Disclaimer: NO I DO NOT OWN GRAVITATION…wow dejavue lol the oddest things..

A/N: HAHAH this chappy is like huge guys you have to lik luv me after I wrote so hard for you guys. I have a beta now. EVERYONE SAY THAKYU TO I think LittleMissYaoi Im not sure it was anonymous anyway yeah but thank who ever it is anyway. I will tell you at the end of this chappy if you were right. Anyway onto the long chappy see ya. Oh and just be warned my next chappy may be a while I will try to get it typed but I put my hand out of commission after losing my temper the other night and it is really odd to type with it bandaged. Anyway read on.

Warning: this chappy contains attempted Rape!!!!

Gravitation

Disease of the mind

Help me!

I entered the loud room. Lights flashed and people danced against each other rhythmically. I heard the familiar sound of our band and slouched into a chair. I couldn't escape it could I. I ordered a simple sex on the beach and waited for my accomplice to walk through the door and into our normal spot.

I felt the tension change in the room and new she had arrived. I watched as her small body walked toward me. The slow seductive steps, the hypnotizing sway of her hips, the way her breast lifted and dropped each time her foot made contact with the floor, and the way her hair gracefully fell behind her. She slipped into my booth as the drinks were delivered. Yes I said DRINKS; they already had made her drink. They were like servants to her, and they did anything she wanted…it sickened me.

I watched as she sipped it slowly from her glass. I almost puked at how she was dressed…it yelled slut. She wore a tight red tube top hardly covering her nipples, A pair of even tighter black leather pant's, and black hooker boots. The hoops in her ears could probably fit her whole head. Oh yeah that was she. Full-blown slut, it makes me wonder why I had never slept with her. She caught my attention with her swallow of her drink and I finally looked away from her cleavage. What? I hadn't been gawking it was just where I had been looking when I zoned out.

"Mika Seguchi you know why I called you right?" She gave me an all knowing glance and I scoffed

"Ayaka problems." I wanted to wipe the smirk off her lips. So I picked up my glass and casually said

"No. K…" She starred at me as if I were insane and raising her hands in defeat said

"Hey I can't do anything about his gun's there all credited for. Unless he shot you." I put my glass down.

"No I want you to fire him." Her face held even more shock.

"What? But I thought he was the best manager around." I tossed her a quick glance and sighed

"That's the problem…he's to good." she caught my attempt at keeping my distress under control and placing a soft hand on mine whispered.

"We may not get along all the time but I consider you a friend, Hiro what's wrong? Has K hurt you?" I looked away and with a painful tremble spilled everything.

After I had finished she starred at her drink thoughtfully. If she was attempting to look like she cared she was doing a good job of it. She looked up into my eyes and for the first time since I met her she actually looked worried.

"Hiro what he did was wrong…your not at fault. I know this for a fact. You need to forget him he's not worth it." She suddenly grabbed my wrist and pulled me out of my seat. "You need to have fun, no more worrying, you're with Mika the great now. I'll cheer you up!"

We were now pulled into the pattern of the dancer's Mika's body pressed delicately against mine. Her hair brushing against my face as her hips grinned against mine. My fingers trailed down her sides along the silken skin. I felt goose bumps raise along her skin and held my fingers against her hips. She wrapped her arms around my neck gently stroking the back of my neck with her index finger. Her eyes were shut but she was fully awake. A fine sheen of sweat was visible on her neck and I found myself wondering what that neck might taste like. Her scent found its way to my senses and I found myself drinking her in. I felt her shift and her mouth was now mere inches from my ear. She said it so quietly I almost missed it but I caught on quick.

"Tahoma will never find out…" She lingered the last syllables as she licked the shell of my ear and I shivered. How could someone I found so disgusting intoxicate me like this? I contemplated this for a moment and realized…I was vulnerable this would be wrong. How could she think of me in such ways? Especially when I was SO vulnerable. She was a married woman for fuck sakes. Though I was against this in anyway shape or form I found myself giving into the sensual teases of her tongue, it seemed that thing was always busy.

I felt myself being pushed against a wall. Hot wet lips kissing and sucking down my neck. A moan was torn from my throat and it hit me. She never cared. This was all a big ploy to get me in bed. I pushed her away roughly and starring at her heatedly yelled at her.

"How could you Mika? You know how vulnerable I am right now!" I ran out of the pub breathing heavily. The cool night air hitting me coolly and I shivered.

K POV

I sat in the overly crowded office, blowing a strand of hair out of my face I read faster. I needed to understand what happened. I knew Hiro wasn't capable of that. It was Hiro, Hiro had saved me from myself, and He had opened me up. I was afraid to love for years and then I met him. He shared things with me that no one could. We both had horrible past. I smelt a familiar smell and looked down into the bundle of brown hair.

