Disclaimer: I don't own Gravitation...but I do own the boys soul's lol.
A/N: WOW I think I have stolen all the sweet reviewers and made them read my story. You guys are the sweetest things I have ever met. Hey if there's any cute reviewers out there who live in Canada email me up lol. Yup yup some hot chicks for me (winks)...jokes. I only wish I could hook up with chicks in real life as sweet as you guys but I might get a cavity lol. Well I g2g sorry for posting so late but I am all thrown off my posting schedule. Don't worry I will clear it all up. I luv you all.
Gravitation
Disease of the mind
A past haunted
I need to make him understand that I'm not trying to insult him. I plaster a soft smile on my face and whisper...
"It's not so much...a problem as...its startling..." I can see the confusion in his eyes and feel horror creep up my spine...
He wont understand, he wont feel the same...he'll hate me after he finds out.
"Hiro...I don't know what you mean..." I let his hand drop slowly and finally working up the nerve, I stand and walk back to the window. I'm sorry I was startled I thought I saw something outside. I can feel him stand and turn around.
"I'm sorry for scaring you I just have been a little jumpy lately...you know how it gets...being a celebrity and all." He smile's timidly something I don't see a lot and he sighs.
"Yes I know the feeling...in a way...I guess I should be going then...if you have nothing more you would like to say." I begin to open my mouth then think it over.
"No I'm okay...thank you." I see something-sad flash across his face then he leaves closing the door behind him. I stare back out the window. Now I have a new love to hide...my love for the one I once hated...my love for K...
K POV
I close the door, my hopes have crashed to the floor. I see something out of the corner of my eye...its pink. Suddenly someone is encircling my body. I look down and sure enough it is Shuichi. I pry him off me and a few moments later we are in a small coffee shop.
"Why were you at Hiro's K?" I gulp my coffee loudly and placing the gray mug onto the clean dinner table whisper.
"I tried to apologize about calling him by his last name." I feel Shuichi's gaze fall and shoot my head up. He knows something! I can feel it and it has to do with Hiro. I place my hand quickly onto his and starring at him pleading I ask
"what do you know Shuichi? Please tell me I need to know..." He looks back up at me with trembling sorrow in his eyes. Then it changes to determination.
"First K tell me one thing." I am taken back but am determined to know what he knows
"Shoot!" He grabs my hand and giving it a tight squeeze says
"You have to answer honestly or I wont tell you." I grow impatient and yell
"Okay! Okay! I'll answer honestly now ask me already! I promise."
"Do you like Hiro?" I am caught off guard but I promised I would answer honestly and that's what I will do.
"Yes...I do Shuichi, very much so. I will go as far as to say I love him." He pulls his hand away and putting it in his lap mumbles.
"You can't! Hiro loves one man and one man alone; He always has and will never change his mind. He may not realize butt his heart will always remain with his true love." I am thrown and assume this is what he wanted to tell me.
"When Hiro was a child he wasn't...normal..." His story caught me and I felt as if I were there. Right in the current moment in time.
Hiro spent most of his life in an orphanage. His parents died in an accident...well a supposed accident. They were found contorted in their car off a high way. Hiro's infant body was lying a few meters away in the mud. It was odd though he was perfectly clean. There was no sign of him being thrown out. He looked as if he was placed there.
The authorities placed him in the care of his godparents. Soon after he moved in odd things began to occur, Break-ins, accidents. Anything you name it, it happened. After a few more accidents they two were found dead. It was suspected by the detectives that her husband went insane shot her and then himself, though everything pointed to that most of the family suspected him of it.
They said he was a demon child. That he conspired against anyone who took care of him. He was passed from each family member but he only lasted at most three-month's. Things would happen that no one could explain other then to blame the child. So this is where he ended up in the institute. He hated the world and so took it out on other children, soon he had no friends.
Then... Klistelle arrived. His parents had been overdosing on drugs and so he was taken away. He shared a dark passed, which Hiro could relate to. Hiro wouldn't admit it though, He couldn't but he knew it. Klistelle had penetrated every hateful layer Hiro had. Every barrier Hiro would put up Klistelle would break it down. With small things, such as gifts, sticking up for him, even smiles would make Hiro happy. At the age of 12 Hiro tried to distance himself, He tried anything to get away from him. He even resorted to hurting Klistelle to make him angry with Hiro but it didn't work. Klistelle would just smile and make a joke.
