It wasn´t even midday yet and they had already been riding for at least six or seven hours. Sam couldn´t believe how long the days were, now that she knew how long they lasted. This time they´d been on the horses for at least four hours, she figured that out by counting seconds, she´d gotten lost somewhere near seven thousand and had started again only to loose track, she started again, lost count again. She figured all in all it had to be at least four hours because she was starting to only be able to concentrate on how uncomfortable she was and she decided four hours was as good a time as any to start doing so.

She shifted slightly, trying somehow to find a place where she didn´t have the horses spine digging into her. All she really succeeded in doing was sliding forward and knocking knees with O´Neill who promptly complained. Sam didn´t what he said exactly, her mind was too busy with trying to make her body move back.

God this is awfull, but no, it´s more like.....weird? Oh come off it! You certainly didn´t put up a fight when you were told you had to travel this way. I know! It was a mistake, I should of.....- Should of what? Said something? You never say something, you just try to gracefully sidestep the issue. I do not! You do to, you know it. At least have the curtesy not to lie to me! I don´t lie to you! Yes you do! You keep me back, the little voice inside your head which tells you to just damn the- Shut up! See, I told you you sidestep, you always have. Yeah.....maybe but this is different. Really, how? Well there´s something about this place, about these people, maybe it´s some sort of chemical in their bloodstream or something which happens to them when they´re "initiated" I mean Kaia did mention how the tears of their masters give them the Gift of Light and that- Would you stop your ramblings! I know what you think! Did you ever consider what it would do to you? No, of course not! How could it do anything to me? Well, you said it yourself, there´s something about this place, about these people, you feel it. Whenever you´re around them, you don´t worry about a thing. Admit it, for a second you thought about how the "fraternizing rules" don´t exist here and about what would happen if you just- Shut up! I told you you sidestep, why? Because there are rules and they have to be followed. You´ve broken tons of rules! The ones you have always respected, I can count with one hand. Well sometimes some rules cannot be broken. You can´t do this, you can´t break some rules and respect some others, it´s not logical, you know it. I know! I can´t, it´s been discussed, it´s a dead issue. Not so dead, everytime you look at them you wonder what would happen if you threw away the rules if you just did as you pleased if you just- Shut up! I can´t think that, it makes no difference in the end, when we go back we go back to our lives, our world, our rules. Yes but right now you´re not on your world, your rules do not exist. You are hiding among these people, pretending to be one of them, you can´t possibly do that and follow all of your USAF rules. I can try! No you can´t! You shouldn´t, why? Who would know? Who would tell? There´d be no going back, I can´t.....For once, you´re right, there would be no going back and if there were, would you want to? Shut up! I can´t discuss this with you, it´s over, the issue is- Dead? You can´t kill your feelings Samantha, you know they´re still there. I´m still here. I may be in the background but you know I´m still here, why do you fight me? I can´t break the rules, we would loose everything.....You certainly gain nothing by doing nothing. Look at yourself, you are here, in a world were fraternizing is allowed, you´re stranded for at least three more 40-hour days, you´re only inches away from- Shut up! Fine, whatever. I´ll shut up, but you can´t fight me forever Samantha, one day you will have to listen to me. One day you´ll see I´m right.....

Oh God! Did she just seriously bump into me? Calm down. Say something......wrong thing! It doesn´t matter, it´s not like.....it just doesn´t matter. So this is certainly boring, nothing but fields and more fields, wait! A shrub! Wow, that was the most exciting thing that´s happened in about.....two hours? Wonder when we´ll pass the next shrub.....What the hell is wrong with her? Can she not just stay still! Probably not, I mean I´m sure as hell not all that comfy. What is it with these people and horses, can´t they walk? There she goes again.....damn it just stop moving would ya! It´s very bothersome you know.....why couldn´t she share someone else´s horse? Why me? Although.....no, no, no, no! Don´t go there. This was a mistake. I should of said something.....anything. Why didn´t I? Oh right.....well.....sharing isn´t the problem! The problem is the fact that these two kids are just so.....why aren´t there rules here!?! If there were we would all be at peace, or at least I would. I mean.....this is just awfull, no.....it´s, weird. No rules here, none and they still seem pretty well balanced, I mean, they don´t seem to have any problems.....no, don´t go there! You can´t, you know that.....okey then.....shrubs, I wonder when we´ll pass the next one.....ah to hell with it! It´s not fair, they handle it fine! But they´re not in the USAF.....well techincally we´re not actually in- No,no,no,no,no,no.....but still, I mean we are sorta stranded here and we are pretending to be of their people, logically, we can´t follow our rules and theirs at the same time, right? Who am I kidding, that´s the stupidest argument I´ve thought up for a while.....it´s just, weird, surreal. Plus, there is that thing that they do to you, what is it anyway? Something´s going on, they affect you somehow I mean I have not felt this relaxed while being stranded on a planet for.....well, never. It all just seems so.....I dunno, but it´s like the more I think about it, the more complicated life is with all the rules in place. Something´s happening here, usually I have some sort of conscience for our careers, for our jobs.....but if I´m completely honest, I don´t see why I should worry, there´s nothing wrong with feeling things, right? It´s a stupid rule anyway! That guy....Laska was right, you function better if your mind is at peace and mine sure as hell is not that way right now! Not with her right here behind me.....did she just move again! For cryin´ out loud! Ok.....shrubs, think of shrubs.....oh god, are we there yet?