A/n: Updating... again! Whee, okay, whatever...
I'll be updating the other things 2morrow, I'll try.
Chapter 4 Hidden Lies
Tidus POV ("Tidus", me drools as he walks by and hekeeps glancing at me as if I was crazy. Yeah, about him.)
She asked me who I was and I couldn't just lie to her... or could I? This was my chance. Maybe if I wouldn't tell her exactly who I was then I could teach her a lesson without getting hit or anything. So that way, the both of us would still be alive. It felt strange for her to be there, under me, waiting for the answer. I didn't reply just yet, and that made her more impatient. "Answer me!" she cried out hopefully that I would say it and not be and enemy. At least, that's what I hoped.
I scratched the back of my head and let out words carefully, being sure that none would ruin my true identity. "Well... I'm... uh-" smooth, Tidus, real smooth. Let me try again. "I'm Tidus?" Now that's nice. But did she already know who this Tidus was? He was the son of Jecht, to be honest I was ashamed of that. I never wanted to be involved with this machina thing.
"You're Tidus?" the youth breathed out under me, I nodded. "Okay, then. Thank-you for saving me, now I would like to get out from under here and away from you." Now that was a pleasant thing for her to say for a greeting, was it something I said? Or was it that she never had experienced being this close to a male. "But wait," okay, she's telling me something, "I want you to get in the Celsius with us three. To fix those wounds of yours. Besides, why were those machina following you?"
Having her talk more meant that I would too and it would mean that we were going to be under this place for a bit longer. I wasn't sure what to say so I just let out what I thought was best to say, "I was... trying to get into the facility of the ZAMS, the first one, I managed to get in all of them but I wasn't able to destroy the cores. I didn't have the right materials that I thought that I needed. So, I escaped and they were following me. I saw you and thought that you were going to get hurt so I saved you." The last part of my sentence seemed like I wasn't sure and that I had said it like a question but she didn't seem to suspect it.
"Okay. That seems pretty reasonable to me, I think. So you said that you made it into all of them but you didn't break any of the cores." I nodded hoping that she wasn't going to ask me to lead them to the cores... "Good. Then you can show us the way to them and we'll do the rest. You think that you can do that?" she questioned me and raised an eyebrow. This was not a good thing. Jecht will kill me.
This was risky but... I think... anyways, I was ashamed that I was his son. Couldn't hurt to be against him for once? I guess so with some hints of being uncertain. "I think I could." I shrugged and rolled off of her.
She nodded her head. When the both of us heard that the clashing stopped from out under the airship which this girl called the Celsius, it was the time when we were signaled to get out from our hiding place. I was the first to leave and then her. The machina were thrown to the side where people wouldn't noticed since it was jammed into a dark alley way. Then it was her participating turn to get out. I helped her by taking her hand and pulling her to her feet, she then pulled away suddenly as if she was afraid to catch a disease from me. "I'll thank you this time but don't expect another from me some other day when you help me." I nodded and looked away, ashamed that I had done something wrong by helping.
There was something about this girl that I was starting to find addicting, it was like I was a magnet, possibly I was falling for her but how. That could be impossible, the other thing is that I've only met her for like a few minutes and yet, already I'm falling to my knees. There was never going to be a chance for me to be with her especially when she would find out who I really was and there was this thing about her. As if she didn't want to fall for any guy, maybe, in her past, an event happened that was utterly disgusting to her? Maybe. The girl, she didn't even tell me her name and she already chose for me to work with her. I decided to ask, you know, just to make sure that she was Yuna. "Excuse me, but you are whom?" I shifted to one side, a bit away from her as if I was scared that I got the wrong person but I couldn't, right?
She turned and faced me, away from her friends that went into the Celsius. When she spoke, it seemed impossible to have her voice like that. In way that... I dunno, didn't fit her hard core in her appearance. You wouldn't think that she would have a voice like that if you were the only one talking to her. "I'm Yuna. Now come on. I have to tell the other two about you and what your job is going to be. It's really a fortune to have you right now, and on our side. I'd be disappointed if you were really someone else that wasn't really going to help us, you know, do the opposite."
I stood there, just having the last line of her sentence ring in my head. What if I made friends with her, or even more. But that was impossible for the reality. She was a cold hearted person but not all quite... But then, when she would find out... I would hate to think what would become of me. It just didn't seem right. Lifting my eyes from the ground, she was still there, waiting for me. Bi-coloured eyes patient when you'd think she'd hurt you if you tried to talk to her. "Yuna..." I liked the way that it rolled off my tongue in a smooth tender way. She looked at me as if she was waiting what I had to say, but in an impatient state.I had a feeling that she might be starting to feel annoyed by me. I shook my head and said, "I just wanted to say your name, you know, it's beautiful. Oh, and your eyes are too." I wondered how stupid I must have sounded.
I thought that what I saw was that she blushed and looked away from my ocean eyes for a moment. "Um... ahem... thanks. No one had said that before and," she turned away from my figure, "people thought that my eyes were a bit on the strange side." She gazed up at the sky and then turned. "Come. We have some business to take on, okay?" She just walked and I followed her.
