even in the tropics I would be cold. My heart frozen over with the pain of guilt and I'm caught in a forever lasting winter. I look over the grounds as I have done so many times and still they remain the same, covered with layers and layers of snow that coats the trees, and paths. It's a beautiful site; it makes this place look so deceivingly clean. However, I don't come here to admire the scenery, though that's all I have been able to do lately. He rarely lets you outside with out him doesn't he?

So I sit, and I wait, though I don't even know why; maybe I'm hoping you'd choose to rebel against him, like you did against everyone else who tried to order you around, I'm hoping you'll come out and see me. However, I doubt you will and even if you don't I'll still wait, and I'll still watch.

I don't blame you for the situation I'm in,; I blame myself, for it is my fault that we are how we are now. All the mistakes I have made throughout my past have finally added up and now I'm left with nothing, and that's probably more then I deserve. Death is probably all I deserve. However, I'm in capable, at the moment, of taking my own life, a coward I am, a coward who can put other peoples lives at risk for personal gain yet cant even take his own.

Something catches my attention and I look up to your bedroom window hoping to see you, but I don't; it's Bryan who's standing there glaring at me. He wants me to leave. I know because he approached me early one morning and told me to go, he doesn't care where I go he just wants me to leave you alone; he's worried about you, you know? But I can't go, believe me when I say I've tired to leave you alone because I have, and it worked for a while and I kept trying to tell myself that you would be better off with out me… but I couldn't do it as I want to be with you again, to be able to admire your beauty instead of this plain and lifeless scenery, to feel your hair between my fingers. Most of all I want to be there for you, to protect you and try to right all the wrongs and undo all the mistakes that I have made; I want to make things up to you. However, I doubt I'll ever have the chance with out causing strife between you and the others. That's something I don't want to do, cause you more pain, you who so willingly accepted me no matter how many times I left you; betrayed you.

It hurts for me to remember those times when I was so involved in trying to become the best and gain as much power I could that I forgot who I was hurting. I'm surprised now that what I did could have even sounded like a good idea at the time, though I guess that what most people think when they're stuck looking back at the mistakes they've made. I'm surprised you even kept me as long as you did because looking back it seems I never gave you anything to actually give you a reason to let me stay; but you still kept me in the team. That's one thing I don't understand, why you still kept me… surely after leaving you twice already… I'm not going to write anymore on that; for I'm sure you can clearly picture what I'm talking about.

You're a good person Tala, and you deserved a better partner then I was, someone who could actually appreciate you and encourage you instead of dishing out criticism and a few harsh words with no real truth behind them. You deserve someone who would actually be there for you when you're hurt, I couldn't even do something as simple as that and I regret it.

For now I come and willingly sit out here and wait for a chance to see you. Who knows, maybe the pain of my past mistakes will finally give me the ability to take my own life and then maybe you'll be happy, living during a time when you can barely remember my existence… Do you even know that I'm out here? I think you do, maybe, though I know Bryan's hoping you don't, that you never do. I guess my presence sets him on edge; he's probably worried that history will repeat its self again if I got to close to you again. I cant blame him for thinking like that and I hope you don't as I thought the same thing earlier on in our separation; it was the main thought that managed to keep me away from here, away from you for that period of time as I don't want to hurt you anymore.

I'm going now, where? I don't know… for how long? Well nothing is certain, besides the fact that I'll forever miss you and forever be in dept to you; you've given me so much and taken so little. Maybe I'll come back, maybe I'll actually get to talk to you instead of hiding behind written words or maybe I'll just realise that we weren't supposed to be and find it within in myself to take my own life… the world doesn't need people like me… you don't need someone like me.

Tala, I'm sorry for the hurt I've caused… I just had to let you know how sorry I am; for everything.

Kai.

…Normal POV…

Kai folded the letter and placed it within an envelope with the name Tala printed on it via the use of a computer; he wasn't going to allow Bryan to throw it away just because he recognised his hand writing. Kai took a quick look at the various windows that looked down upon him from the large snow covered building before jumping down onto the street side of the wall. He walked along side the wall before arriving at a silver outlined slot in the wall where he inserted the recently sealed envelope before heading back the way he had come. Looking down at the silver pocket-knife held tightly in one hand, he flicked it open, watching as the blade glistened in the winter sunlight. He closed it again, contemplating on just throwing it away, however, he pocketed it again. Like he had told Tala in his letter; nothing's certain.

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Well there you have it and i hope you've enjoyed it... though this is most likely not the end

Sorry if this seems a bit dodgy, i havnt yet seen the whole of Beyblade G Revolution so this is mainly just based off screen shots seen and episode summaries i've read because G Rev's not scheduled to finish showing here until march! (even then i dont know if they'll actualy show the whole thing because they only showed the first half of V Force! -.-,)