Disclaimer: Hmmmmm I can always check with the writer and see if I can get some ownership if you really want me to admit I own it...Im confused....what did I just say lol.

A/N: Hello again sweet's. I have some rather sad news to report. It came to my attention that certain reader's (for there own embarrassment I will not inform you of the name) have taken my metaphor wrong...It wasn't the Cigarette tar that was the metaphor it was what she wrote after that was right. I am saddened that I have let down my readers and apologize for upsetting you. Some people who I talked about my problem with told me not to worry but I wanted to ask. Would you guys like me to stop asking questions? I don't want to stop but if I am upsetting my readers I will. I do everything for you guys and I am very ashamed I made anyone feel stupid. I can't even speak how much this is upsetting me. But I should let you read now so go on...

I dedicate this chappy to Lady Insomnia she was the one who inspired me to dig deeper into Hiro's past!!!!!

Gravitation

Disease of the mind

Traumatic or...Romantic

I was grasping for an answer, something that would make sense.

"Uh...my brother...my parents took a troubled teen in from the streets when I was a kid...his name was...Klistelle...I grew up with him. My brother was Klistelle and he is still alive. When I was a bit older he ran away. I guess he couldn't take love from anyone. He changed over the years and he wasn't the same person he used to be...I'm ashamed to call him my brother." Shuichi's face held utter shock and he whispered

"ashamed? But Klistelle was the sweetest boy I had ever met." I gave him an angered look and sneered.

"Then you didn't really know Klistelle now did you?" I was flooded with so much I almost snapped as he uttered

"Did you? I think were talking about two different boys. Klistelle was gentle and sweet." I broke into a rant and placing my mug down on the counter angrily mumbled.

"Blue eyes, blond shaggy hair, a sneaky smirk, and wore black sunglasses any chance he got?" He nodded agreeingly his head dropping as he realized it was the same boy. I got up and walked out the door. I felt him tug at my arm as I stepped into the cool summer breeze. I spun around and yelled. "He was a menace, a fool. He lived to destroy lives. He destroyed mine! And he will destroy Hiro's!" I ran into the park hard as I could I left my car in the parking lot hoping that it could stay there with out being touched.

I spent a good hour in the park sitting on a bench. I finally decided to go back to my car. I saw my car and to my joy Shuichi was gone. I was almost to the car when I saw someone leaning against it. It was breath taking...he was beautiful...the light above his head casting an angelic glow to him and I stepped forward. He wore a dark blue muscle shirt it clung to him tightly. It almost looked like a second skin but it made you drool, He had those tight white wash jeans that all of bad lucks fans wore. It curved to his thighs in all the right places making you moan. His leather jacket was thrown over his shoulder adding an air of danger to him though I knew there was no threat when I was near him. I could see the ripple of his biceps and growled knowing I could feel it. I wanted to glide my hand over the soft skin and taste it. He wore a silver chain that glinted in the light and made him look so yummy. He looked my way and a smile graced his lips.

He walked toward me as I walked toward my car. I placed my key in the lock and turned it hoping to god he would not touch me, knowing I may faint if he did. Knowing I merely breathed the same air as him caused me to become light headed. I felt him stop beside me and turned to face him as he whispered.

"K..." if I could capture that one uttered name I would cherish it. I looked hard into his blue gaze...in this light it was blue but in others it was a gentle violet. I opened my door and looking at him again softly said

"What is it Ryuichi?" He closed the door and moved slowly forward dropping his coat. It made a soft sound as it hit the ground and I moved backwards. I was closed in against the car and he was getting closer with every movement. I fought to hold back the rush of feelings. I wanted him...but I didn't. It was confusing. He moved to beside my ear and whispered

"I wont take no for an answer..." with that he licked my ear gently nipping at the shell of my ear. I pushed him to arms distance and throwing him into the back of the car shut the door fast. I jumped into the driver's seat and bolted. I was on the high way in seconds.

"Ryuichi I'm taking you home. I don't know what's gotten into you but I'm not letting it go any farther." Suddenly he climbed into the passenger seat and whispered.

"You can't take me home I was thrown out. I didn't pay my rent." I felt anger fill me and I did a U turn.

"Then you will go with Tahoma I am sure he won't mind." He gave me a stupid look and I turned again.

"Then you will go to Shuichi's. You love him and he adores you its perfect. I'm certain Yuki will make an exception for you." I got another look and became very desperate as I thought of where to take him. I finally gave up and sighed "fine you can stay with me but you stay on the couch and you sleep...nothing else." He nodded in agreement. I set my course for home and we were there in minutes.