As I followed her, there were bouncing thoughts in my mind telling me that I was doing the wrong thing, that I shouldn't be talking to her like that or saying things related to what I had said to her. This made my decision, I wasn't going to talk to her like this anymore or do any actions that showed my interest in her. Only... sometimes. I knew that I couldn't live with never. Besides, I knew that she didn't really feel all the comfortable if I had talked with or to her anyway. I heard it in her voice and saw it in her face. She was actually trying to avoid me, I think.
When I had stepped into the metallic surroundings I felt a bit strange... Machina, but this was this good kind, right? Jecht's his were the one that were contaminated with poisonous threats that I always planned to avoid. After I had a chance to talk to Yuna's hyper childish cousin, Rikku, and cold core, Paine, who was actually very understanding, I followed her motions which was leading me and her to her a room. Was it her room? I was so intoxicated with everything I nearly forgot why I was here. As she closed the door behind us I just returned to reality. What was the reason why I was here, again? She pointed to her arm as if she knew what was going on in my mind, that meant that she was referring to my arm. I shook my head yes to mean that I had remembered.
Making me sit on her bed or whoever owned it, she went to get a few things that she was going to mend my arm with. When she had retrieved them and they were in her hands, it was just a towel that was damply wet and some bandages afterwards, she came back to me and then sat beside me. I didn't feel all that comfortable but I just let that feeling seep through.
I watched her white fingers do there work as I tried to not think of the pain that was swelling up inside of me, I twitched at a sudden moment and she stopped gliding the damp towel over my arm with the dry blood that had crusted. "Are you okay?" she asked with a slight normal voice so that it would sound that she was trying to avoid bringing up a long conversation. But I could still hear the sympathy in her voice. She was just lying to me that she wasn't feeling anything. Oh yes. But I knew that there was something going on in her head and I wanted to know soon. "There," Yuna sighed out seeming that she wanted away from me. I felt better but my arm stung. I hope that it wasn't going to leave an appearing scar. "I think that's it's going to get better, don't you think? With my kind of work, it would be a big chance that it would. But don't take it personal. I don't like it if you do.
I was quiet and all I did to respond was nod. She was so close to me that I felt her arm against my side. Turning my head to the left slightly, she looked at something and turned to me, our eyes locking. I thought that her glance was a bit to early. Slowly, our head drew closer and right before our lips met, she moved back and I stopped leaning down. We turned away from each other and that's when Yuna exploded. It was as if she was a more ignorant person that her usual self would be.
"I... don't ever try that again, okay? I'm not ready for this, it's too early... besides I do not want to fall for a guy again. I can live on my own without some male caring for me!" I thought that she was saying to much without realizing it, I was scared to responded and so she kept going. "I can't do this. I just can't-" she turned to me and pointed a white finger right at my nose. "Don't think that whatever I helped to get your arm well or that I said thank-you under the airship that I like you. I don't take chances. Especially if I'm having missions these days. I have a goal and if some male happens to come along and I fall for him, it's going to change my goal. So don't think I'm ever going to be with you!"
Turning away, she half ran out of the room where we had almost had our lips locked together. Now I knew that she was actually afraid of hooking up with me, in other words to fall to a male like me. She didn't know that I was the son of Jecht and it wasn't because of that reason, it was because she was scared of something that would happen to her again if she were to give herself to a male. And her mission, she knew that if she was in love then it would scare her just to go into the databases and risk her life never to see the man that she would have loved ever again. She avoided those things but for how long. I knew that Jecht had done something to cause her to be in a such mood and behavior but he never told me.
Things were getting complicated around Yuna so I guessed that it was best if I wouldn't talk to her and keep every piece of information to myself that I would find unless she would ask for it or the others. I didn't have any control here, nothing. I was guessing that Yuna had the control, she was the leader, wasn't she? That meant that she could do things that the other two didn't have the privileges to do. That meant she could even kill someone who... "Mother..." I whispered. Was she this cold hearted to kill mother like that? That she didn't think what the person felt, only what goals she had and what she felt herself. She killed her!
I didn't believe Jecht at first but there was a chance that she had... now I knew that she was the one, it had to be. The thought's in my mind changed it was as if they now wanted me to carry on the task that my father gave out to me. I would kill her. There seemed to be no more sweet feeling towards Yuna, I was changed and just because one mistake. But it was good that it came up, I actually got to see what I was really supposed to do.
But before I would end her life, so that she would see and be with her parents once again, I would have to wait for the right time. When it was right then I would strike and then flee. But wouldn't that make me the same as her? As plain as a non-thinker as her? She killed my mother because she thought of herself, was it so, or not? But then... I was going to kill her because I thought of myself having the grief over my mother.
I was turning out like her. Couldn't all this just simplify?... The thoughts in my head calmed down and that's when I heard my name in sentences that were called out. It wasn't Yuna this time but for some reason, I wished that it had. It was Paine. You'd think that she would have a tiny voice but this time, when she called out for me, it was reasonable to hear. "Tidus, get your ass over here, now! Yuna's says that we'll be leaving for the next mission since we got our suits back!"
Sighing, I walked out, knowing that there were lies that were hidden all over the place.
A/n: I know, a bit short, so I might re-write this chapter but only if you guys want me to. I'll be doing my other ficcies now. First off, The Taste Of My Real Life!
-Yuna-Blueo'Hara
