Dear Readers,
Hi everybody, spring is here, and so is chapter 11! I hope all of you are doing okay out there! JUST A WARNING: This chapter is a little sad at the end. Please don't write me flames; my heart can only take so much! Anyways enough of my talk! SPECIAL Thanks to everybody who reviewed chapter 10!
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"Master Skywalker's Secret Admirer"
Chapter 11 – Luke's Spills His Secret
Back In Mara's Apartment…
Luke bent his sandy blonde head, and ever so gently brushed his lips across hers. Mara knew she should push him away; tell him to stop doing this to her, but instead of doing what she should… Mara did what she wanted most! She wrapped her arms around him and enjoyed the moment to the fullest. Luke crushed her against his body, lowering her to the soft sofa and deepened the kiss. They lie there for a long while, just kissing, and enjoying this moment. It only ended when they were forced to come up for air!
Out of breath, but so happy, Luke leaned his forehead on Mara's. Both were smiling with their eyes closed. "You can't tell me you didn't feel that one!" Luke chuckled, making Mara giggle cutely.
"I guess not… Luke, what are we doing? I mean, when did things change so much?" She asked.
"I don't know, we've been friends for so long and you've always been special to me. It's hard to tell." Mara moved, Luke smiled when she didn't pull away from him. Instead she cuddled close him, stayed in his arms, and slightly nuzzled his neck.
"You've got a point there. We've always cared for one another, all these years."
Luke nodded; he couldn't believe how comfortable they were with one another… how right she felt, in his arms.
"Do you really think you need me?" she asked bringing her head up to look him in the eye.
"I know I do, Mara… there isn't a doubt in my mind." He replied seriously.
"Well I am always yanking your butt outta trouble!" Mara smiled serenely even though she was poking fun.
"As I recall, I've 'yanked your butt outta trouble' a few times too." He reminded.
"Yeah yeah!" Mara said flatly, she involuntarily squeaked when Luke pinned her back down on the sofa… with surprising force.
"Give it up Jedi Jade! You're beaten!" He said playfully.
"Never!" She exclaimed, "You can't make me!"
"Oh no?" He asked holding her arms over her head with one hand. "Let's see if this changes your mind." He began to tickle her tummy and she began to laugh hysterically and trying her best to squirm away!
"Stop stop STOP!" She begged.
"Not till you admit it," Luke grinned, barely able to hold on to her.
"Okay okay OKAY OKAY!"
"Yes," Luke asked, finally stopping.
"You Sithspawned, twisted-" He tickled her again and she squirmed and giggled. "FORCE! Okay! We're even, we're EVEN!"
"That's better," Luke said freeing her and kissing down her neck.
With great-effort Mara managed to say, "That's what… you think now." Before he knew what was happening, he was on his back, on the carpeted floor next to the sofa. Mara was on top of him tickling him. He kicked and squirmed, while laughing hysterically, just like Mara had moments ago! He begged for her to stop, but she smiled and yelled over his pleas, "Not till you say you're sorry! Say you're sorry! Come on."
"ALRIGHT, I'm SORRY! PLEASE STOP!"
Mara stopped tickling him and smoothed his hair down, "Good boy!"
He wrapped his arms around her tight, "You're something, ya know!"
"I know," she smiled as Luke pulled her into another kiss. Mara couldn't believe they were actually doing this. Being cute, kissing, snuggling, it was what she'd always dreamed of. She allowed him to kiss her, sweetly for a moment. Then a thought struck her, and she pulled away a little. "Wait a minute, what about your admirer?"
"Huh?" Luke asked still a little dazed from their latest kiss.
"Your secret admirer, I though you were in love with her? Did you give up on her?" She asked sitting up, Luke chuckled a little. "What?"
"Nothing, I haven't given up on her." Luke smiled, sitting up with her in his lap. "She's right here."
"What?" Mara asked truly playing her part to the end. "What are you getting at?"
"She's you, Mara." Luke explained, "My admirer was you all along."
"You think it was me?" She asked.
"I know, it was you." He replied with confidence.
"I see, and what outstanding evidence have you to show for this accusation?" Mara asked not believing he knew for sure.
"The night I was supposed to meet her in the park, and Calli ruined it. I came here and you were sick, so I put you to bed-"
"Yeah, I remember that part, but what gave you the idea I am your admirer?" She asked, knowing he had a tendency to ramble on.
"Well anyways, when I was about to go to bed, I walked around and switched all of your lights off. When I checked the living area, you'd left out the stationary you used, the dress, the flower, and even some ruff drafts of letters." Luke explained, Mara was speechless, that explained a lot. She knew she couldn't remember stashing that stuff before he came in.
"So you've known, all of this time?" She asked quietly, her confusion clearly shown.
"Yeah," he admitted.
"Okay, so why didn't you tell me?" Mara asked, in a confused tone of voice. "Why didn't you let me know?"
"Why didn't you tell me you cared so much? Why did you have to be so secretive? We could have been together years ago."
"When between Gabriel and Callista?" Mara asked her temper beginning to show.
"That's not fair-"
"You're right, it's incredibly unfair! Every time I turned around, you were with someone else. What was I supposed to do?"
"Mara, if you had given me, the slightest hint, that you liked me at all… None of them would have had a chance." Luke said sincerely.
"Oh that is crap!" Mara said standing up. "When you were with those women, ANY of them, I didn't exist. You only had eyes for them."
"Mara-" Luke stood up, trying to butt in.
"At least I had a good reason for being secretive! But you, I know what you were doing. Boy, am I on to you." Mara said smoothly, her eyes flashed dangerously. "You didn't like it, that I kept secret like this from you. So you decide to get even with me, and make me believe you actually care-"
"I do care, Mara-"
"Then why didn't you tell me?" she asked the pain heard in her voice, and clearly written on her face.
"When I first found out about this you were sick. And my only objective that night, was to take care of you. When you woke up with a fever, I ended up staying awake most of the night and that gave me time to think. Yes, I wanted to teach you not to hide thing, like this, from me. But I would never hurt you to do so." Luke said gripping her shoulders.
Mara stared into his eyes for a moment or two; she knew what he was doing. The very thing she'd feared most. He was willing to pretend he cared, just so he wouldn't hurt her. "You already have." She finally said, she held on to her forehead and said quietly, "Get out, Luke."
"What?"
"Get outta here, go home. I can't deal with this right now, I need time to think, just-just… go away, please."
"No."
"Luke, I mean it, if you don't get out of here right now. I'll say or do something we'll both regret…" Mara said tears gathering in her eyes. "Please… just go." She begged.
So with a heavy heart, Luke Skywalker did as he was asked. He slipped back into his boots and folded his still drying clothes over his arm. As he walked towards the door, tears gathered in his own eyes, and just before he left the apartment… He could hear Mara's sods. He wanted to run to her, pull her in his arms and cry his heart our right along with her. But like she said, either one of them might say or do something they regret. So without another word, Luke stepped out of the apartment and into the darkened hallway. It looked to be a long, lonelynight for both of our heroes.
I know, it's heart wrenching to read, but she had to know. PLEASE HANG IN THERE, Happy days are ahead, I promise it gets so much better! I'm working on the next chapter right now, trying to get it up quickly! Please write in and let me know what you think, I love hearing from all of you and have no life… really, you laugh, but it's true! I hope everyone liked it and I promise chapter 12 will be up soon! THANKS AGAIN everyone for reading and writing in for chapter 10! I Love you all, till next time, TTFN!
-SailorLeia
