Would you make the one you love cry: by kilta
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"Isn't there any cure for Suoh, to be able to see again?" Nokoru asked the doctor worryingly.
"Well! … His condition is temporary, he might manage to see again in months or years nobody knows … it depends on him." the doctor said very frankly and Nokoru lowered his head. 'Months or years? … oh god! .. It's my fault.'
Nokoru couldn't stop blaming himself. He hated seeing Suoh like this … he hated seeing Suoh so weak and that was all his handy work. Suoh had loved him so deeply, and he rewarded him by taking away the most precious sense which is his sight. How could someone live when he couldn't see anything? When everything is black? Just imaging how it would feel was scary … and to Suoh the strong ninja the athletics boy it was much harder, how would he live after losing his sight?
Nokoru walked towards Suoh's room so slowly. He wanted to see him so bad but what Suoh had said yesterday was so painful to Nokoru. He stayed all that day locked in his room crying at that day. He still thinks that he deserved that, anyway what had he expected from Suoh after all what he had done to him?
He sighed and looked up to find Akira waiting out side Suoh's room sitting on the seat there, Akira stood up when he glanced at Nokoru coming towards him.
"Kaichou! … Where were you?" Akira asked worryingly and Nokoru smiled at him and sat on the seat and Akira sat beside him.
"I went to ask the doctor about Suoh's health condition … and he told me he'd be fine." Nokoru said. Akira sighed in relief.
"And what about the blindness?" Nokoru looked down when Akira asked that question. Akira stared at Nokoru waiting for the answer but the later just kept quiet.
"There's someone inside with him?" Nokoru asked and Akira nodded.
"Yes! … Nagisa-san is in there." Akira could see the changed on Nokoru's face when he said 'Nagisa's' name, he looked a little shocked and disappointed.
"Ne Kaichou! … Won't you tell her about you and Takamura-senpai?"
"Of course not Akira … anyway we already broke up there is no reason to tell her that."
"B-but you said that you would stick with Takamura-senpai forever and you won't leave him when you knew he was alive." Nokoru eyes widen in shock, now he remembered, but also with this…
"Suoh doesn't want me anymore … Akira." Nokoru said slowly as he tried so hard not to cry.
"Kaichou."
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(Suoh's room)
Suoh was sitting on his bed. His back was leaning comfortably on the pillow. He was looking straight at nothing of course. Nagisa was sitting on the chair. She looked down at her lap sadly.
"So you did tell him that … but do you really mean it? You don't love him anymore?" Nagisa asked and she glanced at Suoh's hand as it clutched the white covers.
"I- I … don't but I really do .." Suoh breathed out and stopped for a moment. "I can't stop myself from wanting and loving him … I- I'm obsessed, this is sick."
Nagisa smiled and hold his shaking hand. "No! You're not sick …… it's just a real love, I really envy Nokoru-sama that he has someone like you to love him so deeply and strongly." Nagisa said while she looked a little sad.
"But with my true love towards him he doesn't seem like he even care." Suoh said with bitterness and Nagisa pulled her hand from his and stood up ready to leave.
"How would you know? … Anyway If I see him, can I tell him that you want him here?" Nagisa asked and Suoh was silent for few seconds before he nodded in agreement. Nagisa smiled at him before she left the room and she found Nokoru and Akira waiting out side.
"How is Suoh now, Nagisa-san?" Nokoru asked and Nagisa looked at him kindly.
"Go Nokoru-sama … Suoh-san asked for you." Nokoru startled, he was surprised. He didn't expect that Suoh wanted him to be there after what he had said yesterday. Nokoru just stayed confused and lost but then he felt someone was pushing him towards the door.
"A-Akira!"
"Go! Kaichou … Takamura-senpai needs you." Nokoru gave up and opened the door slowly and he could feel that his heart started to beat faster than before. He closed the door behind him as he entered the room and walked slowly towards Suoh's bed.
"Kaichou? …" Suoh's heart started to thump faster like Nokoru.
"Y- Yes! …" Nokoru answered as he sat on the chair not daring to look at Suoh. The two kept silent, they were nervous and they didn't know what left for them to say after all this, but Nokoru decided to break the tension.
"Does that mean you forgive me, Suoh?" Nokoru wondered and Suoh laughed at that suddenly.
"After losing my sight I don't have a reason to live … but guess why I'm still breathing?"
"S- Suoh! …"
"Nothing make sense anymore … but still I- I want to hear your voice, to smell your scent, to touch you, to kiss you … and that's all I am breathing for." Nokoru blushed and the tears fell down.
Suoh patted on an empty space on bed and Nokoru got onto it, facing Suoh who was trying to touch Nokoru, and Nokoru helped him by taking his lost hands, putting them on his cheeks. Suoh smiled when he touched his love. He started touching Nokoru's face … everywhere, his forehead, his nose, his chin, and Nokoru closed his eyes as Suoh touched them too, feeling his long thick eyelashes.
"You're crying?" Suoh asked as he wiped the tears away and then he touched Nokoru's lips, tracing it softly and then he brought his face closer and Nokoru closed his eyes immediately. They start kissing with strong passion for minutes.
"I- I love you Suoh … I love you." Nokoru sobbed and he leaned into Suoh's arms crying on his chest.
To be continued …
