- This Chapter is in Sora's View -

The Journal was and is an evil being, that shouldn't have been made. No one knew How it worked or what worked it. It was a book from hell. That's all they could tell. It's from hell. It glowed like it was and it is, from hell.

Chapter 12: Here I am Now.

Here I am,

Dreaming in my world,

Living in a brighter,

Happier place,

Dreaming away from

Reality, murder,

Away from Darkness.-

Anyone reading this, might want me with Riku. It's just no possible. Life isn't always happy ever afters, consensting of Kisses and good sex. Once your in the book, and trapped by the dead lovers. Your dead. They think your dead, your dead. I'm dead. I think I'm dead, they say am dead. Then I must be dead. It seems strange to think that way.

Here I am,

waiting,

For you to come back for me

Waiting for you,

In my dream world,

unaware that you left my side,

and that you will live me to die-

I felt them stab the knife through my flesh, the coppery smell hit my sences. It was unbareable. I'm in hell, with my innocence. Blood, my blood run down my arm with mind numbing pain. I can't stand pain. Where did he go? Why would he leave me? I scream and they laugh. Salty tears run down my face, blood leaked from my mouth. I hate the coppery taste. They stabed me where my heart would be, if Riku was here.

Here I am,

Alone

Dieing for you,

Alone,

I can't wait much longer,

Alone,

I fear you've died too,

Alone-

They touched me places that I wouldn't have let Riku touch me, not yet. I was to young for this. My vision blurred as I stared out into the never ending darkness. The light that did flash in that room was gone. I've lost my light. I've lost myself from Riku. I felt a cold, damp tounge lick up my leg to my manhood, my virginity. That's gone, Like my will. RIKU...I feel my mind scream, but the scream isn't heard. It will never be hard. Not with their licking and touching, and... I close my eyes, no longer able to stand the sight of them molesting me. Molesting doesn't sound like a mature word. Maybe the word, Fucking would have been more proper. That's what their doing to me. Their fucking me. Sucking me. Raping me. My only savor is far away, gone from here. Riku. Why are you letting them do this to me? Why me?

Here I am

Dead.

My soul has gone to my dream world.

Dead.

It no longer wants to see the day of light.

Dead.

All I see is darkness of my sharttered dream.

Dead.

Here I am. -

Out of Sora's view-

Riku read, what the book put down. He felt sick. He couldn't read. Not after what it said in details, like a book. Like one of the sick cheap porn/rape books that adult males got at an adult store that said "XXX Node" .

The book wrote-
Sora was tied down to four poles on the bloodied floor of the dark room. The two young girls looked hungrierly at the innocent teenager. They licked their lips as they cut the boy's bright clothing off. They cutted into the fleshy arms of the boy drawing blood, licking the blood off. They licked his dick, he mentaly screamed for his gay lover. The girls laughed as they fucked the poor boy silly.

No one could read the 10 pages describing Sora's rape. Two dead girls raped Riku's Sora. Riku helded his raging tears. He wouldn't let them fall. He had to save them to revenge Sora's taken virginity that he couldn't even take. Riku bit down on his bottom lip. Suki's face was emotionless. The decription of the girls disturbed Suki. Riku knew that much, and Kairi, where had she'd gone. Home. Safe. Away from the book. Kairi didn't want to be near that book now. Not ever.

A/n: Okay I know I know. Your gonna kill me for letting thoses girls Rape innocent Sora. But It'd be a boring story if it didn't hurt Sora and Riku somewhere. Right? Okay, I'm ready for your deathly reviews now...