A/N: Yeah sorry for the delay and the short chappy but homework is just piling up thank you all. HAHAHAHA. Please read on.
Gravitation
Disease of the mind
Shadow...
It was now four in the morning. K was passed out on the couch with about seven cans of beer around him. I watched as the moon washed over his face. His hair blew in a light breeze and he mumbled something. My body tensed as he moved. His arm he rested over his head lifting the bottom of his shirt up. His pure skin illuminated by the night. I took a sharp breath in as I saw the curves of a six pack in work. His chest heaved lightly as he breathed. His lips parted softly as a small grunt left his throat. I saw the glint of metal and an evil smirk met my features.
I got up from my seat by the window and moved quietly to the sleeping K. I lightly lifted up his shirt and placing my hand over it pulled at his gun. My fingers skimmed his stomach and we both moaned. I kept mine quiet but since K was asleep he couldn't very well hide it. His moan rolled off his tongue causing my ears to pain. If only I could hear that sound once more.
I let go of the gun quickly and jumped back landing on the carpet hard. I saw his eyes open slowly, reflecting the moon beautifully. The blue had turned to an icy color. Though the color was cold there still held warmth. His eyes swam with shades of deep-sea blue yet bits of light morning sky drifted through them. It wasn't until now that I had realized he was looking at me. His lips were in a lazy smile. I had a feeling he knew something I didn't. I watched as he sat up. His hair drifted behind him. I saw him move his hands to his shirt and he pulled it off. All alarms were telling me to look away but I couldn't tear my eyes away. I kept my eyes steady on him.
He threw his shirt to the floor and looking back at me winked and dropped his gun to the floor. I gulped loudly as I watched his muscles flex then unflex. He lay back down his eyes now meeting mine full on. He trailed a finger down his body. He licked the tip and slid it down his neck. He skimmed it over his chest. He ran it over his stomach and ghosted it over the material covering his erection. He arched his back at this and a sharp moan escaped his trembling lips. My breath was coming in short pants and I knew I needed him. I leaned forward then began to crawl over to him. I was sweating and I hadn't even done anything yet.
His eyes were blazing, cold fire melting into pools of blue death. I didn't know if it was the beer, my recent break up, or if I was actually attracted to him but at that moment all I wanted was him. My face was now mere inches from his. Are breath intermingled. Sweet honey drops mixing with spicy ginger. My hunger wasn't only for release or for the man in front of me but it was also for someone to hold me, someone who wanted me.
I moved closer breathing in the smell of hot lust. The smell of gentle wanting. My breath hitched as I felt the faint brush of his lips across mine. I wanted him to kiss me. I wanted him to feel me. I starred straight into his eyes and then with out a warning I heard a faint 'click'. I froze as I felt the cold metal resting on my temple. My breathing stopped and I starred at still lust filled eyes. Then he began to speak.
"What did I say Hiroshi none of that." He let the gun drop and looking to his left laughed and whispered "you know I'm not like that." I felt my heart beat begin to die each breath became harder to make and I felt as if I would cry. I didn't know why but it hurt me for him to say that.
I plopped down on the floor in front of K and throwing my hand behind my head scratched it nervously.
"You know I didn't mean it. I leaned back and propping myself up on my elbows took along swig of his beer." I began to cough and suddenly he was right in front of me. He held the beer with one hand and the back of my head with the other. He laughed briefly and then looking back at me seriously said
"Are you gong to be ok Hiro." His eyes were intense. It spilled warmth into my body and I nodded in order to answer the question. I coughed softly and he let go of me. He picked the beer up and putting it on the table laughed.
"That was my screech I get it imported in from Canada. Actually more specifically Newfoundland. (A/N: Most peeps think it is Newfie but really it is just diluted Jamaican rum.) You don't want it you will get wasted way to fast." I gave him a stupid look and grabbing the bottle teased
"And your not?" His eyes locked with mine and he whispered
"What makes you think that?" He was mocking me and I would not take it.
"If you weren't wasted you wouldn't have done what you did when you woke up." He gave me a teasing smirk and whispered
"Maybe I would have..." My head swarmed with thoughts of him wanting me and I gulped down a large amount of the "liquid K" as I put it Dangerous yet tantalizing. Ten minutes later
before I know it I was lying on the carpet with him straddling my hips. His heat felt delicious against me. I felt him shift and looking at him slurred.
(For anyone who doesn't speak drunk I will translate what Hiro says)
"Wader ya doon?" – what are you doing?- He leaned close to me and whispered.
"Getting closer to you." My heat rose and I moaned as I felt his breath touch my lips.
"Why?" I felt him shift his eyes lower and he mumbled
"Why don't you ask me why I have been calling you Hiro? Or have you not noticed?" I huffed loudly and spoke.
"Yur wird." (Your weird) His breath rolled across my cheek.
"Maybe I'm just intoxicated by you."
"I tha uo wernthat way." (I thought you weren't that way.) His lips formed to each word sensually making me wish I hadn't asked that question. He lingered each spoken word just the right way. He made my body hurt just by looking at me.
"Maybe I lied." His breath lingered against my lips making me kiss the air. Longing circled every inch of my interior. My blood clotting in one certain area. I fought to keep my constricting garments on. Each breath taking a millennia to achieve.
"Why?" I was able to form one word now. His nose brushed along mine. His hair slid up my ear chill's screamed up my spine and I moaned against my better judgment.