"K-kun what's wrong you look so sad…has something happened? Did you find something sad about Hiro-chan?" I ruffled Ryuichi's hair and slipping an arm around him sighed loudly.

"No Ryu-kun I just was thinking." He looked up into my eyes and whispered

"Your family?" I froze as the word's lingered on the air.

"I wouldn't call them that Ryuichi." I slumped down in a near by chair and let him sit in my lap. I nuzzled my nose into his hair and breathed deep.

"I wouldn't either…I…can't believe…" I let him bury his face in my chest as he cried horribly loud. I hadn't wanted to let anyone in on my past but I needed to tell someone the truth so I told Ryuichi.

As a child my family hadn't always been the richest so in order to get money I offered to get a job at a young age, but since I was so young no one wanted me. My mother told me there was one way I could support them and I trusted her. With my whole heart I trusted her, because she was my mother and I thought she loved me…but I was wrong. She loved him. She loved that bastard child.

Klistelle had beaten me out of everything else. Out of intelligence, talent, love. He had cheated me and I wanted nothing more than to beat him at something so I did what I could. My mother introduced me to someone. She said he would show me what I had to do and as long as I listened to him I would bring in lots of money.

Being Naive I smiled up at her and went with the man. At first the job was ok. I washed and cleaned houses. Then I went on to clothing and footwear. He said I should get to know some of the people I worked for so I did…I became a friend with a few and he said I was a natural. He said I would probably get more money if I stayed overnight to do work, and yet again I listened. You'd think by now a fourteen year old boy could see it coming but…I didn't. I began to stay overnight a lot. Almost every night I was at another house cleaning and doing random errands.

I began to get very tired through out the days though. So he said that he had a plan, a way I could get out of doing so much work and get still more money. I was interested so I asked him what his idea was. He told me I could deliver drug's they needed. I agreed as long as they were legal and so it went like this I would pick them up Tylenol, Advil, and Benadryl. Anything they needed at the moment for whatever pain they had. Then I started to not recognize the names. I finally got to curious for my own good and asked one of my employers what it was I was delivering.

That night I went home. I couldn't sleep at the house. Bruises covered my face and back. Cut's dripped blood along my arms and my lip was cut. I softly lay down on the bed and heard the front door open. I figured my mom would be home she would come in and take care of me. Make sure I was safe. Yes I was right on one thing it was my mother. But she wasn't all loving instead she pulled me up by my short hair and threw me to the floor screaming I should be out working not lazing around. She threw me onto the lawn and yelled for me to get off my ass and work.

I crawled toward a near by bus shelter as the rain came down hard. I shivered alone in the rain until a familiar bus rolled up and out stepped my nemesis…Klistelle. I expected him to laugh and walk into the house but instead he picked me up and carried me into the house. I almost clung to the door I didn't want to go in. If she knew I wasn't working she would throw me away again but instead of announcing my arrival to my mom he carried me to his room. I blacked out a few moments later at the sound of him shushing me. I never thought he could be so gentle, so caring.

I woke I don't know how much longer to the silence of our empty house. I sat up fast and a shot of pain went threw my body. I stood up and limped to the door. Leaning on it painfully I forced my self to stay up and walked toward the end of the hall. My leg dragged behind me and before I knew it I couldn't hold myself up anymore and I was falling. I thought for sure I was going to have a painful fall but instead I was caught. I was caught in the strong embrace of…Klistelle. He picked me up and walking back to his room laid me back down. He shushed me again but I wouldn't allow myself to fall into that deep slumber again and reached out to him. I grabbed his hand and holding it tightly looked into his eyes making a deep connection.

I don't know what it was but suddenly he ripped his hand away and spun around. I thought something had upset him until I felt something being wrapped around my ankle. His ginger touches electrifying my skin. I heard his warm voice flow through my ears and greeted it with open arms. I let my head fall into the softness of the pillow as he spoke.

"You have to keep this on ok. It will help you to steady yourself when you walk." His tone almost sounded apologetic and then I realized why that was. "I'll tell mom I made you come home to help me here she'll understand." He stopped to breath deep and ran his fingers along my shin. I shivered as I felt his touch and looked down. Why was he doing this? He turned around and our eyes locked.

"I'm sorry mom is so unfair to you…I've told her you're the one she gave birth to but…" I cut in here my voice husky to my own ears.

"She won't listen…I was her mistake. You were the angel that dropped onto her door step." His eyes shimmered and I thought it was just the light but…it was tears. He was crying.

"You heard her?" He turned around so he was facing me. Tears about to pour over his cheeks.