I showed him to the couch and throwing him a pillow and blanket went into my room and slammed the door shut. I starred up at the ceiling for a while until I let my eyes close. As soon as I felt I would drift away I saw him...Hiro. I couldn't get him out of my head. His past was horrifying. I sat up in bed and placed my head in my hands. A thought surfaced in my mind...

His passed is much like yours...

I felt a hand softly stroking my neck and looked up. I saw those bright eyes and was caught in them again. I waited searching them for why he was here...than it came, he kissed me.

He pressed me down on the bed kissing my lips hungrily. I couldn't push him away. I wanted someone to touch me these ways and I wouldn't let it with anyone else...not Hiro...the only one that mattered. I kissed back abusing his sensitive lips. I pulled him down on top of me licking his lips and tasting his taunting tongue as it hesitantly slipped into mine. He slid his hands up my stomach and raked his nails down my chest. He feasted on my moan and I his. I pulled his shirt off and when he leaned back down he bit my ear. Electricity drove through my body as I felt his hot tongue glide against the shell of my ear. His sweat dripped down his stomach. I could feel his hard abs contract and I growled. Such a beautiful creature does not usually want me. He was unbuttoning my shirt with his teeth. He looked at me from under long eyelashes and I could see the lust in them. I arched my back as I felt him slightly skim my nipple and licked my lips.

The hunger I had was hard to hold back almost painful. I could give in right now let him have me as he wished...but I couldn't. Wouldn't that hurt? Could I do that? This would haunt my conscience I needed to stop him but I didn't want to...so I gave in.

Hiro POV

I couldn't control my urges. Pain always seemed to hold tight inside my body. It held me hostage. I couldn't give into the sadness that drowned me but what could I do. He was there in front of me, his eyes holding such passion. I knew he needed someone but not me. I craved for his lips, My body ached with a burning lust for his touch and I remembered his hand on my cheek. My fingers brushed my cheek and I could feel the tears. I was letting myself cry. My body shaking as I felt sobs reach my lips. I was pitiful; A true man would have known what to do. He would go out for blood and claim his prize. In my case the prize was K and what a prize K was.

I starred out the window everything shimmered behind my full tears. I clutched my pants and let my shoulders sag. My body trembled as I fought the depression. Everyone was right. Everyone from my childhood was right. I was a demon it was my fault that all that happened. My fault that my parents and god parents died. My fault that everyone hated me that Ayaka left me. I was to blame and no one could tell me other wise. How could I let my love just crumble like that I should have tried? Looked for a way out. Strived to find him but I didn't I just gave up. After I found out he was apparently dead I lost all hope. Sometimes I think back and that shot really have killed him? If Klistelle knew me now he would be ashamed. I needed to find him. I needed to know that I wasn't what they believed I was. But alas it was to late.

I remembered that night. Suddenly and for the first time...I saw that night. I sat in the tiny car seat my blanket pulled around my body. I watched cars fly by and my parents laugh at a joke I didn't get. I looked again toward the cars. I was scared and began to cry...something scared me I felt the tension change and looked back to my parents. They weren't anything like I had thought. My father had pure blond hair that jetted out in front of his eyes, His eyes were a bright green a lovely contrast with his hair. His bone structure was admirable he had a physique as if he played a sport such as hockey or baseball. I was surprised though...he bore no resemblance to me. My mother on the other hand shared some aspects. Her hair was long trailing long down her back and it was the same color as mine. I felt hers was richer though. Her eyes shone a bright gold. They almost burn how bright they were. Her physique also was one to envy. I smiled finally being able to put faces to my parents. I saw an odd image unravel and before I knew it the car was flying. Being propelled to the grass the mud and dirt. I cried harder, then...I was warm.

A heat washed over me and I looked up into warm eyes. Eyes that caught my attention thought provoking eyes. I reached up and he gently held my small finger. The eyes were dark and red. The hair was a black...raven black. He had a tight smirk on and his eyes glowed. I giggled as he held me close to his chest. He placed me on the ground; He wore tight white jeans and a white gold necklace. A cross hung from the chain and dangled. He wore no shirt but he was fairly built as if he had grown up doing hard labor. He had random scratches on him and blood dripped from some, he had patches of dirt and scratches though this was a lovely sight (ignoring the remark on the scratches) the most amazing part was to come.

