Disclaimer: I do not own gravi I wish everyday but it just doesn't happen I don't know why.

A/N: Wow I found out through my reviews that some peeps actually read this part hahaha. I wrote I wrote. I am so glad I am getting such good reviews for this story. Well I need to get going but I hope you enjoy this chappy and for heavens sake why don't you guys just add me to your Author alert it keeps you from having to keep checking. Anyway gotta run. Nites. This chappy is bigger!

Disease of the mind

Bloody heart

I woke up the bright sun shining in my eyes. Every muscle in my body hurt like a bitch and I struggled to keep my head from spinning off. I was trying to gather all my thoughts. Was last night a dream?

My fingers slipped to the back of his neck as he closed the distance. I press my hot wet lips against his. I breathed heavily my world spinning out of control letting me know I wasn't just dreaming, or was it informing me that I was. My body reacted just as my lips. Revealing parts of my sexuality I wasn't aware of.

I had dreamt of being with Shuichi before but never K. Being with K was like being with Yuki its just wrong. But the whole dream was so realistic every bit of it scaring me. especially near the ending.

"Hiroshi...since I know you will not remember I want you to at least hear it...I've loved you since day one I've just been so emotionally unattached from you. I was afraid of what we could become. I seem sometimes to have a heart of stone once it comes to this stuff. I can't exactly explain it but I just get so cold. It's hard to open up." I couldn't help it and found myself crawling over to him. I placed my elbows on his thighs and starring into his deep blue eyes I whispered.

"But hearts of stone are notoriously more demanding of loves comforts then the other kind."

Could that have all been real? I opened my eyes and found a glass infront of my vision. I blinked once and noticed someone was holding a glass over my face. I grabbed a hold and once I moved it and realized it was...K. I stumbled up and fell forward. I was in his arms now and I looked into his eyes warmly then standing heard him say.

"Your door was open so I came in this morning and found you on the floor. I cleaned your mess up and waited for you to wake as I got a shower." I stood there stund and closing my mouth asked.

"So when did you get here?" He rubbed his head nervously and laughed.

"Oh about six this morning." I let out a small huff and walked toward the bed sitting down.

"Oh...I see." He leaned down and picking up the glass refilled it and passed it to me.

"Here drink this and take some Tylenol it will ease the pain." I grabbed the glass and small capsule from him and gulping down the glass. Heard the faint sound of a trigger.

"Ok now that you have taken that lets get in the car and to the rehearsal."

About ten minutes later we sat in his car. He had the radio blasting and he was singing happily along to one of our hit songs. I drowned out the music and sat starring out my window. All day my dream was running through my head. Stupid disgusting dream. To think this idiot would be so deep. Yeah he's about as deep as a kiddy pool. I looked back at the happy man and starred through him. It was simple I was disgusted...who could think this way about him. Who could be attracted to him?

He looked like he hadn't slept for days. He was probably up all night trying to bum sex off his wife. I was surprised she hadn't left him already. I shunned myself for thinking that. I was annoyed with the man but I had no right to say things like this no matter how true it was.

The car pulled into a parking lot and I stepped out. I still had a slight headacke so the light reflecting off the ground was blinding. We stepped into the building and suddenly I was tackeled by a small fluffy pink thing

"Shuichi!" He was on top of me his small legs strattling mine. Suddenly flashes of my dream popped into my head.

I...I...I...liked...Shuichi" I looked back at him. His legs were warming my body his. I could feel him rubbing against me and kept a moan in. His hair framed his face delicately...beautifully...his small shirt showed off his navel. My body was burning up. The formation of his newly acquired muscles glistened with sweat...he must have been practicing before I got there. His eye glowed with a gentle loving look. His lips were in a small pout and I wanted to claim them with mine.

He wore a sweater with the sleeves torn off, A pair of long cargo shorts and his usual runners. Even though this was his normal outfit I still found it irresistible. I wondered what lay under the clothing but held back my urge. Suddenly I clued back in and heard K speaking.

"Come on Shuichi Hiro doesn't want to go to one of Yuki's signings with you. I saw the sad look on Shuichi's face and jumping up yelled.

"K you must not know me of course I would like to." I turned to Shuichi and giving him a thumbs up excitedly winked. A bright smile graced his face and he happily.

"Ok then it a date." He hugged me tightly then running off yelled "Come on then we need to practice." I smiled shyly and letting the blush seep through followed him coolly. I couldn't let my reputation be ruined. I saw a sad look on K's face and for a split second felt bad for him. I didn't know why but for some reason I felt like his sadness was because of me. I burshed this off and walking into the practise room through on my guitar and began to play some cords from the night before. I hadn't noticed the others in the middle of another song and before I knew it I was playing a whole new song singing it too.