"I heard her every night…talking to dad. She hates me and always will. I was born a mistake." He laid a hand softly onto my blanketed thigh and whispered.

"But it wasn't your fault she…was raped." I felt the stinging feeling in my eyes again and whispered back.

"But it is…I'm scum she saved you. You're her angel I'm her spawn." I saw something in his eyes at that moment I had never seen before…actually come to think of it. I never really looked at him. I didn't even speak to him. I guess that is why I never knew how caressing his voice was or…how handsome he was.

He had short black hair that jetted out shading his eyes. The bottoms of it curled and gel was not unknown to him. When he looked into your eyes you could see the burning plethora of red. I had never seen such vibrant eyes…but than again. How often did you see red eyes? He had a strong jaw and muscles tensed under his shirt. What he wore wasn't so bad either. He wore a pair of baggy white pants dragging down to the floor and a white muscle shirt. A silver chain dangled from around his neck and a large cross-hung off it.

I didn't know what happened after this until I looked back on this but…he began to cry. He threw himself into my arms and held me tight crying, and whispered through sobs into my ear how truly sorry he was for everything. I gripped him back holding him closely to my body as tremors shook the bed.

It was a few weeks later that I started to talk to him more. We would sit in the living room or in his room and talk about our days. We never ventured into my room though…it brought up to many painful memories for me and he knew I felt more comfortable in his room. I fell asleep in there a few times, nestled closely to him. My arms wrapped around his waist not letting go. Every night started to turn out this way…until…my boss started to get angry. He said I spent to many nights at home and that my employers were getting frustrated. I explained this to Klistelle and he offered to beat the living shit out of him for me but…I needed the money…so I went back. I worked twice as hard cleaning and getting drugs.

I thought things were going the best they could but on one of my trips I was caught with the drugs. I found myself in jail for delivering drugs I thought were allergy medicine. I was bailed out two days later and dragged home by my dad. He threw me into the wall of my room once we got in the house and yelled at me until I couldn't take the pain and I slammed my door in his face. I knew what was coming before it happened. I got ready and then I was tackled. Blow after blow hitting me in the stomach the head my face, my back. He left me in a pile on the floor for a good hour before Klistelle got home and ran upstairs. He said he had followed the trail of blood…my blood. It seemed our lovely father hadn't cleaned himself up after our adventure.

Klistelle apologized over and over again for not being there. He fixed me up and before I knew it we were laughing about how stupid dad would look if children's aid just happened to drop by. Then as if in an answer to my prayer the doorbell rang. I guess my dad hadn't realized the mess he was in as he opened up the door. It WAS indeed children's aid. Apparently they had gotten an anonymous tip that something was going on over here and came to check it out. They arrested him that day after checking my body out.

A few months after I was sitting in a court room as I heard the great news. Klistelle had full custody of me. Life was ok after that but I stuck with my job. Klistelle did have a job but not one good enough to support the two of us. I worked hard again but I was happier my clients said they could see it and I was happy because of that. It was one dreary day when everything tumbled out from under my feet. I had been working late and as I was finishing up some laundry I went to deposit the clean clothes in my clients room.

I got a chill as I entered it but figured it was just an atmosphere change. I had to hurry up because Klistelle was coming to walk me home tonight and I needed to be waiting for him. I pushed the last of the clothing into the drawer and turned around to see my client standing at the door. I backed up against the dresser searching with my clumsy fingers for something to fight back with because I knew…what was going to happen. He took a step closer a smirk meeting his lips as he closed the distance. I was thrown onto the bed harshly, I kicked and punched and screamed but everything I seemed to do didn't work. I cursed and then…I froze. It was finally hitting me what was happening. I couldn't move everything seemed to be speeding out of control but I didn't budge, I didn't try to protect myself, and now I would be stripped of my virginity and it would be all my fault because I didn't, No I couldn't fight back. I knew it was my fault I probably lead him on in someway. I was being paid back for all the times I had screwed up. I could feel his lips searing my neck and his hands scraping my stomach roughly. Then the next thing I knew I saw those eyes.

Klistelle ripped the man off me throwing him to the floor and kicking him hard. His eyes were a blood red. The man stumbled up and Klistelle punched him hard in the jaw, the man flipped back hit the wall and was out cold. I felt tears stinging my eyes and suddenly those warm arms were around me holding me. I wrapped my arms around him tightly pleading for him to keep me safe. Moments later he was walking down the street with me in his arms. He whispered softly to me and I almost passed out in his arm, until, I felt that very familiar brizzle graze my neck. I knew it was coming. He always had to meet me after work to deliver my checks. I turned my head over my shoulder as he walked up to us.