"Because I have wanted you for so long Hiro...Hiro...I like calling you that...its more...intimate." His eyes were clouded over. So many emotions mixing into one big one. I felt him move closer to me. All time seemed to stand still as I starred into his soft face. So many things about it I had never noticed. The fine movement of his soft lips each impression. His hair held the colors of summer the color of a warm day melting into the evening.
Was I doing the exact thing Shuichi had done? Was I only seeing the part of K I wanted to because he is here? No one else came looking for me. No one else wanted me back. It was he. Someone wanted me. Someone didn't want to see me hurt.
I could see the unshed tears in his eyes his soul pounding to get out. Bound by the shackles his small sanity held on it. He wanted to be free. He wanted to show himself to her. He wanted to open up and give her everything and she tore it away. I was there now and I would return this, this part of him bound inside. Being hidden behind a vale of laughter and alcohol. Had I missed this? Everything about him that screamed sadness...depression. I must have.
It surprised me how the most uncommon people felt these emotions. The ones you expect to be happy and gentle are really sad and violent. They are the ones that when you don't see them are crying.
This was K. I saw him laughing making jokes of everything. But when we are alone he is sad and lonely and oh so gentle. He wasn't just my manager he was my friend.
My fingers slipped to the back of his neck as he closed the distance. I press my hot wet lips against his. I breathed heavily my world spinning out of control letting me know I wasn't just dreaming, or was it informing me that I was. My body reacted just as my lips. Revealing parts of my sexuality I wasn't aware of. Actually come to think of it when had I ever shown any interest in men? I had always teased Shuichi about his homosexuality but maybe I only did that because I was afraid of the truth I was afraid to admit that I myself was interested in men.
Suddenly everything made sense. The only reason I had such a sad look on Shuichi and Yuki's relationship was because I myself liked Shuichi. That still didn't explain something though. Why was I kissing K. why was I kissing a man up until now I had found utterly annoying? Could it have been that I just never saw the good parts of K. His humor, His strength, His Intelligence, and most of all his well...size.
I wrapped my arms around his neck and moaning loudly whispered.
"Shuichi..." I felt him pull away and then suddenly he was gone. He was sitting where I had recently vacated. I stumbled upon my elbows and starred at him hard. He looked away toward the window and I couldn't see why he had pulled away. I fought over weather I should get up or not but the sheer thought of moving sickened me at the moment.
"You should get to sleep. We have a long day tomorrow." I would have protested if I hadn't seen that glint in his eyes...no not the evil one...far from the evil one. This one was sad almost like he was going to cry...or maybe...he was already. I inhaled hard at this thought.
I plopped back down on my back and stared at the ceiling all thoughts of that night blurring into one giant nightmare. Yet it felt like a dream. It felt to sweet to be a nightmare but to terrible to be a dream. My mind spun how could I put it all in order. Everything felt so out of order. My mind as messy as a gas station washroom.
"Aren't you going to sleep on the bed Hiroshi?" I looked gently at him confused completely. He was calling me Hiroshi again...why was this? I thought he liked calling me Hiro.
"Naw like thfler." (Naw I like the floor.) He huffed angrily and chuckling softly mumbled
"You can't get up can you?" I shot him a shocked look and yelled as best I could in my current position.
"mmm I can!" He laughed louder this time and said
"Hey you formed somewhat a sentence there." I laughed sarcastically and banged my head off the floor. I heard him sigh sadly and looking toward him coughed out.
"Whasup" It came out slurred and I sounded more like I was trying to pull off slang of some sort.
"Hiroshi...since I know you will not remember I want you to at least hear it...I've loved you since day one I've just been so emotionally unattached from you. I was afraid of what we could become. I seem sometimes to have a heart of stone once it comes to this stuff. I can't exactly explain it but I just get so cold. It's hard to open up." I couldn't help it and found myself crawling over to him. I placed my elbows on his thighs and starring into his deep blue eyes I whispered.
"But hearts of stone are notoriously more demanding of loves comforts then the other kind." With this I traced my fingers over his lips gently running them under his chin. I kept eye contact and waited for his response. Something changed in his eyes at that moment and I felt compelled to hold him but just as I was about to move he began to talk.
"But I will have to wait a long time before I can find someone that devoting. To spend such time on a selfish heart such as mine." He had that look again but this time my world began to spin again and everything went black.
Authors POV
Hiro was passed out his head lying softly on K's lap. K stroked the soft locks and tangled his fingers in it. His lips softly beginning to move as he spoke.
"Your not devoted to me Hiro-kun it is Shuichi you are devoted to...to take you as mine would be selfish...that would only feed my selfishness. That is why tomorrow I will forget this or more like you will forget this and I will sit here knowing what happened tonight but I will not tell you I remember nor will I tell anyone else for that would only be wishful thinking on my part." He sits here tonight holding Hiro tears unshed sparkling in his eyes because he knows tomorrow Hiro will forget him again and he will be yet again in the shadows.
A/N: AAAAAWWWWWW that was so sweet even I have to say that hahahah. I am so weird yeah well with out further ado here are the responses.
Chapter responses:
Lexers: No I don't think you mentioned his hair lol. Really he is the hottest character. I don't know why they pair them but did I really ever say for sure I was going to pair those two?Eitriarch: We all no he was meant to be gay hahahaha. He is so hot hahah. I'm glad it made your day. It's a huge compliment.
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A/N: Well that's my chappy R&R
