Chapter Two
Why do I have these feelings? And on the topic of feelings, what are these feelings I have. I have been walking, yes walking, no going to a bar or robbing a shop of some kind, just walking around with no real destinations for about five minutes and the only conclusion I have come to is 'I hate human emotions.' "Shit, why are emotions so complicated? I have finally admitted what these feeling are but that hasn't helped one bit." The feeling was love. Yes that is right the famous Bakura, emotionless tomb raider, has fallen in love. With my hikari none the less. I guess deep down I have had these feelings for months now. That is why I would always beat him. Scared that he would see through me and learn what I felt about him, scared to admit what I felt even to myself. The beatings were nothing but a cover-up for all my fears.
Now I am only deciding whether to tell him. I hardly see the point, he could never feel the same and at the moment I don't feel much like a rejection. There I go thinking only about myself. I will have to stop that if I ever wish him to as much as a friend. This alone is an unlikely chance. 'This is getting me nowhere' I thought frustrated. With that I turned around and started to walk back to Ryou's house.
When I was a block from the house I felt a tug at my heart and it took me a while to place it was the feeling of Ryou, my hikari, my... love taking off the ring. 'That doesn't make any sense, he never takes the ring off, not even to sleep.' Curiosity overwhelmed me and with great difficulty looked through his eyes. I wasn't sure at first if I would be able to without the ring on him but apparently the ring hadn't been off his neck long enough to sever his connection with me completely. I stopped running, knowing I wouldn't be able to control were I went while I was attempting this.
At first, as I entered Ryou's mind all I felt was a warm substance hitting my body gently. A second later my senses began to come into focus and I realized the substance was water, which meant Ryou was in the shower. A light blush came to my cheeks but I pushed it aside and focused on the topic at hand. Literally. For when I looked through his eyes he was looking at one of his hands and the small object clapped inside it. It was a knife, blade extended. That is when a mental block went up and I was kicked out. The moment I was back in my body I set out at a run. I had to stop him, no matter what. This is all my fault. He doesn't deserve to have this sadness, and I don't deserve him. He has been so patient with me and never fought back, just stood there and took all those beatings. I drove him to this but I will not let him die.
I got to the house panting. The door had been shut but apparently not locked as I ran through the door just as I felt my heart being ripped in half. I knew what had just happened and that made me run all the faster taking the stairs two at a time. When I burst into the bathroom I saw my hikari lying motionless on the tub floor. He was paler that usual and his breathing shallow. I didn't know what to do. I was too nervous to think straight. 'Calm down Bakura, you have to keep you head clear. Ryou told you what to do in this kind of situation. That's it.'
I race out of the bathroom, into Ryou's room, and over to the phone. I have never used one but Ryou has and luckily I would watch. I hesitantly dialled the number not sure if it was right. I didn't have time for mistakes. Luckily the number was right and after yelling at the obnoxious voice coming out of the phone they understood what had happened and an ambulance was sent.
Only then did I notice the ring and the letter on the bed. Mere inches from the edge closest to me. "Maybe this will explain why he did this" my voice was on the verge of cracking and full of concern. A lone tear travelled down my cheek but I didn't bother wiping it away. It has been so long since I cried; I have been too proud, too cold-hearted to do it before now. But now was different. My hikari had tried to end his life because of me. Another tear fell. I picked up the letter and the ring, and then ran back to the bathroom to sit by my hikari. I would read the letter later after I knew he would be alright.
It didn't take the ambulance long to get here. When they did they rushed Ryou into the back and tried to shut the doors on me, but I was to fast. They argued with me at first to get out but since I wouldn't budge and kept consistently yelling at them to hurry they gave up. The teams of medics in the ambulance at the time did as much as they could until we got to the hospital. Only there could they separate me from my hikari. I was worried to say the least.
Time past slowly and after what seemed like forever a doctor appeared before me a grave look on his face. "Are you Mr. Bakura," his voice sounded as tired as he looked.
Deciding it best to play along. "I am Ryou's brother; our father is out of town on work." Well that was half truthful. Ryou's father is dead but that could count as out of town, right.
"We have good new and we have bad news. The good news is he's stabilized. The bad news is he will need a blood transfusion."
"So what is the problem?" I almost yelled. 'What was this man getting at?'
"Your brother has a rare blood type. You will be tested for the same blood type if you wish to be able to donate blood. This blood type doesn't always appear in every member of the family."
"Of coarse I will donate blood," I shouted, nearly ready to chock him but decided that that would not help matters so just glared at him.
He broke the silence first "Alright sir, please follow me." With that he turned and walked away. Not wasting anytime I followed suit. Right into a bare white room where I was told to sit, and wait patiently for the nurse. I did as I was told but only for Ryou. It was obvious that they didn't know me, for patience was defiantly not a strong point. Something else I would have to work on for Ryou. Even if it was only to be his friend; as long as he was happy.
It was at this time a young nurse walked in and over to me. "Hello, my name is Jessica. How are you doing today?" Her voice was high pitched and irritated me greatly with everything else that was going on.
"Hn. How do you think, Ryou is here and needs a blood transfusion, and I just learned that I may not be able to help. Take a guess." I erupted, my anger directed toward her, but she seemed to just ignore it as she prepared the needle. When she stuck it in me I barely felt it, my thoughts back on Ryou. Once she had left I took out the letter Ryou had written and read it.
Dear Yami,
I know you never liked me as a friend or anything so I decided to end my burden on your life. I will not bother you or anyone else ever again. If you are reading this then am sure you have received the ring. Yugi told me once that if a hikari died with their millennium item their yami would die too. But I don't want you to die, or cause you any pain so the ring is yours. You may do with it as you please. For I'm sure you will need it if you are you to succeed in your plan to take over the world. I'm sorry for causing you such a hard time when I was alive. I know this is needless to say but please forget about me, although you probably would have anyway. There is only one more thing left to say. Chances are you would hate me for this, which is why I never told you before but I might as well now. I love you Bakura, I have since the day we met. I love you and I'm sorry for everything. Goodbye.
Your Hikari
The letter took my breath away to say the least for multiple reasons. One was my hikari loved me. No one had ever loved me before. Another was that he was apologizing to me. Why? He had no reason to. If anyone was to be apologizing it should be me. I have been horrible to him and he was apologizing. It was obvious why he was a hikari.
The sound of a door opening brought me back to reality. I looked up and faced the same doctor that I had talked to earlier. His face was impossible to read and so was his voice as he spoke. "Mr. Bakura we have the results. Your blood type tested..."
LF: Alright everyone now raise your hand if you argee that this is one of the worse cliffhangers in history. raising hand Oh well on to more important matters. I want to thank everyone who reviewed. You have no idea how happy they made me. goes back to reading reviews for the umpteenth time. Now I just hope I don't end up dissappointing anyone. bows Okay now I will shut up and let you review. Thankies again.
Bakura: Shut up already!
LF: Yeah yeah yeah. stick tongue out