My life perfect

Dreams not needed

World completed

Each thought reminiscent of you

Gone with the wind are the things you'd do

I was sick to speak again

Then you began

I should've known

Turn away

Make her think your not hurtin

The blood flowing through your veins

blood is not cold

Drive the world away slip away

I wasn't betrayed

My life perfect

Dreams not needed

World completed

Was all I thought of...

Then...

When I was alone

Kept striving

to keep living

so that in the ending

Im not lonely

And I'll keep finishing

I saw the look those eyes held

Not the look which I once held

But one that's lasted

Cast a spell

Kept me dreaming

I still need you...

My life not perfect...

Dreams needed...

World still incomplete...

Was that all I thought of...

Then...

I ended the song there. My eyelids still squeezed shut. I opened them softly and starred into the eyes of a few very astonished workers. My face tinted with a light blush and I covered it with my hair as I bent over and picked up my pick.

"So what are we all waiting for lets get practicing already?" They still starred so I gave them an angry glare and yelled "What is the problem." I heard footsteps behind me and spinning around realized it was K. He leaned on the wall behind me and said

"What is that song titled Hiroshi?" I gave him a stupid look and spinning back around whispered

"None of your business." I heard a soft cough and he again said

"Hiroshi what is it titled?" I began to tune my guitar quietly and didn't answer. He acted like I was his frigen child. I would not just listen to him because he had a little old gun. I expected it to be out right about now but instead he just...talked.

"Hiro..." a shocked look crept on to my face as he sternly used my nickname. I felt like I had heard him use it before but I knew he didn't use it...he felt it was to intimate...idiot. so I was just being stupid. I again ignored him as I began to play a few cords quietly. I guess I had upset him because the tension in the room built to the bursting point.

"Nakano!..." I sat there frozen for a few minutes as the sound of my name echoed off the walls and through out my head. I set my guitar down on the floor as I began to get up. It was silent through the whole room as I walked toward K.

Left foot...right foot...left foot...

The clock ticked down louder than the sound of my feet hitting the floor.

I stopped a meter away from him and looking at the tiled floor I whispered

"Stupid BASTARD!" I moved my arm back starring at him heatedly as I threw my fist into his jaw. I watched the blood splatter against the wall beside him as he sunk to the floor. I rubbed my hand and turning around mumbled. "Don't let me EVER here you call me THAT again..." I then walked out of the room and into the elevator.

Authors POV

A broken heart lay bloody on the floor leaning against a wall. His feelings torn out and strewn across an empty room. No one there to help him pick up the pieces for he is all by himself and forever will stay that way. Alone and bloody.

Chapter Responses

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Eitriarch: Thankyou so much I have never had someone actually quote my story. You are such a sweet heart. It was Hiro who was drunk luv. K was buzzed he just likes to not admit it. Its ok that you just started reading this fanfiction I only started reading Gravi this year. As for the quote I put it in becuz I take it from my own personal experiences. That line is straight from my heart I do believe that.

Zoey Lives: Well unfortunately he does. Please don't cry luv I promise everything will work out for the best. It's my story of course it will. May I ask where you got your name?

Lady Insomnia: Yes he is a poor soul. Its ok that you cant think of anything to say. just the fact that you reviewed has made my day. Judging by your name I am guessing you wont review again since you are lady insomnia. Lol Jokes.

Sesaru: Well...I am thinking millions apon millions of years. That's how long I get to take before I update. You want more? Wow someone's a lil randy hahahahah sorry if you know me at all I am quite the hentai so I may scare you once in a while. Have I dirtied your virgin ears? Hmmmmmm...A stalker...that sounds like fun. Okay...okay here I wrote more you happy...I dun mind a visitor winks Oh before I leave feel free to add me to your MSN you interest me lil one hahaha. Im scary hahah.

LittleMissYaoi: Thank you that is very nice of you to say. AWWWW you luv it that much I am honored. Yes I feel bad for K too. Im so mean. Don't worry luv he somewhat remembered something. Yes I liked the shirt part to but my fave part was when Hiro looks into K's eyes and describes them. I am so happy you read my authors note. I didn't think anyone read those things lol. Byes.

Guren: I have written more YAY well that's what happened next lol.

A/N: Well that was the chappy. Now I have a proposal for those who actually read my Author Notes. I will give unreleased info on one of the characters past that will tie in strongly with the story. For the first person to answer correctly I will give the info and for the people who guess write after I will give hints. I like to do these things and if a lot of people try to answer I will do another in the near future. Now the question is.

Q: Who was I talking about in the last paragraph? (The one about the bloody heart)

R&R