Extended from his back were a pair of pure white wings. The ends were tipped with pastel purple. They had to be at least three times his height, which by the way was probably 6'5. They splayed out dangerously as if he could reach speeds faster than anything man has touched down on, He held them beautifully and they almost glowed. Wrapped around his right arm was a metal snake the fangs dug deep into his arm but there was no blood. I figured it had just been there for so long the blood flow was blocked. It drank from his arm looking hungry as any animal would he had such muscle I believe any animal would die to get a taste. He looked like one of the men I would probably go after now...but I had no attraction to him other than deep warmth exploding through my heart. He was still kneeling beside me and tapped my nose with his finger.

"I went threw a lot for you little one. I just hope you never remember this horrible ordeal, even...if you forget me young one. Grow up and become the man I need you to be. Be strong and love someone the way I love you. Good bye I'm so sorry...my son..."

I came back to reality sweating, my stomach a nauseating tumbling feeling. I walked into the washroom and splashed water on my face as I starred into the mirror and thought, I have never had that dream before...what does it mean? He called me...his son...what was he to me?

I ran my hand threw my hair and spit into the sink, Blood! I looked at my face and a small cut on my cheek manifested from no where. I was shocked but kept my cool...I remembered something. The man...he had...a cut on his cheek. I whipped my hand over it and brushed away the blood. What did this all mean?

I heard my door begin to open and ran to it as it slowly creaked open. I stood and watched for the sign of a body and indeed someone was there.

A/N: Hello anyway Im sorry the first A/N was so sad but this ones happier hahahah. How did you like the chappy I think it was pretty good lol I think the dude with the wings is hot lol...well he sounds hot...(looks at readers) what?...he sounds like he'd be hot...right? OMG I'm going insane lol. Mmmm chocolate lol...that was random. Hahahahah Is it just me or have I noticed that me calling peeps luv is addicting to those of you who talk to me through email or MSN isn't it addicting. Just look at some of the responses like...let me think...theirs one in this chappy. GUREN! She said luv in my last review lol. Anyway G2G here's my responses!

Review Responses – Please no one get upset if I am more affectionate to certain reviewers. The only reason some responses are longer is becuz they ask me or tell more things then others. I luv you all!

Night Grey: you know that part of the movie always scared me...The wizard of oz the part where the which sends the flying monkey's out (rocks back and forth) Okay okay! I Wrote now call off your minions lol.

Yumi Ishida the dream ang: HAHAIwrote luv here it is. Thanx for the compliment I think this story is getting very good reviews hehe.

Kurai-star: Well theirs what happened next lol. Well you can make the judgment on weather Klistelle is K or not.Hahaha you were all fooled muahahahaha! See ya. Thanx for reviewing luv.

Eitriarch: Please luv don't stop answering the Q's it would make me so sad. I'm hurt that you would say such stuff to another reviewer or me. I thought better of you luv. You have stuck with me from the beginning and it truly does hurt. I really admire your answers to these Q's and will be dreadfully sad if you stop answering. I can't ignore that I have upset you, and you have upset me. Your last review had so many errors and I was worried about you, you are always so clean cut with your reviews. You never make so many mistakes. If I have upset you please don't turn away like this. I need you to continue rooting me on! If you don't believe my sincerity you can email another author at actually a few and ask them how affected I was by your review. They will confirm my deep sadness. I hope you continue answering the Q's and accept my extreme apology. And to be quite honest luv I read my story over multiple times when I write I'm just an idiot.

Lady Insomnia: Is Klistelle K? I've been getting that question a lot. Well you think what you want lol. HAHAH its ok hun I know you think it's cool and you are a sweet heart for the compliment as is every one of my reviewers but next to Guren you are by far the specialist hahaha. Well I'm sure there all great but I know you better lol. Aww your like the only one who answered that question...can I tell you a secret I think they will do it again to lol. Well it's simple...I'm sadistic his pain is my pleasure lol that's how I can be so mean. Its ok I understand you can't Beta two stories at once. Actually hun you're the reason I thought to dig deeper into his past.

LittleMissYaoi: Your so sweet luv hahahahahaa. Yes hahaha your so cute its ok that you didn't get the question right lol I understand hun hahahah. You should feel really smart...uhhh should you hear odd click's in your brain? HAHA my dream really mean that? Lol anyway I think your so sweet for putting both me and my friend on your list. Lol anyway gota run see ya.

Guren: HAHAH you dropped over dead (winks mischievously)was that from what I said or from the chappy lol. Anyway I g2g see you hun, talk to you soon. (kisses hugs)