This was about the time where Hiro began to get angry. If someone talked to Klistelle he would yell. He would beat people up for touching Klistelle. This is also when the reverend started watching him closely. He thought he was going down a dark road of satanic beliefs. Hiro was 15 when everything broke down. His world was set on fire.
He was studying in the library one dark afternoon just before dinner. He was usually at the library he preferred to be there then outside hanging with the other teens. He was about to call it a night when he saw Klistelle checking out a book. He tried to keep hidden but as soon as Klistelle turned around he waved and yelled to Hiro. He walked over to Hiro and sat down beside him started a light conversation.
Klistelle laughed at a small joke he had made and put a hand on Hiro's leg. Just then the librarian walked up and said to Hiro
"Here Hiro I can trust you with the key. I'm heading out for the night can you lock up?" Hiro nodded to the librarian and she winked and walked out. Hiro pocketed the small key and began to put his books away. He slipped his last book in his bag but felt something poke his shoulder. He turned around and found a very flushed Klistelle.
"umm Hiro I wanted to thank you for sticking by me when those kids were beating on Suzanne I feel bad for the girl. I think she looks quite becoming in those new braces." His blush became brighter and Hiro's heart sunk.
"It's ok I think she looks nice in them too." He looked passively at a notebook and then looked back into Klistelle's eyes he asked. "Umm...uh Klistelle...do you like Suzanne?" The question was hard for him to ask and his whole body shook with terror at the answer. Klistelle smiled brightly again and he whispered
"I have a secret...she's not my type." Hiro put two and two together and his heart leaped to his throat. The smile on Klistelle's lips sealed it and Hiro did what naturally came to him. The one thing he felt was right to do. He dropped his bag and leaning over pressed his lips against Klistelle's. He pushed hard and put all passion into that one miraculous thing. He pulled away a few second later breathing heavily and starred at Klistelle. The look Klistelle had on terrified Hiro. He looked...like he...didn't like it. Hiro suddenly thought it all through. What if he was wrong? What if Klistelle really did mean she wasn't his type?
Hiro bit his lip hesitantly and yelled.
"I'm sorry...I shouldn't..." To his disbelief that sly smile of Klistelle's crept back onto his lips and he kissed Hiro more possessively then Hiro had kissed him. He pushed Hiro to the floor and breaking from the kiss whispered.
"I'm glad you feel the same." Hiro blushed brightly and Klistelle helped him off the floor. They walked out of the library together and Klistelle walked Hiro to his room. At the door they looked at each other oddly. They both knew what they wanted to do but they were also afraid. Suddenly Klistelle pushed Hiro against his door a kissed him hungrily, passionately, Heatedly. Hiro shut his door slowly and wrapped his arms around Klistelle's neck. Klistelle lifted Hiro up and placed him softly on the bed. Being older than Hiro it gave Klistelle more strength then Hiro. After this I don't quite know if they went all the way or not but I do know that what ever happened was discovered a few days later.
They were in class giving each other looks through the doorway. They sat directly across the hall from each other. As I said Klistelle was a good amount older than Hiro so he had different classes. Hiro was pulled from class and dragged into the Reverend's office for a good hour before he was let out. You could tell Hiro had been crying and there were a few marking on his arms and face. He was silent for the few days he had left in the orphanage.
After that he was sent away, all I remember about the day he left was seeing him being pulled away and screaming for Klistelle. I saw the look in Klistelle's eyes before he ran after Hiro He was pulled back by one of the reverend's, Klistelle wouldn't stand for this and before we knew it he had a gun in his hands threatening them. He had gone insane and began firing. He didn't shoot anyone though...he was too good for that. I think he was warning them...then...he was shot. The scream Hiro screamed that day I have been haunted with my whole life. I have never heard so much agony in a single scream before. Klistelle wasn't heard from again, we were told he died in hospital.
