Blue Serentity - Sesshoumaru

Day 9: Part 1 - Blue/Serenity (Sesshoumaru)


Sesshoumaru looked over at the young girl playing in the blue water and raising the ire of a small little youkai that rested at the edge. The young girl who provoked so much self reflection simple through her own existence.

Once upon a time, Sesshoumaru regarded himself as higher to those around him. He wasn't hindered by base desires, or driven wild by carnal need. That made him able to keep his mind sharper in any situation, regardless of his opponent. It was a source of mild amusement as well when he was faced with someone who thought that seduction was a viable option. The offense they showcased when their attempts made caused no affect or even hesitation only increased that mild amusement. So, of course, he thought that the fact he felt no love or lust towards anyone only made him stronger.

Until now, that is.

All because of a simple human girl.

Sesshoumaru held affection for Rin. That was all he would allow himself to admit, even in his own mind. More often than he'd like, he found himself comparing his experiences with her to his memories of time with his father, wondering if that was how his father must have felt in those situations. He cared for her. Which made his assessment of himself incorrect.

The more Sesshoumaru thought about it, he wasn't certain what he felt anymore. He obviously could feel affection for those he considered family. And he didn't hate Jaken, so obviously he could tolerate others. When he really thought about whether or not he wanted a romantic partner and possible children of his blood, he found that he wasn't as opposed to that idea as he once thought. But thoughts of desiring someone the way he heard male were supposed to seemed to fall flat. He just simply couldn't picture it, unless it was just to have children.

Perhaps to most that would have prompted some questioning or concern. But Sesshoumaru made his peace with it. He didn't care about the expectations of others, and he didn't care if he didn't fit into the norm.

After all, some serenity was nice every once a while.