"What? Couldn't handle your work today?" I shivered as the harshness in his voice cut through me. I began to answer when I felt the muscle in Klistelle's arms flex and knew he was holding me tighter.

"Well maybe he would have been able if he wasn't working for a lecher!" I heard a bitter tone in his voice I had never heard before and clutched his shirt tightly.

"The boy wanted money, what ever the client wants he gives." I shot my head back, did he mean what I thought he meant "And if his client wants certain pleasures he should indulge him." I felt Klistelle shift me and then he placed me on a bench. He turned around meeting the other man face on he glared and growled.

"My brother is a virgin and will stay that until he is good and ready!" They met glares burning each other.

"As soon as he got into this job he sealed his fate. He was born to be a slut and that's what he will be!" He sneered at me harshly and I clutched my sides in fear. "To bad I never got a taste of you…I'm sure you taste delicious." I almost vomited as his words floated through my head.

"Bastard! You know nothing about my brother! I'll teach you to speak like that of K!" I was startled he…used my nickname. I had never heard him use it. It had such passion behind it. I watched the two as Klistelle ran to him and I noticed a glint, Metal! A gun!

"KLISTELLE!!!" My throat tightened and my heart burst as I saw the gunfire and…my…brother. I ran to him fast my little broken body kneeling beside him tears flooding down my eyes. "K-K-Klistelle…don't…don't die on me…don't leave me…I need you I love you so much..." I gripped his shirt in my hands and leaned over him sobbing. "Don't leave me to die here Alone!" I saw his eyes open slowly.

"K I…" He grazed a gentle hand down my cheek "I…won't…ever leave…you…" His hand began to drop and I grabbed it the same way I did the night he had brought me in from the rain.

"Please I want you here right here in front of me!" My sobs choked my words and I almost couldn't get it out. "I've never loved anyone the way I love you!" His maroon eyes looked deeply into mine and almost as clear as day he whispered.

"I went through a lot for you bro…I just wish I could erase me from your memory's, it would be easier. Grow up and be the man I need you to be. Be strong and love someone the way you love me. I'm so sorry…please forget all of this…I love you…Kiorou…" He died that night in the rain, In my arms. I was so angry after that I hunted down my boss and killed him gruesomely. Even for my age I was capable of terrible things.

Now I sat hear rocking a saddened Ryuichi. He was never meant to bare the burden of knowing my past but he did for many years. I told only him and only he knows the truth.

The meaning behind Klistelle…

Review Responses:- Please NO ONE stop answering the Q's if your wrong.

swtcandiee: Yeah your answer was correct hun that was almost the exact thing I was thinking about. Yeah I know he is mean in this but as you can tell he has reason to be. Awww don't pout sweet pea everything will be ok. HAHA I don't know what he meant by little he could mean a few things…though somehow I'm thinking he's big. Yeah I like the chemistry to lol. NOW!! You mean they weren't your fav pairing before? How are you so sure he is? Aww you're so cute.

Anonymous: Awww thankyou your so sweet no one says that to me they always complain and it makes me feel bad. I'm an idiot I know. Thanku byes.

Anonymous: why is it Anonymous I know you and hey that might just happen this year me and my friend may go to England lol. Oh but you could be lol. Yeah I know they do don't they. Oh you will ok then you will be after this chappy ok. No I'm sorry you were incorrect but try again ok hun. OH OH I was called babe again and I'm getting laid by a sexy ass women. See ya.


Kerith Verlaque Easdon:
and they weren't interesting before? Lol. Huh what now I'm confused…awww I will try to read soon to tell you the truth I lost the link. See ya.

Sesaru: Yes that was the answer hun you got it right lol. I already got an offer for beta but if she falls through I will give you an email. YAY! You called them off I think you deserve a kiss for that…but alas I am the only girl here other than a few individuals who are bi lol.

Guren: eheheheheh yeah it is very suspenseful. You bother to answer cuz I luv you and I would be sad if you stopped but you aren't right but please try again. Well I have to be off see ya my sweet.

Lady Insomnia: HAHHA wow ok stick with that…how do you know its his daddy? Maybe he does you'll just have to wait until I tell you his name. Sorry your not correct but thanks for trying see ya luv.

Yume Ishida the dream ang: hahahahaha everyone thinks K is Klistelle. Aww yes poor RORO I luv him dearly. Thanku and may I say I just luv your name where did you come up with it. Aww I'm sorry the answer was almost correct.

A/N: I think this is the most amount of reviews I have gotten for one chappy. I AM VERY SAD!! I think I lost a reviewer her pen name is Eitriarch she was so nice and then she got aggravated about the Q's and I think that may have upset her. PLEASE COME BACK! Anyway g2g see ya. Byes

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