After that I left the orphanage and sought out Hiro. We had almost been friends before Klistelle showed up. I somewhat got jealous when Hiro directed so much attention to Klistelle. Hiro had been my Idol...He had told me his whole life story with so much grace. I had wished when I was a kid that I could taste Hiro in so many ways. I wanted to kiss him but I also just wanted to touch him...get to know him...Klistelle beat me to it.
That's how we were here to day...K the reason Hiro got mad was because the...Reverend who had sent him away always called him...by his last name. Shock flooded over me for so many reasons. I could hardly contain myself and blurted out.
"Klistelle is not dead!" Shuichi's jaw dropped and he looked at me disbelieving.
"How do you know?..." I suddenly regretted telling him what I knew, regretted telling him the sad sad truth of my dark secret I had hidden from the world for years.
A/N: Yeah that was my chappy lol I luv it. HAHAHHA cliff hanger aren't I evil. Now you guys just got to tell me when you guys think they will actually kiss or you can tell me what you think about how K knows he's not dead lol. I'm not giving prizes for answering that question though. LOL! So yeah if you guys are interested in Betaing feel free to email me yo! See ya guys.
Review Responses – O.K. I am considering Beta's right now so if you email me then I will reply to you about it ok. You need to know though that my Internet is screwed and I can't see your emails in your profiles so email me please!
Eitriarch: Wow that is a very lovely thought on the metaphor but alas you are not correct. I wish you were but I give you a point and a cookie for that one. Hey I like to say blah blah blah too. HEY! I like those bands too LINKIN PARK! All the way man. I'm sorry it was so hard to follow. I hope this one was easier. HAHAH I tried to make it disturbing too. I wrote it while listening to Evanescence tourniquet I think that's the spelling. Thanks for being so interested in my story.
Kloudy Reignfall: well this was the next chappy lol.Hey crazy is a good thing to be going. Hahah I got you addicted I am so honored. HAHHA I hate cigarettes they're so icky. I have to congratulate you on this you were the closest to the metaphor...YOU WON!! And you're a new reader to. You picked up on this really well. Please suggest another pairing I like a good challenge. Yeah I'm looking for beta's right now but I can't email you can you email me?
Grimy Grunhilda Grunt: HAHA I understand its ok. I have to add you to my other account cuz I never go on kyobloodluver anymore. My other email is sandraefeltham. Aha wow that's a lot of problems I am amazed you went through all that for lil old me. I'm sorry they didn't kiss but I got to keep you guys comin. Thanx I'm intense? Lol yeah I always make typos with those two lol. I'll have to get myself a lil old beta hehe. Have a good what? (winks) lol.
Guren: AWW thank you. I hate to break it to you hun but you love everything about me not just the story lol...not...I have so many flaws. Anyway, Awwww your sooooooo cute I made you blush again ugh I could just make you blush all day lol. Bringing such a beautiful tint to your breath taking face is oh so amusing. I'm sorry even though this makes sooo much sense I am sad to say you are not right. I wish you were so much don't worry one day you will get it right I promise you. I'm getting hot luvin from you lol (Kisses back) remind me to finish where we left off next time we talk lol. Nites.
Sesaru: yup yup I just got to keep in check how many times I say beep beep in a sentence lol. YEAH IM NOT SHUND!!! I'm sorry I don't have a beta don't cry please (wipes tears away.) hahah that's such a sweet idea please email me about betaing. Hahaha we are we are. Hahah I'll be waiting for you (winks) ORGY AT MY HOUSE!! Those are really good bands...cept good charlotte I'm sorry I used to like them haha now I don't lol. I think I heard of Pet shop of Horrors...is that a clamp production?
LittleMissYaoi: HEY YOU READ MY FRIENDS FANFICTION. Darkdream69 she writes runaway fruits basket. We are like tight me and her chill at school lol. HAHA thanx for the compliment I worked real hard on it. LMAO that was funny Wow that is a good theory I agree with it but it is not what I was going for I'm sorry you didn't get it write. You should feel smart lol. Hey you interpret dreams what do you think about an octopus in cowboy boots a dog and me in a pimp suit carrying ham lol. I seriously had a dream like that. I hope so too. See yas.
Lady Insomnia: haha I would hate to have a dream like that too. Yeah I think its cuz I'm evil and won't ever let them be happy lol. Okay I can't wait until you do...unless you already did lol.
