This chapter is in Jesse… ive never written in a guys pov before, so I don't know how this will be… sorry if it's really bad

O well, read, and hopefully enjoy… and if you feel so inclined, please review! It would be much appreciated! I love reading your reviews and it gives my the kick to write more, just this morning I was like…bleh (but I guess I had to go to work, so I was a bit annoyed anyways) then when I got home, I logged on and voila! Reviews!!!… I was like… "aww thass so sweet, I'm gunna go write anuther chappy" and so I did!

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(Jesse POV)

I left my dear, sweet Susannah lying on our bed and went out into the hall. After I convinced Audrey that Susannah was fine, I then led her out to the kitchen where Anamarie was already waiting at the table to be fed. After serving them their slightly over-cooked macaroni, I washed out the dishes, putting the left-overs into a container and storing them in the fridge then went to take my seat at our antique dining table.

"Daddy, why aren't you eating anything" Anamarie asked me then Audrey innocently piped in with "Yeah daddy… don't you want to grow up big and strong?" I laughed at the way my children were already using my words against me. "Yes loves, I'm going to eat something" I answered as I got up from the table and grabbed a fresh apple off our fruit rack.

The girls giggled to each other as I took a bite and I turned to them, "what?" I asked playfully. Audrey just smiled and looked at her sister "Nothing daddy… nothing at all" then they started giggling again. I just turned away as I continued to chew on my apple… and even though these were considered the finest apples around, I really wasn't able to enjoy it. How could I possibly, knowing that Susannah is right now suffering. I truly felt helpless.

Suddenly loosing my appetite, I threw my half eaten apple into the trash and headed over to clean up the plates of two girls who seemed to have mysteriously disappeared now that there was cleaning to be done.

I took longer than usual cleaning up the tea I guess, I really didn't want to have to get back to Susannah anytime soon. And yes, I know that sounds horrible, but it's not because I'm a selfish person who doesn't like being around people who aren't well. No, not at all… it's that there is nothing I can do to help her, and I can't really grip the gravity of what she's feeling, so I'm just lost.

The thing that pains me the most though, is that it's partially my fault what she's going through, because if I hadn't gotten her pregnant, then she wouldn't be in any pain whatsoever.

Finally giving in, I finished up the cleaning and went upstairs to put the girls to sleep. I bathed them and watched them as they tried to beat each other at brushing their teeth ("I can get my teeth whiter than yours!"). I then tucked them into bed and headed back down to the room Susannah and I share.

Quiet as ever, I opened our door to see my love sleeping soundly in our bed, so I readied myself for bed and cautiously slid under the covers as not to wake her.

I didn't succeed though, the next thing I knew, she was stirring beside me and I heard her mumble something. "What is it queirda… are you feeling better?" I asked through the silence. "No Jesse… I don't know what's wrong" she said as she started to cry. I held her close and enclosed her pregnant form in mine. "It will be ok love, we will get through this." "I know Jesse… I love you" she gently whispered into my ear. "I love you to Susannah" I returned.

I then reached over and stroked her beautiful face ever so gently and kissed her gorgeous lips… not aware that it may have been the last time I ever did so.

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Ok, that's it for this time, I'm off to watch sum TV!

BTW: I own nothing of the mediator, it all belongs to meg (who, I don't think I have to mention, but still will… is god)

Thanks for reading guys, you's rock! And not like those pointy-hurty rocks that I throw at people either… the good kind of rocks, like you'd have for a pet pats fluffly the rock

Catch yas later!

Meg